21 and I've never had a relationship until now.
I’ve always had my guard up, I’ve always been cynical when it comes to love. But then he walked into my life. Fooled me. In the beginning I was screaming and fighting to not get close to him. He knew that. He knew all my insecurities and all my fears. In the end he used it against me. What hurts the most is the fact that he doesn’t have the decency to tell me. He just stopped calling and writing me messages. How I found out is that he deleted me from his facebook account. A week later he writes me a letter and he says that he doesn't think he could be the type of guy that he needs because he's always busy with work. I replied and I told him that I put up with it because I wanted to, not because I had to and that I was hurt because he just gave up without trying. He replied back and said that he wanted to try he just had to hash out these feelings...it's been 21 days.. I feel foolish..it just hurts and all I want to do is curl up into a ball and cry.
I've never felt like this about a guy and I fear that I wont ever feel like this again. I feel angry & bitter but somehow a part of me misses him..even if he's acting like a jerk.