I have a confession...
 

Sigh.

My hubby and I were bad this past week. My husband has lost over 140 lbs doing atkins with cheating one meal per week. So I usually do a cheat meal too each week so I don't consider that being 'bad'.

Anyway he's starting to get sick of his diet so I'm trying to find new things for him (made him homemade low-carb clam chowder soup last week), but despite that he's been wanting to cheat more and more. And he also is having issues with his psoriatic arthritis and he is in constant pain and currently can't even get up and around on his own. I feel so bad for him. He wanted pizza friday night, but i talked him out of it since we had oven pizza already earlier in the week and I knew his mom had gotten him mcdonald's that day for lunch. But then that's ALL he could talk about Saturday. He had also been talking about a stupid cookie cake all week too since he had a peice for his dad's birthday the weekend before (another cheat day though he was good when we went out to dinner for it). When I was about to the store I asked if there was anything I could get him to make him feel better he said a cookie cake. :P So against my better judgement I got him one. then because I don't like cookie cake I had some warped idea that it wasn't fair that he got cookie cake and I didn't so I bought some cinnamon rolls which we ate Sunday morning then proceeded to order pizza on Sunday night.

Today I stepped on the scale and was nearly 2 lbs heavier! I know it might just be water or the fact that all this bad eating has made me irregular. But I'm not going to use that as an excuse. It took me a month to lose those 2 lbs and only a week to put them back on! I'm debating on moving my ticker to 203.2. I guess I should. :P

Anyway, instead of giving up like I would have in the past I am going to recommit myself. I am going ot eat really clean this week. I would say I am not going to cheat but I am in a wedding this weekend and I know the rehersal dinner and reception will probably prevent me from being 100% good on those days. But every other day? Clean eating! Also all the extra walking and social activity should help burn extra calories (i have severe social anxiety and being matron of honor is not condusive to that, so my heart rate should be up all weekend! lol).

On the plus side I did learn a few things:
#1 I can no longer eat sweets like I used to. Maybe I need to see a dentist, but those cinnamon rolls were SOOO sweet my teeth hurt.
#2 My skin is worse when I eat bad. Maybe its just stress of hubby being sick, but usually i just break out right before AF arrives and I've had a big zit that resembles a bug bite on my cheek for a week now that isn't going anywhere and a few others popping up.
#3 My digestive track really doesn't like crappy food anymore. I don't think it knows what to do with itself. bleh.

Overall, I am getting myself back on track. I got a compliment from my hair stylist last week that my face looked thinner. :) My pants are all too big for me besides the 2 new ones I bought and I intend on keeping them that way. I do not want to grow back into them!

Okay, I guess I feel better. I feel more accountable anyway. Usually I would have kept this to myself and not told anyone and probably fell back into my old ways.

Thanks to anyone who read my ramble. :)

I read the whole ramble and I'm happy you learned from what happened. :)

LOL! Sounds like DH has some returned major carb cravings! That was my problem with South Beach...it took 3 days or more to curb the cravings and about 30 seconds to bring them all back! :rolleyes:

Don't let him sabotage you!! What HE eat is his business! I remind my husband ONCE about how many calories are in such-and-such just so he is informed. ;) Then the decision is his.

Yeah I guess I learned another thing. The reason I have been so successful this time is that he's been eating good too.

I gained 70 lbs since I met him 4+ years ago, nearly 40 of those are gone.

And yeah he's been sooo good for soo long, he hasn't weighed what he weighs now since high school (even though its still in the obese category) so he also might just be feeling a bit too sure of himself. lol But its probably just the pain, he just doesn't really care right now.

On the plus side I only ate one little peice of cookie cake. Not sure why I even did that, i hate those things. I prefer regular cookies if i'm gonna eat a cookie! lol

I doubt you gained that much but at least it served as a reminder that it's way easier to gain than lose. I had a weekend full of less-than-healthiest foods too but I am trying to focus on moving forward and trying to plan better. I could feel bad about it but I've felt bad enough about my weight in my life. I think most of us have.

Read the whole thing, Don't let him pull you off the wagon while he's falling off. Take care of you. and DEATH TO COOKIE CAKE :devil:

ElizabethG I did sorta the same thing. Last Friday my husband and I went to Applebees for dinner. I also allow myself a special meal each week. I had a steak, mashed potatoes and the dip I love. The next day I weighed and it showed a 2 Lb. gain! And this morning (10-18-10) I'm still showing a 1Lb. gain. :stress: What takes me weeks to lose took 1 meal to gain.
You and I are the same height and we are almost at the same place in our weight loss journey so I enjoy reading your post.:goodscale
I think the main thing is that we are actively working on our weight. Making good choices to change our life and health. :broc: Onederland here we come!!;)

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Elizabeth, if it took you a whole month to lose that 2 pounds, I'm sure you will lose it rather quickly once you get back to clean eating, which I'm glad you decided to do.

Obsidianbbw- LoL on death to cookie cake! So not worth the calories! I know I shouldn't fall off with him, my brain just thinks 'not fair' Its so hard to eat good when others aren't.

goal4agirl -*highfive* Thanks! I like finding someone near my weight/height too! Maybe we can hit Onderland together!

Sandcar-Thanks! I hope it comes off faster than it took to put on this time. I love your halloween siggy and icon!

Hey, Lizzie! I read the whole thing too. And if you learned something from all of it, then it is a well invested 2 lb. gain...especially if you can get back on track again. I wonder if you can think of it as falling off the plan, picking up, dusting off and getting back on instead of "good" versus "bad"...might be helpful for your mindset that way.


Good luck!
Barb

Thanks again everyone! I weighed in this morning at 201.6! Woot! Still up but I'll take it! I hope next week I will be down more! :)

Cheat days lead to cravings which can lead to giving up. What is the purpose of a weight loss plan that you can't stick with every day? A cheat day undoes the good you did the other 6. You'll need to go back to Induction for a few days to get the cravings under control again.