One thing that would definitely help break the cycle physically is to eat the way you know you should the next day after a binge. By not eating all day, you are setting yourself up for binging, and you are also encouraging your metabolism to slow down. Even though you feel physical hunger isn't the root of the problem, you are still doing things that cause your body to scream for food. It's a completely normal, hard-wired survival response. Add to that the strength of the habits you've formed, and you've got some pretty powerful urges. You've convinced your body all day that there is no food to be had, so when you do finally eat it screams, "Food! Eat! Eat more! We don't care if you're hungry, there may be another famine tomorrow! So load up!" In addition, you are giving yourself huge blood sugar spikes and troughs, which contribute to your feeling bad. What you're doing, while not intentional, is still a binge/starve cycle, which can certainly be an ED manifestation, even if no purging is involved.
So, regardless of what you eat tonight, tomorrow start the day with a healthy breakfast and eat a real, healthy lunch, etc. Try to have something to eat every 3 to 4 hours, even if it's just a piece of fruit for snacks. The model of 3 meals and 3 snacks per day for whatever calorie level you are on is an excellent way to boost metabolism, keep your blood sugar on an even keel, and keep you from being so very physically -- and mentally -- hungry when you do eat. You won't break the cycle in one day, but if you are very diligent and consistent about eating according to this pattern, you should find that those night eating urges lessen. They may not ever go away completely, but they won't be as strong and they'll be easier to fight.
Also, if you pay really close attention to your body, you'll start picking up on more subtle signals about when you need food and when you don't. A lot of overweight people get used to "full" being absolutely crammed to the gills, and "hungry" being ravenous. We get this feeling that only eating when we're faint from hunger is somehow "right" or virtuous -- look how strong we are! We can ignore our hunger for a long time! The problem is that that is abusing our bodies and keeping us from being in tune with them. One thing that's really hard to learn -- and it CAN be learned to SOME degree, I'm proof of that -- is that we usually need a little fuel before our stomachs start rumbling, and our bodies are satisfied long before we feel "full." It's a more narrow range than we are used to dealing with. That's not to say that the voices of habit and compulsion will shut up, mine are still pretty loud and want me to eat regardless of how ... satisfied ... I am. Still, by feeding our bodies at regular intervals and giving it what it truly needs, we can help things along immensely.
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Go for one of the salads--they're HUGE, but not heavy on the dressing. Watch out for the foccaccia that comes with it, though! It's got salt on it, and that'll make you bloat up (if you're sensitive to that).
