Just now I had a thick slice of meatloaf and some green bean casserole. An off-plan side dish, but I haven't eaten many carbs today and green bean casserole is my -FAVORITE- food ever, so I allowed myself an estimated serving. After I finished, I realized I was full. I didn't even think about eating the bread or the potatoes. I did want more green bean casserole, but I wanted the taste and not the food itself.
I was standing in the kitchen with family in the dining room. The biggest thing that stopped me from getting a second helping is because I don't want to be the person who grabs seconds even when they're full just because they want more. I want healthy eating habits. I felt like if I got more of that casserole, I would be showing them that I can't just have a little bit of a side dish that isn't totally on plan without binging on it.
So, I threw away my plate, put my fork in the sink, finished my diet Pepsi and went in my room. I didn't give in! I've never had this kind of control before. In the past I would have stuffed myself with two double-servings of casserole and then probably eaten the rest for a snack later.
The biggest reason I'm proud of this is because I allowed myself a little bit of a "treat" without using it as an excuse to stuff my face. This is a huge breakthrough for me, and a gigantic step forward from a few months ago...sitting in my room at midnight eating frozen pizzas, chips, and sodas all in one sitting.




