Well boys and girls,
It appears I made a big mistake, or my scale is broken.
It turns out I was not standing exactly right on the scale, and it was causing huge weight fluctuations. I do not know if I was doing it by accident little by little, or intentionally.
My correct weight is 216lbs right now. That is a far cry from 193lbs and the lowest I was getting (186lbs). This is in the morning, naked, after going to the bathroom.
What is going through my head: I feel devastated. I didn't actually lose 40lbs, only 22. Have I been losing weight all this time, or has it just been the scale laughing at me? I do not understand how I'm a size 13 yet still in the upper 200's. Should I buy a new scale? Should I keep going with this? My measurements have gone down significantly this month, but, I'm still 216.
I wanted to be bikini-ready this summer but time is up and I still have these disgusting fat pouches on my stomach. I hate them so much, I just want to see myself flat, what I never have since I've been fat since I was a kid.
I think I need some reassurance