First let me say this site is so inspiring... I've been a lurker- mainly in calorie counters- all during my pregnancy and am finally happy to be able to start my weight loss plan!
All my life I've struggled and obsesssed over my weight, even though I was never really even overweight... I basically lost and gained the same 20 pounds over and over, my weight was usually between 110 and 130. I was always dieting and then binging, dieting then binging.... I've never had a healthy relationship with food. After I had my son in 2007, I went back down to 125 lbs fairly quickly... and then over the next 3 years I proceeded to gain about 70 pounds (!!!), until I got to my all time high of 195 last summer. I attribute this to becoming a stay at home mom after my son was born; suddenly I had no where to go and no one to see, and it was so easy to counter the stress of taking care of my son all day by binging and indulging at night. (My son has some medical issues that have been insanely stressful.) My husband works long hours, so there were many nights it was just me, a pizza, wine and the tv to unwind with. Or chinese food, or McDonalds... salty food is my weakness. I really started to dislike and disgust myself, not only b/c of how I look but b/c of my lack of will power.
Then I got pregnant last July, at 192 lbs, and a strange thing happened... for the first half of my pregnancy I LOST weight, getting down to 176. I believe this was b/c 1) I had a sped up metabolism b/c of being pregnant, 2) I gave up alcohol and 3) I tried to eat better foods for my baby. During the second half of pregnancy I gained some back, but only got back up to 186. Now at 2 and a half week postpartum (I had a beautiful baby girl April 19th

), I am 171, YAY! (Although I never thought I'd being saying yay to 171, lol.) So it's TIME to lose this 40-50 pounds. I have a goal of Sept 18th, which is when we go to FL for vacation- I hope to be 130 by then. And then hope to continue to lose 5-10 more pounds.
So... this is my plan, and any advice/opinions would be appreciated. I need to have room for indulgences, other wise I panick and binge, so I need a little something to look forward to- whether it be a meal out at a favorite restaurant or several glasses of wine on a Sat night (I am a bit of a wino!). B/c of this I decided to sort of do a zig-zag calorie plan. For a 7 day week I will give myself calorie amounts of 1300, 1400, 1500, and so on up to 1900 to cover the 7 days. This will give me an average of 1600 cals per day. On a day I want to indulge, I'll take the 1900 cals, and on a day where I know I can rigorously stick to plan I'll take the 1300 cals, etc. If I go off plan a bit and have say 1800 cals instead of 1400, I'll just make a different day a lower cal day. Get it? This way I'm not too "trapped" into a certain calorie amount.
Does this sound doable? I also plan to get on my elliptical at least 4 days a week.
Sorry for the long post! Any advice? Looking forward to being a fixture here and I'll actually really excited about starting this journey..... good luck to everyone else on their goals and thanks for reading!