They stared at me with their little, beady rat eyes and threatened to rub their disgusting pink rat tails on me if I went to the gym. I had no choice BUT to surrender to their will and not go...I mean what else could I do??Actually, my sister called me in a panic about some test they were going to do on my BIL. I spent the day feeling sick to my stomach and worrying, only to get a phone call later from her, as if nothing happened. The test was actually a routine test that will be done everyday while he is in the Neuro ICU, and once that was explained to her, she was fine. One small detail though...she forgot to tell ME!! So, I pretty much spent the day feeling like someone had kicked me in the stomach until I got her call.
Anyway, I plan on going to the gym this morning and getting back into my routine. BIL is still pretty unstable and this is going to be a long road, so I HAVE to keep it together. My sister and I are both ex-ICU nurses and it's VERY hard not to micro-manage, but we're trying.

So, my plan is to go to the gym...rats or not, catch up with
because I'm sure he misses yelling at me and start to get back into my routine. Having Erica home is amazing and it seems like she is relaxing more and getting out of "military" mode more and more each day. Thank God, because the first few days were ****. She was trying to run my home like a military base, organizing EVERYTHING...and making me crazy! The cherry on the cake is that she is a COP in the Navy and has LOT'S of "suggestions" about my driving.
I still love her though.
Zinke: I don't know why, but I seem to have the most trouble getting rid of big underwear and believing I can fit into a size smaller, even when the current ones look like a diaper.



here... its a catch up on Dee's book day. 
Now I just need to lose another 2 lbs this week 
morning everyone
I have not lost any weight it seems. DH says I need to give time for my muscle to build and then I will start losing and I know this but all my eyes are seeing the numbers are not going down. I feel sort of disappointed. I just hope I don't lose my motivation here. I've been eating well I think and exercising. I don't know what else to do. Then sometime next week or so is TOM so that doesn't help either. Oh well...
Not only does it sound crazy.... it sounds dangerous as well!