Junked All My Diet Books!!!
Today I did something I thought I'd never do. I gathered all of my diet books, put them in kitchen bags, and drove them down to my local library to donate them. I didn't realize how much I've been hoarding those books until I started hauling the bags in my car - 5 trash bags full!
Most of the books were bought within the last 2 years, which tells you what I've been going through with "diet hopping" in the last few years. High carb/low fat, low carb/high fat, raw food diet, Clean Eating Diet, Eat To Live diet, McDougall diet, Schwartzbein Principle diet... my head is spinning!!! Did I really get that obsessed with diets???
I think I've had some breakthrough of sorts that began a week ago. I went through 4 weeks of training for a new job plus doing full-time work, very high stress. I was already planning at that point to do a 14 week challenge just eating a raw vegan diet (all raw fruits and veggies, nuts and seeds, avocados). I thought having a big online support group would finally bring me success in taming my binge eating and help me lose these 35 pounds I gained in the last 2 years. The combination of the end of the 4 week training (which I passed) and the upcoming "diet" launched me into a 4 day planned binge. I was miserable the whole time but I just couldn't seem to stop myself.
On Monday, I started the raw diet and did fine for 4 days and then something just clicked. I dug into my closet and pulled out two cookbooks of vegan meals for one person. Looking at the cookbook, I thought, "these recipes sound really good and easy and balanced - and they're not a DIET, but NORMAL food (i.e., protein, grains, etc)."
So I'm now going to try an approach that terrifies me but that I've never done - just making simple meals, balanced meals, not thinking about calories or foods or nutrients. I'm not going to limit anything (except animal products which aren't a limitation to me, since they don't tempt me) and I'm not going to weigh myself or think about weight. I know that will come if I stop thinking in terms of "diet" and start thinking in terms of "healthy eating habits".
Tam
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