How to stay in control?
Ever since I was about 12 I had struggles with my weight, once I started highschool I joined a sports team (rowing) where I was really encouraged to lose weight, and I did I lost about 25 pounds. My problem started there, I became obsessed with my weight. I had no problem with the workouts, I enjoy exercise... but my problem came with food. I am educated in nutrition so I know what to eat, but it isn't that easy. My biggest problem is binging, when I was in highschool I was under so much presure with my rowing team to lose weight that after a session of binging I brought myself to bring it back up after. I knew that's not what I wanted, I didn't want an eating disorder, but I didn't know what else to do. After highschool I continued rowing for my first year university, since my initial weight loss at that point I gained about 20 pounds back, but it wasn't fat it was muscle and the height I grew since I initially lost weight. Second year I was no longer able to stick with rowing because I had a hectic work and school schedule and varsity rowing schedule is crazy busy. That was when I put on a tonne of weight, in one year I gained over 30 pounds. Now I know that my weight is getting dangerous and I need to make a change, I know what I'm supposed to do, but I don't know how. Like I said exercise isn't my problem, I enjoy it... but my problem is with binging, no matter what I tell myself nothing can stop me when I'm having an episode. I really don't know how to stop and sometimes I just want to throw it up, but I know that isn't the way and I never want to do that again, but it is tempting. So basically I know binging is a common problem for many of us, how do you stay in control? Please I need some help!
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