NO more cheating
 

I am so tired of this. One day "off" last Saturday, turned into 3 days "slightly off plan" and then after getting back on plan it has taken until today ( a week later ) to get back to my lowest weight PLUS 2 pounds. (at 248 today).

A whole week in my journey's path blown because of some stupid popcorn at the theater that didn't even taste that good.

So I'm not doing it again. I have goals I want to meet and this isn't going to get me there wasting a whole week.

I'm frustrated that so much time and effort has been lost and wasted this way. So I just really HOPE I will remember this week next time I'm tempted to deviate a little from my goals. I'm mad at myself more today than I was a week ago. At the time it didn't seem like that bad of an idea to take a day off.

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

Thought you might need a few of those. :^:
Oh the lessons we learn.. They can be painful, and then we wanna run the little *******s down with the car!! But you should be very proud of the realizations you have come to. The fact that you recognized the cause is great! And i'll tell ya (and this might sound funny) the mistakes that everyone post here, really do help the others. They can help prevent others, including myself, from doing the same thing, and I really want to thank you for your honesty.

Absolutely proud of you - and congrats all the way.... ;) :hug:

Falon, I'm sitting here cracking up at your analogy. When my first husband walked out the door and filed for divorce, I was homocidal for 4 months. All I could think about was him spread eagled in a parking lot with my tire tracks running up the back of his head. That's so funny you would tell Sherry to run over her lessons!!! I learned a lot of them with him.

Sherry - way to go girl. Concentrate on getting through this 5 minutes at a time -- you can do anything for 5 minutes.

LMAO!! That's usually the first thing I think of when I could kill someone.. literally! I imagine a corn field, and them running for their lives with the head lights right on 'em.

Surely your ex was counting his lucky stars.. after seeing that woman (gosh, forgot her name) that ran her husband down in the parking lot and was caught on tape! LOL

Falon,

It gets better. We are both Catholic and had a formal Catholic wedding. Since that's a holy sacrament, I always told him he said till death do us part, so if he ever wanted to part, he had to die.

He actually BELIEVED me, so when he decided he wanted a divorce, he came home while I was at work one day and cleaned out his stuff and moved. He told me when we met in divorce court that he was afraid I really meant it and was going to do something to him.

All this -- and I wouldn't even squish spiders - I made him do it!

OMG LMAOPIMP!!! You girls are so funny!! I love the corn fiels I will have great visualizations with that one next time I am mad. It will be even funnier as they see me smiling through my anger. !!! Thanks girls!!!

but yes Sherry hind sight is 20/20 and if we know then what we know now. I have learned my lessons many times over, and that is why I am so determined not to go off plan. I have a fear that I will fail again. and again and again. like I have done so many times before. This is good atleast you cought it before it got to fat. the only time before this time I cought my self I gained 30 of the 50 lost and walked down stairs carrying 30 lbsof meat and wow what a ehavy pile I stopped then and got my act together. some times it a hard lesson to learn. and some times we can catch it before toomuch damamge is done. (like you did)

Funny how....
 

It is really funny how this started out as someone cheating then totally ended up about running men over:carrot: . i am glad that you are all learning from your mistakes and i think that i have finally made my last one and have done good so far and dont want to do anything to jepordize it. So I wish everyone luck with staying strong. Just remember, nothing tastes as good as thin. -Sandra

This morning my husband gave me a really hard hug, and it hurt my ribs. Usually I have a lot of fat across my back and sides that cushions me, but from feeling the way his hands felt around me I can tell that a lot of that is gone. Too this morning before while lying in bed, I could feel that my belly was smaller. Oh I still have a lot of fat there, but I noticed that the fat (while laying on my right side) moved over and I could feel my hip bones and ribs and a hollow spot on one side of my body. Kind of a concave area that I know didn't used to be there.

So I figure something is working, but it sure is frustrating to wait for that scale to show it. Can't believe how stubborn it is being!

Go Sherry Go... Go Sherry GooooooooooO!!!!!

Wow Sherry, that is fantastic. Keep up the good work and the scale will move.

Oh Sherry I know what you are talking about. I do the same thing every night to see if there are any changes in my body. Weird huh.

I get staring in the mirror every day looking for changes in my face. I am waiting for the cheek bones to show their bumps. that means the cheeks are not so puffy and my smile is bigger and I would hope that some one should see the difference. of copurse I am the one searching they see my face every day and would not notice the bones unless I was only bones.

I know, it is weird. Scale was down to 247 today, but that isn't low enough to satisfy me. I keep expecting to see some REAL change.

Funny thing though, today I was in a place with some friends and I was noticing one of the ladies I know that I always thought of as thin (meaning thinner than me) who was sitting in front of me. I noticed her back, she had all these rolls of fat under her bra and down her sides. I started feeling my back thinking "I don't have those any more."

I think she is still smaller than me through the butt and tummy, but I was pleased that I had one thing on her anyway... It made me want to start noticing other women that I've always thought of as smaller than me.

It is funny, you can't always tell how much someone weighs just by looking at them. It made me start questioning my assumptions when I noticed those rolls on her.

I know what you mean looking for faster change. I must keep reminding my self that roll of paper towels the newer the roll (bigger) and you take 10 sheets off it will bearly show but as you get the roll smaller it will show faster and more. I am one of those biggie size rolls. I can see the changes subtle but changes the same. My tight jeans are looser on me, and my bra fits the girls better (hopefully I can get my old ones in a smaler size out soon) I feel smaller but looking naked still scares me. I also think my legs are not as much of a roll by the knees. but again when I look at my self in the mirror I am to horrified by the hips thighs and gut and to the knees boobs that hangs to see any thing else.

that is so true!! I work for a doctor in the clinic and I just LOVE weighing people!!! Everyones body type is so different that it's so hard to tell what they weigh. Sometimes I weigh people and think 'man, I weigh the same as them!' and it's so neat :) A couple of weeks ago I got to weigh my ex husband and I actually weighed less than him for the first time ever! That was the highlight of my month, let me tell ya!! All that name calling and being mean to me because I was overweight and now HE weighs more than ME!! :carrot: :carrot: Aint life grand!!!