Thank you for the support, girls :)

I ate alot of chocolate at work today...I didn't even really enjoy it, it just made me want to eat more like a madwoman :p Which I did :barf:

I was planning on not eating anything else all night, but we ended up at Jeff's parents for supper, and they insisted that I eat. I could have said no. But I had a small serving.

Even though the chocolate was more bad eating then bingeing, and I didn't eat until I was in pain, I felt out of control, so I'm counting it as a binge. The crap stops here! I have less then a month until my goal deadline, and I had 6 binge days this month. I refuse to allow it to become a week!

:cb: :cb:

you can do it penelope :)

just a hard habit to break...and yes an apple can be a binge for me but cookies may not -- its all about the "urge" and empty void i'm filling ya know? of course you know!!! :)

I did it! :carrot: I only had two tic tac's...and tomorrow and all the days afterward, I'll just remember to bring gum with me to work.

A lady even brought in some kind of squares, and the plate was sitting on the corner of my desk for 3/4 of the day. I kept telling myself that I really wanted the french toast and Starbuck's frap, and nothing was going to stop me :)

girl that is awesome. i would have thrown that plate farrrr the hecks away from me! you are kickin asss!!

mdl - Thank you, sweety! :D

Just a notable note ;) :p - check out HungryGirls' tip for surviving office food situations...their website is www.hungrygirl.com, and you should be able to search for it. There are some great suggestions!

Have a great day, Chicks!

Penelope - you girl! Awesome willpower! I know you are feeling great right now.

Can you believe I have a supervisor who sets out cakes and tea in our classes? I love him to bits and all, but MAN that is hard to refuse! Particularly as the other girls in my supervision group seem to be naturally skinny and just dig in - of course I don't know how they eat in private, so I shouldn't assume. Luckily it was mince pies last time, which I genuinely hate :^:

i will never forget my sis's advice before i started college (way back when)

"don't eat late at nite just because your dormmates are having munchies, those girls probably didn't eat dinner"

me23 - Thank you :)

mdl - If that helps you resist temptation, great! But thinking like that was part of the reason that my binges started - I wouldn't eat for most of the day, and then I would get a lot of junk and go nuts at night. Just remember that eating like that will probably catch up to those girls eventually, and even if it doesn't show as fat, it may show in their skin, or inside...in the form of bad health...
You get the idea :dizzy:

Penelope- I agree! Eating habits are one place where karma definitely works its magic.. good and bad.

[rant]
Yesterday I had a bit of a binge. I wasn't too hard on myself though, but I was very disappointed in myself- I haven't binged that much recently. Every time I think that I am getting there, I set myself back a little bit. Mum made pancakes for dinner and I thought, since I had such a great, on-plan week I would make a bit of lee-way for myself. So I had two, that was fine, I was full. Cut a long story short, there was extra batter that mum offered to me and I took it. [Cooked of course :o]

The thing that really got me was that along with the butter, lemon and sugar that I put on, it totalled nearly 1500 calories. Oops!

Sometimes I feel kind of pressured by mum to eat more than I need to. Not that she pressures me, but she will offer me something and even though I am full, I sometimes take it because I don't want to be ingrateful and I think she has suspicions of me having bulimia. [I don't.] Also, she is a little bit overweight as well, so I kind of feel bad for losing weight when she is struggling so much :( I feel really bad for her, it mkaes me want to cry!

Gosh I am melodramatic! [/rant post!]

hm that's a slightly tricky situation rocket pop. Can't say I've been in your shoes as my mum is naturally slim (what I mean by that is she has a good relationship with food, doesn't overeat for emotional reasons, etc - my sugar habit definitely comes from the Iraqi side of my family, wherein hospitality, friendship, warmth, etc ALL requires large quantities of delicious food). I can understand you not wanting to offend her...but at the end of the day, you've got to do this for yourself. maybe you could try something really delicate like 'thanks, I'd like to, but I don't think it would be good for me' (to eat more pancakes or whatever). This makes the point that it's tough to be offered food you are trying to avoid without specifically mentioning the weight issue, which I think is a sensitive spot for many women
best

my mom also tries to shovel it in my mouth sometimes...she means well and after all, for mothers, feeding their kids is love in a way. can you chew really slow? or say you are meeting a friend for dessert later on and wanna save up an appetite? i try to choose what is healthiest for myself but it is hard with family. and my mom is a bit overweight as well and eats when she is depressed as well and i am trying to not do that...good luck!!

I just ate 7 chocolate chip cookies........


I don't know how to stop eating... I love food... And I feel bad after I eat, but, it doesn't stop me from eating again as soon as I feel the urge....

Yesterday I had a sugar and fat rampage, and I need to get it off my shoulders so that I can keep my head today. I refuse to spend the day feeling sick and tired, and unable to focus on the conversation or the people around me. I'm going to be sensible with my food, and really limit my sugar, because I don't need another example of how sick just a few pieces makes me feel.

15 chocolates at work (not even a kind that I enjoy)
an entire container of cashews
a piece of pie
3 or 4 pastries
8 more chocolates
1 martini

Okay. I am done with yesterday. On with today. Merry Christmas to me!

I went completely nuts today and yesterday.

Tons of Fudge.
Tons of Magic 7 Layer Cookies
Some Ice Cream
Piece of Cheesecake.

I stuffed myself with so many sweets, I couldn't eat normal food.

Nutritious right?

binge
 

24 peti fours
A container of dip with chips
A dozen cookies
A bottle of sparkling apple cider
3 or 4 choc covered macadamia nuts
A few hersheys kisses
Half a container of stuffing
2 pieces of choc silk pie

last nite 11 PM
box of 8 felafel sticks - 250 cals
bag of frozen organic peaches - 100 cals
bag of frozen organic strawberries - arent i so healthy. LOL - 100 cals
5 baby carrots - who cares
one apple 80 cal
one lime pop 60 cal
container of mocha meringues - 550 cals
5 other meringues - 100 cals
bag of chinese crackers, 3.5 ozs, abt 330 calories
2 bowls of cereal with almond milk - 700 cals
4 dried tomatoes
5 oz very very bitter chocolate. the 99.5% unsweetened kind. bitter, like ME

shrimps -100
apple -100
pear -30
dried apricots -150
almonds - 500
pizza -200
6 bread sticks - 600
4 pieces chocolate caramels - 320
5 mini snickers bars - 200
1.5 mini twix bar - 100
biscuit - 50
icecream - 50

total: ~2400 cal, eaten in under 2 hours. It's probably not close to Kobayashi's record, but I'm getting there.

Celery and water tomorrow - binge-demon willing

10 slices light wheat bread - 400
10 slices turkey ham - 250
2 tbs flaxseed oil -250
apple -70
ground almond - 100

~1100

I'm new but ashamed, in under 2 hours I ate:

A massive croissant, 4 bowls of crunchy nut clusters, a snickers, a cereal bar, a banana and peanut butter sandwich, 5 slices of buttered toast, and a pack of falafel.

I'm disgusted with myself and people please tell me you're disgusted too. Man I wish I was NORMAL!!

anabow - You are not disgusting!

I understand your feelings of shame. It can be so mentally painful after a binge. But I also believe that those feelings of shame start a vicious negative pattern - shame, binge, shame, binge. In order to get out of the cycle, you need to change that shame into motivation.

I believe in you. :hug: Please continue to post.

Last night I had.. a bag of dill pickle crispi minis, a bag of watermelon slices and an entire package of dried figs (probaly 40 in the package).. this was all after dinner and just one after the other.
I think I have figured out why.. so maybe it was important for my healing.

o god...i was doing ok and then for some reason i slipped. earlier today i had :

3 big sandwhiches,
big bag of crisps
packet of chocolatey mini bites
chocolate bar

:( help.

annabow -- you are not disgusting. one day the binges will lessen and fade away.... hang in there

I am, I had a massive binge the next day but now I'm doing good. All your words are so supportive. Hope everyone else is doing ok!

anabow,

I don't believe that you are disgusting - you are just human. :bravo: on your binge free days!

:hug:

Big :hug:

I have been struggling lately. Just eating crap, crap and more crap...........and it doesn't help me feel any better, just makes it worse........So why do I do this?????? Very scary to do things that you think your doing to make you feel better and instead it makes you feel worse.......:cry:

Anyways, I just wanted to come "clean" so to speak.

:hug:

Sassy_chick: my feelings exactly. Alcoholics probably say the same thing. After every binge, my face looks 10 times fatter to me in the mirror ... it all becomes distorted by guilt and fear, yet I can only resolve to be good for a few days and then the binges return.

I've been really on a downward turn ever since mid December.
Today, after dinner I had:
14 slices light wheat bread = 640
4 slices turkey ham = 100
4 slices provolone cheese = 280
1.5 cup skim ricotta cheese = 400
apple 80
tomato sauce 60
~1600 :(