Hi! My name is Ingrid and I'm a new member I already post my introduction post. I'm a 27 years old Spanish girl living in Chile now.
So the thing is I moved to Chile on August 30th to be with my bf Michael and our relationship is just incredible, great but we were living with his mother and 18 years old brother so it had been a little difficult for me, but mostly because we all are moving to a new house and Michael and I have been staying at the newly built house for almost 3 weeks now but we are staying in the second floor and the first floor is still under construction and we can use one bathroom and only the wc, not the washbasin and of course, not the shower so we still have to take shower in the old house so I haven't been able to take a shower daily (once I was able to take a shower after 3 days!!! I almost died ), that and a lot more inconvinients have been kind of stressful for me.
I'm ovo-lacto vegetarian and I'm anorexic altought I have been trying to recover and be as healthy as possible (I'm 5'7'' and before this three weeks was 128-132 lbs). i had been with a great therapist before I arrived here so I was really recovering. Before whenever I binged (almost never) I would always purge, I mean, I had never binged without purging but lately , like the last 17 weeks I have been eating 3000-3500 cals throughout the day daily!!! I have never, NEVER done that before and altought I know I have been under so much stress and my life have changed completely I want to stop this now! I mean, I can't imagine how much weight I've gained but really I don't want to know. As I said, I arrived to Chile in August 30th and since September 5th we have been staying in the new house and I started this binge cycle on September 9th. 17 BINGE DAYS!!!! It couldn't be a coincidence right? the moving and start of this situation? I don't know...

I'm so desesperate and want to end this now, but I don't really know how and how I should start eating again after all this days and what have I done to my body???

Welcome HarleyGirl. I understand how scared and confused you must feel. I think you are right- there is something emotional going on and you are using a pattern of behavior that is familiar to you. Our compulsive eating patterns can change over time. I went through alot of phases. Coming here is a good start. Can you email your therapist (sounds like she is back in Spain)? Talking to someone who knows your story makes such a difference. Please try not to think too much about the effects of the last 17 days- in the scheme of your life they will not have a lasting impact on your body. Personally, I had a good thing happen today- I ran into a man who has had addiction issues and realized how much physical activity played in his recovery. He rode 100 miles on Wednesday, was on a long hike with his dog today, and is headed to Peru on the weekend to hike and bike with his son. It seems to help get the negativeness and craziness out of him. I know that my eating has been creeping up in calories and that yesterday I had a long hike with beautiful ocean views and I felt really empowered. I try to seek those kinds of rewards, rather than the negative food stuff. I know exercise can become compulsive especially for anorexics, but it is a possible way to break your cycle. When your body is working well, often it seems to want to eat well. Hopefully others will chime in.

Thanks so much for your reply Tommy I think you are totally right about writing to my therapist about all this. Also, as I said, this began when I moved here. I moved from a city where I had a great gym, supermarkets every where and I could go every where walking and now I'm in like a little town where there's NOTHING and I mean NOTHING to do, nothing near, no gyms, no big supermarkets, so I think that's also what hasn't been helping me at all, I feel so trapped here and also I forgot to say that like 90 % of those calories are chocolate!!! I love chocolate but I always restricted on it so well, now you know a little more

P.S. Sorry for my spelling but English is not my first language...

I don't have any great suggestions for you, but I can relate to moving to a new place really altering your eating habits! Unfortunately, I've always had issues with binge eating, but I recently moved across the country and it's been waaaaaay out of control.

Can you go for a walk around where you live? Even if there's no where to walk to, sometimes just getting outside makes me feel better - plus, it's exercise!