The other day I got weighed at the doctors and I weigh nearly 30 pounds heavier than I thought I did. I'm five one, weigh 122 and I currently range in size from a 16 kids to 28 mens to a 2-4 ladies. I thought I weighed around 110 or less and finding out that I'm still over 120 was a hard blow. I thought I weighed around 100 or less and everyone I know says I look about that weight.

Anyway I've been psyching myself up to cut my intake (I average 1800 a day and feel ravenous at anything below 1750) and to step up my exercise ( I'm on my feet and moving all day at work and do other evercise as well).

I feel fine and I look okay but I've been so stressed since learning my weight that I've been pigging out on chocolate and beer. I like both items but I can usually keep them under control. But I hate myself; at my current weight. I should weigh 105 pounds.

If this stress level keeps up I'll soon be in the one thirties. AGAIN.

And the thought of that makes me feel desperate.

Hmm... it kind of sounds to me that you don't actually need to lose weight. If you regularly have people telling you that you look to be around 100-110 lbs, I don't think it's a good idea for you to lose. You sound absolutely tiny - not many adult women fit into girls' sizes! Go by how you look and feel not a number.

Hey, don't worry and never panick. If you thought you weighed around 110, and you came in around 122, that's nowhere close to 30 lb of a discrepancy! I know you were probably exaggerating, but it's normal for most people to underestimate their weight by 10 lbs. It's not that big of a difference! It'll be okay and you'll be fine . I'm sure many ladies would love to have your weight now. I'm not discouraging you to lose weight, but you don't seem very overweight if you mean.