[kaebea]

I always find myself returning to 3FC somehow.

My weight battle has been going on since i was nine. I've lost significant weight through more or less healthy diet and exercise about 3 times? once in HS, once in between college stints, and once after graduating from college.
common sense and good nutrition has always been my M.O.

I had been having some health issues due to a bad reaction to a birth control drug. But now that i've been off of it for over a year, i feel like my health and well being is strong enough again, and i feel balanced enough to give diet and exercise a good go again.

My fear is that i will never be able to stick to a good eating plan without binging. I can't remember the last time i even went a week without blowing it. 2 days seems to be my max.
i've been yo-yoing between 175 and 180 for about 6 months now and i know that isn't good for me.

Is anyone else addicted to sugar? i know they say to treat yourself every now and then. How often does everyone 'treat' themselves? weekly? monthly? I seem to feel i need a treat just about every time i go to the store!!!!

I know i have made some progress. After I quit the pill in jun 07, i gained about 10 #s. up to 185 and i felt like i was just ballooning up uncontrollably. After working with a naturopath, i am now at about 178, and it feels pretty stable. I don't have as bad of cravings, but i still binge out of habit, or for comfort. Comfort from boredom or anxiety or loneliness or stress. I've been cooking more and having sucess with a low carb plan.

I don't know why i'm writing. I know that there is nothing any of you can do to help me loose wieght or change my habits.
i know it's up to me.
they say you have to want to change. Well, i do. I just keep putting it off for every tomorrow....

what do i do? it should be so simple. but i make it so HARD!!!!!!!!

I know it's just baby steps. maybe i am expecting too much too soon....
baby steps, baby steps, baby steps.

I know WHAT to do.... i just can't seem to actually DO it.

I feel so weak...

[fatmad]

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don't know why i'm writing. I know that there is nothing any of you can do to help me loose wieght or change my habits.
i know it's up to me.
they say you have to want to change. Well, i do. I just keep putting it off for every tomorrow....

what do i do? it should be so simple. but i make it so HARD!!!!!!!!

Kaebea: You have been able to do the basics, but the change isn't sticking cause you haven't rooted out part of the problem.
I know how to eat too, but don't or don't always do it.
We write and read for the support, for the lack of judgement, for the inspiration.
So today, even tho I ate some fries, I didn't eat all of them and I didn't binge, thanks to some support here. I have never wanted to join things like WW, I'm not a group meeting person. But online communities have worked for me in the past (for other things) so I thought I'd give a try for weight loss.
So far so good.
best wishes and heres hoping you find what you need.
fatmad

[kaebea]

huh, well i haven't overeaten yet today.
and i made it home with out stopping for bingefood or fast food.

and that's half the battle for me....normally once i make it home from work, i'm more likely to cook the healthy food that i have on hand.




I dont' know, when ever i've lost weight, it's always been slightly different.
i think i always expect too much from the support forum.
As in i think it will answer all my over eating problems and make me lose weight, but of course, it's not that simple. For me the support is gone the second i log out. maybe I 've just failed to ever make a strong connection with anyone on 3fc.

It is nice to know that there are other's with my dilemma out there. I feel like i'm the only freak on the planet that can eat like a bottomless pit. I always blamed it on being raised with all brothers, but i think i can eat more than they all do combined....

enough of that though, here's to turning over a new leaf


It's all just baby steps, little things.
like 5 mins on the indo board this morning ( it's a balance trainer, lot's of fun, very challenging for the uncoordinated sorts like myself)
and just a tea at the coffee house after work---no cinnamon scone.

[doIlookfat?]

Hi Kaebea

I just read your post and wanted you to know if you're a freak, then I'm a freak too. I could have written that post myself. Actually, if you do a search of my old posts, I probably did!

I totally can't stop eating for comfort, stress release, anxiety, ect. It just doesn't ever seem to end. One day I can make my mind up to do X to lose weight, and by the end of the day I've lost all hope. I eat all the wrong things for all the wrong reasons.

I've been looking into doing the low carb thing, but after I see the choices of foods I can eat, I go into a panic attack thinking about all the foods I CAN'T have, you know? And then I think "I can't do this. Eventually I'll cheat". I always cheat. Who's to say I won't again? Who's to say this will be yet another failed attempt at losing weight?

I am so weak, and so tired of it all. The last time I weighed myself it was 177. Up two pounds from the riduculous weight of 175, which I have been for the last year. At least I'm not the 180 I was (my highest) about 2 years ago, but I'm steadily getting up there again. It sucks. I wish I knew what to do, just like you.

I hope I connected with you. Your problems sound like my problems. Just thought you'd like to hear that.

Heidi
(oh, and don't look at the stats on the side. That was a loooooong time ago. )

[Thighs Be Gone]

Ah well, ****. I 'm a freak too! I also have eaten all the wrong things for all the wrong reasons.

I love posting and reading because I don't like to burden my friends with my incessant talk of weightloss and food. Many of them are overweight and just don't want to hear it. I don't blame them really. But for me, right now I have decided to make myself a priority rather than the rest of the world. I can do this and I am worth it.

OP, you are worth more than that food. Whatever reason you are eating, the food WILL make it worse. It can't ever solve ANY problem. That's what I tell myself. Good luck to you!

[kaebea]

Yeah, i was just writing in my personal diary.
i started it when i was 21 and i just filled in the last page today. I'm 33 now.
it was kind of neat to be at a place where i could reflect back over the 12 years of my adult life.

lots of stuff i can barely stand to read!!! like recounts of past boyfriends and heart ache and sobbing!

but one topic that is consistent throughout is the wieght struggle.

I've tried the low carb thing and it works .
i think i am addicted to sugar, so when i get it out of my system, i don't crave it. I've been browsing posts on the sugar busters forum.
somethings missing though, i just keep slipping up.


maybe things will change now. i used to be a health nut. maybe that is who i am underneath. maybe i can get that person back if that is what i really want.

I look at me now and i know this ISN'T me!
I'm happy, i'm full of life! I like being healthy and active!
what's become of me? how in the heck is this who i am now?

One thing i know for sure is that sugar HURTS me.
candy hurts me, chips hurt me, processed foods hurt me.

if i can turn to the things that help me...then i'll move forward and suceed and get past all this...

I think we are all addicted. that's what i think . that's why it's so hard for us all....

[doIlookfat?]

It's what I've been saying all along. I am addicted. The feeling I get from eating I am addicted to. All of us find some way to cope with stress and anxiety at times. Some turn to smoking, some drinking, some exercise, some can take a relaxing bath and find a way to calm themselves. I use food.

It's like the baby needing it's pacifier, or thumb. We don't outgrow that need to calm ourselves. Food does it for me, unfortunately, and I haven't found a way to deal with it in a heathly manner. Oh, how I WISH I was the type who can run for 4 miles and feel happy and relaxed. Or just sit and meditate. No, I run straight for anything that tastes good and fills up my tummy. THAT calms me down. THAT is what has worked in the past. I just can't get past it and replace it.

Yes, I am addicted to food....to sugar, to fatty foods and all things unhealthy. Don't get me wrong. I like a good plate of yummy veggies now and then, but it just doesn't do the trick like a bowl of sugary cereal or mac-n-cheese after a long and stressful day at work. It's called comfort foods for a reason! LOL!

Heidi

[kaebea]

so we should treat binge food like a drug then, and stay away from it.

[Spoz]

Kaebea one thing that strikes a common chord throughout people who binge and people who cant maintain a healthy weight is, as fatmad mentioned, a deeper root. I always ahd bad self esteem and so no matter how much weight I lost it was always easy to pile it back on because I was still never good enough for myself.

So my question is to you...are you being treat for binge eating? I would totally reccomend therapy or doing something like the self help program in 'overcome binge eating;' by C Fairburne.