[Tracy]

Hi Everyone,
GlamourGirl,I hope you don't mind i took your idea from last week to start a Weekend Challenge. I don't know if anyone wants to join me,it being the holiday. But ,I need some accountibility. I find it easier and more motivating keeping track here than in my own journal.Any joiners?
My Goals for the Weekend
1,300 Cal
Water: at least 50 oz
Exercise:at least 25 min. each day!

[just_a_dreamy1]

I'm totally in! My only two goals are no binges, max 2 drinks a night, and drinking atleast 6 bottles of water a day.

Here's to a great weekend!!

[Tracy]

Hi just a dreamy,
I guess it is just me & you!
Happy 4th! And Good Luck With Goals!

[Tracy]

July 4th
Water:48oz{so far}
Exercise:60.min. elliptical
Calories:Coffee & Cream:40
Dinner:280cal.
Picnic & snacks:900 **sigh**
Pudding:120cal.

[just_a_dreamy1]

Thank you!

You, too!

DB and I went to the farmer's market and stocked up on some fresh fruit. We really need to go grocery shopping!

[mrsaugie]

you know i do not post in this section often but count me in as well since the weekends are when i really struggle. my main goal for this weekend is to stop eating when i do not fell hungry any more. i used to be really good at this and it is what worked. but in the last year i really got off track with everything including exercising.

[just_a_dreamy1]

Welcome, mrsaugie!! You can do this!! We're here for you whenever you need us!

[Tracy]

mrsaugie

[Tracy]

July 5
Calories:
Coffee &Cream:40 cal.
Snack:200cal.
Salad:Lettuce,dressing,egg,cheese235cal.
Pudding:60

Water:48oz[so far]
Exercise:50 min elliptical

[just_a_dreamy1]

Tracy and mrsaugie, How was your Saturday?

Any lurkers, please pop in! It's never too late to have even half a good weekend!

[jendiet]

I wanted to eat 2 burgers. Especially since I was doing fast 5 while waiting on my guests! And they were LATE. I waited til 8 pm. When they finally arrived. NO one else was hungry. I broke my fast with a hamburger, but I was upset while eating it. And when I was done..I kept thinking another one would be nice. but then it hit me--emotional eating. Then I wanted to get a little buzzed. I drank 2 wine coolers. I didn't like them because they were so sweet but I was tempted to drink a 3rd one just to get buzzed. And then I was like nah--too many calories.

then I was snacking on fries with my wine cooler. I ate a serving. Then I asked for a second. IN the middle of the second one. I was like you know what? I want some watermelon instead. I switched it out. I made a lot of very good choices concerning my food even on a holiday.

[Tracy]

just a dreamy,
Sat. turned out not bad. Met my goals for the day. Ate w/in cal.,just not of the right foods.
Glad to have you,jendiet

[just_a_dreamy1]

jendiet - Hi! Good for you for showing such self control under really difficult circumstances! It sounds like you did awesome!

Tracy - Good to hear!!

[mrsaugie]

thank you for the welcome. and my saturday was surprisingly good. the only problem if you will was dinner that was just DH and myself after DS went to bed. i know i over ate on the steak but it was also the last thing that i touched on my plate i made sure the salad the corn on the cob and the baked potato where gone first because i knew that i would over do the meat and not touch everything else. today is going good so far for me. hope everyone else is having a good day.

[just_a_dreamy1]

mrsaugie - It sounds like you handled Saturday just fine! I'm glad to hear that today is going good

AFM - I was a little scared of tonight. I thought that I might end up alone at the house from 7 pm, no plans, and feeling a bit bummed about a couple things. The habit of binging to try to compensate for boredom and loneliness was hovering at the edge of my mind, stronger then it EVER has been these whole two weeks.

DB changed his plans, and so we're spending the night together. I'm happy, but this experience has left me shaken. I know that I'm going to end up alone again at some point, feeling bored and lonely. I need a game plan.

I want to attend an OA meeting next week. This experience has underlined the knowledge that I can't do this by myself. It's extra motivation to get on the phone and call the group leader so that I HAVE to go.

I've considered counseling, but I don't have much in the way of options. There is a free counselling service provided by my benefits, and I went to a counsellor a couple weeks ago. Basically, because the service is very short term and general, she said that I would probably do best with a referral to a counsellor who specializes in eating disorders. However, I can't afford to go to a specialist because my benefits don't cover even a quarter of the cost of each session. Still, when I first saw her, I was only a few days binge free. Now that I'm two weeks, she might be able to help me with coping techniques when the urge hits. I'm going to book another appointment with her next week.

I have an appointment with my family doctor tomorrow. I'm going to mention the depression, and I'm also going to ask for a referral to a nutritionist.

Also - really simple, but I didn't bring enough food today, and so I've been thinking of food and kind of hungry all day. I'm going to make a commitment to get my lunches together the night before, so I don't end up dashing out the door without enough to eat.

Other then that, I have the phone number and web address of a couple support groups who run sessions regularly 24/7. I'm making the commitment to myself that if I need support and I'm alone, I will get online or on the phone.

Thank you for bearing with me through that journal I just needed to outline my plan of action in my mind again to feel strong about this. Because I AM strong!