Jennifer - Gosh, hon, I really feel for you! Don't worry about venting here, we totally understand! *HUGS*

Danni - Good for you!!

Day 10 for me!

Hi everyone,

I did really well yesterday, so it's on to Day 2 for me! I can't wait to start the July challenge! :)

Originally Posted by BellyLicious:
I'm definitely in, this is exactly what I need. Day 1 it is!

Back to day 1 today :(
It's really sad that I can't go one day without going overboard :rolleyes: Anyway, on to a better one!

I am new here but very glad to find this group. I sooo need you guys! I am a chronic binger and am struggling to just deal with the emotions and issues and stop stuffing it all down. I will never control my weight without stopping the binging...so today is my Day One.

I have a habit of taking my daughter to her gym and then swinging by the store on our way home (because we pass it, ya know?) and loading up on all my junk for the night. Today I am NOT GONNA DO IT! We have to stop for a water and TP, but I am going to do it on the way..we are taking another little girl there with us so I won't buy the binge food with her watching, so it will stop me. I just don't trust myself on day one to go afterwards when she will be with her own mama.

Wow...it just hit me that I will not load up junk food with someone else's kid watching but I do it with my own there. That hit me hard and makes me want to go eat it away, but I won't. It's time to face these things.

Thanks ladies for the support. I'm pretty hungry right now, I have been sipping on lemon water all day. Well, I have to take the friend to the meeting in 45 minutes. It is very hot out there.

Skinny, the first step for you is to not go to the store and buy all that junk food! You can do it!

Day 1 and I am doing ok. I did have McD's for lunch, but didn't get that extra brownie melt and/or a snack wrap to eat on the way home.

Good job, Melode! :cp:

The first thing is to focus on just having regular meals, without binging or having extra food on top of it. (You can worry about what you eat for your regular meals later on.) That was a tough one for me, too, (not getting extra food on top of my meals, I mean.)

Originally Posted by moxiegrl:
The first thing is to focus on just having regular meals, without binging or having extra food on top of it. (You can worry about what you eat for your regular meals later on.) That was a tough one for me, too, (not getting extra food on top of my meals, I mean.)

That is very true for me too!

So I think I am starting day 4 (its Thurs here).

Very proud of self last night . . . I was stlll full from a big lunch and had half a bowl of soup for dinner . . . and stopped when I'd had enough. Not quite sure when the last time I did that! Oh and a co-worker decided to tell me how much weight I have gained since I started work (which makes me care less about the fact she is not getting a payrise this year . . .). Um. Do these types of people really think that we have no clue or no mirrors at home?? I think the fact that none of my hotarse clothes fit anymore was a big indicator . . . .

It made me really mad (and bring up feelings of failure which I can do enough on my own thankyouverymuch), but I did not go home and start the pity party. SkinnyJeans, it sounds easy I know but the best thing I did last night was just NOT swing past the store on the way home. I had stocked up on a bunch of unprocessed foods the other day so I knew I had enough for dinner. Normally someone pointing out I am chub would have set me off on gathering my provisions so I can sit on the couch that night and mindlessly eat until I am numb. But I did not.

So now I would like to lose weight for spite. Is that too petty :D I kid, I kid . . . ;)

I decided at the start of the week that I could either keep letting everything in life lead me to eat, or I can take myself in hand and start dealing with the real problems. That is both harder and easier I am finding. It feeeeels difficult to feeeeel everything at first, but the anxiety goes quicker since I allowed myself just to get mad, vent to my friends and move onto the job of doing what I need to to be healthy . . .

Great observations, Danni! I enjoy your posts :)

Thanks Penelope :) How's your day going? I just saw you are from Alberta . . . I had a friend living in Edmonton a few years back - its such a beautiful part of the world! Love Canada!

I'm working an evening shift tonight, so I'm doing ok :p How about you?

I am wishing I didnt have to be at work! Today is particularly slow-going . . . but on the upside one more sleep and its Friday!!!!!! :D

Starting day 2! Very liberating to go to sleep and realize it's been a binge free day - the first in a long time! So yay me :)

Well done BellyLicious!!! :)

I have been unsettled all afternoon . . . not sure what it was about and about an hour ago I was ready to dive into some noodles but I did not. I decided that eating at 10pm is not an option. So another fab day :D

Tomorrow is Friday here!!!! Yay!!!

Have a good day all!

Hello all, congratulations bellylicious! See you can do it! Yay Danni, I love your introspective posts! Well, I had a good experience last night. I am on 2 weeks of binge free eating.

I ate within my 5 hour window 2 meals. After the second one, SO decided a coconut cream pie milkshake would be a good idea. I thought it sounded good too. We went and got one!

When I received it, I started to wonder about what part of my success it would undo. Was this SO trying to sabotage my weight loss again? Did he want me to drink the whole thing? How many calories was it? Then I thought in my head. I know he loves me and he WOULD NOT demand that I drank the whole thing. PLUS, I have a freezer. Plus, I could share with my son. I tasted it's creamy perfection mixed with one of my favorite foods of all time: coconut. I worked on the whipped cream on top--knowing that part had a lot less calories...Then I started dipping in further and further. When i saw I had drank 1/4 of the thing. I was like, wow I'm full and I really need a glass of water now! So that was it. we went home and mine went promptly in the freezer. And I grabbed a bottle of water. Unlike other coconut cream pie milkshake nights--that is where it stayed. I didn't keep getting up to get more and more til I finished the thing an hour later. It is still in my freezer. Still 3/4th full.

I am so proud of this accomplishment. I haven't been able to do something like that in a while!

Oh, and I know my ticker says 185-but that is because I avg. daily weights. The scale read 183.4 this morning! I realize that is 3.5 lbs away from my first goal--getting out of the 180s.