I am at a loss. I had finally met my goal about 2 months ago, got to 108 pounds, was estatic. Went camping, and although I watched what I ate, came back to a 2 pound gain. Told myself, that's ok, probably water from sodium and such,got right back on track. I couldn't lose those 2 pounds again, but was alright with it and kept going. Then, 9 days ago, I slipped. At 6 p.m., I started, and ate till I was so full and sick. And now, here I am, the 9th day, it's 8:40 pm, and once again, I am stuffed and disgusted with myself. I can't stop. I do so well during the day. I tried staying active, doing other things at night, and still, I binge, even if I keep myself busy until late, I will binge before bed. I have gained 8 pounds, and as much as I want to tell myself some of it's water, I know I have ingested so many calories that the 8 pounds is accurate. And, it's so discouraging to get these same pounds off again. I don't know how to stop, and with a 3 day holiday weekend here, I'm afraid I'll let it ride and tell myself foolishly that Tuesday I will start, and in the meantime I will continue to do so much damage. I hope that posting here might help me....
Don't wait till tuesday!!!! I hit goal and have maintained for awhile but I'm slipping again big time. Tonight I skipped an event because I knew they were serving dessert - only to stay home and have a full-out binge. I know the long holiday weekend is coming, but I'm going to start over TOMORROW - I can't let that be an excuse. I hope you do the same, because I'm sure you will feel AWFUL all weekend if you don't. Good luck
Last edited by iriswhispers; 09-03-2009 at 10:49 PM.
I think one of the most important things is not to be too hard on yourself. Don't get me wrong I know what your going through and I was never good at not being hard on myself. But look at it this way, seeing your SW you have come A LONG way and even if you gained those 8 real pounds, they are NOTHING. You can stop it now. Everyone has slip-ups. Instead of feeling really bad and worrying about having to lose the weight right away, just try not to binge. Let yourself eat when hungry and don't try to make it too little or controlled. Try to come off the binge slowly like that. Then when you are feeling better because you haven't binged for a couple days you can start trying to work on losing the weight.
I know it may feel like a big deal now and you need to just stop, but try and ease out of it gently and then I think it will be easier to get back into game-mode.
Well anyway, that is just my advice, can't say I am always able to pull myself out of a binge real quick.
I hope whatever you try and do it works for you!
Good luck, I am rooting for you! You really haven't done much damage so don't feel down ok!
Thanks, it's a new day, and although I feel bloated and awful, I have the confidence to try again tonight. I just have to try not to slip this evening. It's hard, my daughter loves Friday nights and eating out, plus I am working an installation today, which means lunch out with my crew who loooves to eat. I will try to stick to my main plan and have soup or salad for lunch and ignore what they are ordering
I am in the exact boat as you: was at goal, then got lazy, and now 8 lbs above baseline: Not horrid, but all clothes are feeling tight and I have no energy because I'm eating badly....
I think these girls gave great advice: feeling disgusted with yourself will only make you do it more. Try to just avoid binging, then reign in your calories and stick to your plan after at least a binge free week.
That is what I'm going to shoot for STARTING TODAY.
Hang in there.
It almost hurts to read your post because I recognize the feeling of sinking so well. I find that what helps is to plan lots of organized exercise in the next few days. I'm feeling the same kind of slipping as you are and I'm struggling through it like this. I have already arranged to go hiking tomorrow, and I've made plans with a friend to play tennis the next day. I'm about to call another friend to arrange a walk for the evening. I find that staying active keeps me focused away from the food. Give it a try and don't give in to the food. Just keep telling yourself that it does not feel good to make yourself feel bad!
Struggling with binging is something I know well. It's difficult. Sometimes, when I want to slow down the urge for carbs, I eat more lean, healthy protein and take vitamins. That seems to help to make the binges shorter and then gradually they start to diminish in size. It could be that your body is starving for some nutrients that it's not getting and it needs more than willpower to stop the eating.
I hope you can find a way to stop your binges. It's been a long struggle for me, too. My binges are getting smaller and much less frequent as I feel better and eat better. I know that I can't have just one piece of milk chocolate. Have you been able to identify any of your trigger foods?
Best wishes Congratulations on what you have achieved so far!
I so feel your frustration. You have really done great losing all the weight. Been there, done that and continue to struggle. For some reason I begin giving myself permission to indulge and overeat. I've got to build up that "NO" muscle. I'm reminding myself daily with messages on a 3x5 cards why I want to get control of my eating. I post those all around the house, carry them in my purse, etc to remind me of why I am doing this. I'm also writing out a meal plan each day. The reminder cards help me stay on track and more willing to stick to plan. Maybe this will help. If it does, check out "Beck Diet for Life".
thanks everyone. I did really well for 2 days, then I did it again last night. Started, of course, with allowing myself to eat too much at the Labor Day picinic, which then spiraled into an all nighter. The scale is punishing me today, but I am determined to try again. Lunch today with my crew at work will hopefully find me with soup and salad....
Oh RedKat, I am in your shoes, I totally am. Why do we do it? Why?! Im so mad and disgusted at myself I cant even explain it. I almost think taking the energy to sit and be so disgusted with myself is just exausting. If that makes sense. Its the same ole thing that keeps happening to me:
1. Extreme determination!
2. Binge
3. Extreme disgust with self
then again.............
1. Extreme determination!
2. Binge
3. Extreme disgust with self AGAIN
I cant seem to stop this. Ive lost almost 100 lbs and something has gotten control of my mind that says "Go ahead, it will be ok". I hate it! Like today I am so determined and motivated, and will probaly do well all week. But when the weekend gets here and Im at home with food, its like........who am I? And why does it control me?
Anyway, sorry to probaly freak you out with all this but I just had to let you know you are not alone. Im struggling with this and am sick to death of it.
I'm not trying to sell "Beck Diet For Life" but it is working for me. I can sooooo relate to your post MugCanDoIt. Exact same experiences. Beck Diet for Life is based on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and teaches techniques for fighting those permission giving thoughts. As well as techniques for building the "NO" muscle. I've been doing it for 2.5 weeks....officially started my eating plan Saturday. I've been successful so far and I am feeling much more confident than in the past. The reminder cards help to keep me focused and not so easy to slip. Unfortunately at my age, OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND. I forget so easily these days. Google it and check it out.
Thanks again for everyone's support. Had a bit too much at lunch (we took a late lunch, I was starving, and the place gave us unlimited bread....) but so far, tonight, it's 8 pm and I've been good. It's a start. And Blue Daisy, thank you, I am going to go check it out now.....
9th day, can't stop binging
