So I posted earlier and again I made it through the day until both my roommates went out. I hate it when they do that. I'm fine when they are here, but alone is when I mess up. So anyhow, there's nothing sweet in the house but I remember there is this really old gigantic tub of neopoliten ice cream in the outside freezer. So I scraped the ice off to get to the semi okay part to eat. Then I decided to liven it up so I wouldn't taste how stale it was by adding trail mix and peanut butter. However, because I peanut butter and trail mix are hard to get rid of (I'm bulimic) I added some vanilla soy milk and mixed it all together into a soupy disgusting bowl of mind numbing anesthesia.
The funny thing was I was googling eating disorder treatments in my area as I was gulping down this swirl of mush. God, I need help. What the heck is wrong with me. I'm only writing this so candidly because this IS the disease. This is how messed up it is.
Hopefully those of you who are abstinent from food addiction can read this and it helps them remember where they came from. Hopefully, me writing this makes me not sweep it under the carpet like its no big deal IT IS a big deal.
Anyhow, try again tomorrow.
I felt I was reading about myself when I read your post. I am totally like you, I eat unhealthy stuff knowing its wrong and then regret it for hours later.
I too have grown this eating disorder since last few months and do binge on stuff secretly and then I pretend to eat healthy in front of other.
I am thinking of joining WW from this weekend, may be it will make me little more accountable. I need to get hold of my eating problem before its too late
I too am looking for something like a group or a meeting that will help hold me accountable. The secrecy is what makes it bad. Let me know how ww works for you.
I actually scraped the ice off the ice cream?
