And I hope this will be the last time. I've gained 20 lbs in 4 months. I haven't stepped on a scale in those 4 months either. I feel miserable physically and my mental state isn't far behind that.

I feel exhausted all the time and I feel tired and sleepy much of the day. I don't want to do anything but stay at home and lay in bed or on the couch.

Today is my first day back to counting calories. I've done well all day long except right now even though I've already eaten supper, I feel like I could eat a horse. I do have some calories left to use up before the day is over but I don't want to spend them on something that is junk. I would like something snacky but I really don't have much that could be considered good to snack on. I think I'm dwelling on it too much.

Anyway, I think I'll go try to do something productive. Maybe I'll forget about my stomach.

Good for you on making it back. It's hard, but you can do it.

...Try having a cup of tea for now. When you have your snack, have another cup. It's a nice no/low cal things to have (I like mine with a little honey).

Keep your spirts up!

I'm glad you're back on track! You can do this. Stay focused, determined and committed. Don't ever give up on you

Thanks y'all. It's day 2 and I'm in a much better state of mind today than yesterday.
I'm starting back at the gym tomorrow, I hope anyway. I have an 8 year old daughter that is considered too old for the childcare center at the gym but too young to be on the floor with me to exercise. She can get in the pool with me so I figure that I'll go to the pool and get my exercise there until she goes back to school. She'll like that too.