well i guess some of that will power dust kicked in b/c i stopped eating tonite. its a miracle!!!!! sometimes i need to just slowww down. the food isnt going anywhere. i live in AMERICA i can get food 24/7. doesnt mean i have to eat til stuffed, eat for future hunger, overeat for energy etc...

but it feels weird to eat and not be stuffed when you associate that full feeling with being loved and taken care of ya know?

ok off to play scrabble online

but it feels weird to eat and not be stuffed when you associate that full feeling with being loved and taken care of ya know?

mdl - I was thinking the exact same thing tonight! I just wasn't sure how to express the urge to want to feel stuffed. After I had supper, I had my usual piece of fruit, but I still felt the need to munch - specifically, I wanted finger food.
As sort of a bargain with the monster inside :dizzy:, I opened a can of pineapple and put four slices on a plate. I cut each slice into small pieces before eating it, and I ended up putting two of the slices back because I just didn't want the rest of it.
I still wanted that stuffed feeling. But I realized that I needed to stuff with something else - whatever worked that was non-food related. If I stuffed with food, I would end up bloated, upset, and feeling sick. If I stuffed with what I really needed, I would actually find satisfaction.

Good luck to us in finding out what it is we really need to stuff with! :)

I had a fight with my bf, and moved onto my second drink of the night (I've been limiting myself to one on weeknights). Then I binged on fruit. I had the a can of sliced pineapple + juice (minus two slices), an orange, and a pear. My stomach still hurts to the point where I can't eat breakfast.
I actually kept myself from eating any of the junk that was available in the house. I know that that's a good thing.
I'm working on handling my emotions in ways other then reaching for food. Anger and loneliness are still big triggers for me - it's as though I want to punish myself. In those instances, I don't enjoy what I'm eating very much.
Today is a new day. I'm feeling strong :cool:

Hey, at least it was fruit. Sometimes I eat loads of fruit, or drink so much water my stomach hurts. It's kind of weird, but better that than crisps of chocolate...*shrugs*.

well i hope that you are doing OK post fight and all -- but at least you recognize that you want to be FULL. of SOMETHING. and you are making progress and it sounds great! pineapples, bloated stomach and all....

i think when i am stuffed i feel like its OK to "loosen the belt" figuratively and literally -- nothing left to do or say. just sit and digest. takes me out of the craziness of the world ya know? i don't have to think about all my problems. b/c honestly if i did, i don't think i would be able to make it thru some days.

i know everyone says to go ahead and feel the feelings and the bad ones go away eventually -- and sometimes they do but whatever...still easier to just keep going, and using food as a way of keeping going

Thank you for the support, girls :)

I ate alot of chocolate at work today...I didn't even really enjoy it, it just made me want to eat more like a madwoman :p Which I did :barf:

I was planning on not eating anything else all night, but we ended up at Jeff's parents for supper, and they insisted that I eat. I could have said no. But I had a small serving.

Even though the chocolate was more bad eating then bingeing, and I didn't eat until I was in pain, I felt out of control, so I'm counting it as a binge. The crap stops here! I have less then a month until my goal deadline, and I had 6 binge days this month. I refuse to allow it to become a week!

:cb: :cb:

you can do it penelope :)

just a hard habit to break...and yes an apple can be a binge for me but cookies may not -- its all about the "urge" and empty void i'm filling ya know? of course you know!!! :)

I did it! :carrot: I only had two tic tac's...and tomorrow and all the days afterward, I'll just remember to bring gum with me to work.

A lady even brought in some kind of squares, and the plate was sitting on the corner of my desk for 3/4 of the day. I kept telling myself that I really wanted the french toast and Starbuck's frap, and nothing was going to stop me :)

girl that is awesome. i would have thrown that plate farrrr the hecks away from me! you are kickin asss!!

mdl - Thank you, sweety! :D

Just a notable note ;) :p - check out HungryGirls' tip for surviving office food situations...their website is www.hungrygirl.com, and you should be able to search for it. There are some great suggestions!

Have a great day, Chicks!

Penelope - you girl! Awesome willpower! I know you are feeling great right now.

Can you believe I have a supervisor who sets out cakes and tea in our classes? I love him to bits and all, but MAN that is hard to refuse! Particularly as the other girls in my supervision group seem to be naturally skinny and just dig in - of course I don't know how they eat in private, so I shouldn't assume. Luckily it was mince pies last time, which I genuinely hate :^:

i will never forget my sis's advice before i started college (way back when)

"don't eat late at nite just because your dormmates are having munchies, those girls probably didn't eat dinner"

me23 - Thank you :)

mdl - If that helps you resist temptation, great! But thinking like that was part of the reason that my binges started - I wouldn't eat for most of the day, and then I would get a lot of junk and go nuts at night. Just remember that eating like that will probably catch up to those girls eventually, and even if it doesn't show as fat, it may show in their skin, or inside...in the form of bad health...
You get the idea :dizzy:

Penelope- I agree! Eating habits are one place where karma definitely works its magic.. good and bad.

[rant]
Yesterday I had a bit of a binge. I wasn't too hard on myself though, but I was very disappointed in myself- I haven't binged that much recently. Every time I think that I am getting there, I set myself back a little bit. Mum made pancakes for dinner and I thought, since I had such a great, on-plan week I would make a bit of lee-way for myself. So I had two, that was fine, I was full. Cut a long story short, there was extra batter that mum offered to me and I took it. [Cooked of course :o]

The thing that really got me was that along with the butter, lemon and sugar that I put on, it totalled nearly 1500 calories. Oops!

Sometimes I feel kind of pressured by mum to eat more than I need to. Not that she pressures me, but she will offer me something and even though I am full, I sometimes take it because I don't want to be ingrateful and I think she has suspicions of me having bulimia. [I don't.] Also, she is a little bit overweight as well, so I kind of feel bad for losing weight when she is struggling so much :( I feel really bad for her, it mkaes me want to cry!

Gosh I am melodramatic! [/rant post!]

hm that's a slightly tricky situation rocket pop. Can't say I've been in your shoes as my mum is naturally slim (what I mean by that is she has a good relationship with food, doesn't overeat for emotional reasons, etc - my sugar habit definitely comes from the Iraqi side of my family, wherein hospitality, friendship, warmth, etc ALL requires large quantities of delicious food). I can understand you not wanting to offend her...but at the end of the day, you've got to do this for yourself. maybe you could try something really delicate like 'thanks, I'd like to, but I don't think it would be good for me' (to eat more pancakes or whatever). This makes the point that it's tough to be offered food you are trying to avoid without specifically mentioning the weight issue, which I think is a sensitive spot for many women
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