It's officially been since June 1st since my last binge/serious guilt ridden junk session. It's not been easy. My body associates my caffeine intake with the carbonation of soda. I tried to cut all things fizzy out, but was really driving myself to the extreme edge of sanity, as I was bored with my options of milk water and crystal light in the house. The migraines that hit in the first two weeks were almost unbearable, even actually prevented me from sleeping no matter what I took to help. I got past them, thankfully, and am glad I kept with it. I'm now hooked on sparkling flavored waters! For me, it's a surrogate soda thing. It tastes good, keeps my mouth busy with the fizz, therefore taking longer to drink, but I'm also not ingesting calories with it or caffeine, but don't tell that to my body!
For years, especially in the last six months, I found myself sneaking food into the house, like pepsi and oatmeal cream pies (even though I don't like them!) to self medicate. I was feeling incredibly unhappy with a lot of things in my life, especially my body, and as I know many of us do, I ate to try and comfort myself. Finally, I pretty much whacked myself in the head and decided that enough was enough. I needed to stop going to the store for junk all together. (Not to mention feeling embarassed being a fat chick buying junk food!) I threw out all trash I had hidden around the room, went on a total cleaning spree, and am so very glad that I did it.
I'm going to say I don't have junk cravings or days I just want to eat like crap, because I do, and often, but now that it's not ruling over my days and I feel that I'm the one in control rather than the binge urge, I feel I'm over that hurdle.
(If only I could get over another one that would allow me to enjoy mowing the lawn! Ugh!)