I'm a huge binge eater, for months I've been binging everyday. I don't even consider it a problem really. It's just become the norm to me. One day I went to the store and bought 2 big frozen pizzas, a bag of chips and dip, a box of ice cream sandwiches, a loaf of sweet Italian bread, and a 6 pack of Mountain Dew. I ate all of that in 24 hours. It's been like that everyday. I know it's emotional eating, and I know I've hit rock bottom. I'm at my highest weight ever.
The past few days I've been trying to eat less. This is a log of what I've been eating. Now it's tons of junk food, and my calories are really high. But what's sad is it too so much will power to get down to this level of eating.
7/18/2009
scrambled eggs w/ketchup 500 calories
3 pieces of bacon 150 calories
one coke 140 calories
one coke 140 calories
baked chips 120 calories
lean pizza 350 calories
lots of chips 250 calories
more chips = ( 200
Total: 2200 calories
7/19/2009
sub sandwich and chips 700 calorise
lean cuisine pizza 350 calories
lean cuisine pizza 350 calories
cheeseburger-500 calories
onion rings-400 calories
Total: 2300 calories
7/20/2009
lunch meat turkey 400 calories
steak quesadilla 510
steak quesadilla 510
hamburger 500 calories
small moujntain dew 275 calories
strawberry sundae 500 calories
Total: 2695 calories
This is a huge amount of food, but I've felt so deprived. The sundae was almost the start of a binge, but luckily I was able to stop it. The harm was done though, 500 calories is a meal for most of you.
I eat BIG meals several times a day and feel hungry. All I think about and crave is food.
How am I ever going to get down to 1500-2000 calories?
I feel so discouraged. I hate having an addictive personality.
I do this with everything. I do nothing in moderation.


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