Many of you here have known me for a long time. You knew me when I was a newlywed. When I was diagnosed with PCOS. When I began infertility treatment. When I began my weightloss journey. When I lost 62 lbs and felt wonderful. When I received my first compliment. When I bought a size 14 pair of pants. When my cycles returned normal again. When I got under 200 lbs, down to 188. When I moved in with my in-laws and hated them. When I was taking care of my younger sister. When I was building a home and when that dream was shattered. When I was purchasing the town house. When I seperated from my husband. When I had a good friend pass away. When I tried to understand why my sister was pregnant and not wanting to be, and I wasn't. When I moved in with a roommate (singlewhite female movie). When I had to move in with my Mother and her boyfriend whom I despise. When my divorce was final. And when I "regained" the weight I had promised myself I would never see again. When I was told I was "borderline diabetic".
It's been a really tough year for me, and I have shared the most personal things with many of you. You have supported me, believed in me and rooted me on even when I was so down. And believe me, it may not show in my daily posts, but I was down. And you all have helped me in ways you'll never know. So, I thank you.
And to the newer members who didn't know me through all of that, don't worry, my life has calmed down and am back in control. Hahahaha
Now, finally after 1 year, I feel like I have gained control again. Control over my body and my life. I will be moving this weekend and be out of work on Monday and Tuesday. I got the key last night and I can barely explain to you all of how I feel. I lost another 1.5 lbs, and now weighing in at 213 lbs. I will get back to where I was a year ago, and then I will make it to goal. If I can survive the last year, I can survive anything.
So, I now have both keys again. Key to my own home, and key to my own life.
I don't know what made me post this. But I just really wanted to let you know, how much you all mean to me. You've stood by my side through it all. And I can't say that about many people in my life. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Without your support, I may have not made it back.
My first year after I divorced was **** too. But looking back now I am so much a stronger person for going through it. Believe it or not.. now.. 9 years later from the break up I am thankful for those couple of years. I am a better person because of it.. and you are too!
Dana
ps.. take some pictures.. I can't wait to see it!!
Wow, Jenniffer, you are one strong woman! I am sure that had I gone through everything you've gone through in the past year, I would never have lived through it all. I am so happy that things are back on the right track for you. Here's to a lifetime of happiness and wellness.
Yes Sugar...... this roller coaster ride we call life has so many ups and downs and through the struggle we blossum. Every inch of our abilities and potential are discovered from neccessity. We discover the best of ourselves in the worst of times and understand ourselves so much more. How durable we really are, and how amazing we become even to ourselves. I knew you would make it through becuase for some of us we have learned that it may take a few times at bat to hit that home run, but we keep bouncing back until we do. Learning much every step of the way. I am proud of you Jen. You will succeed.
Pam
Wow, you have been through so much. Maybe you can turn this into a Danielle Steele type novel and make millions, huh??
Believe me, I am not trying to make light of anything you have been through. I think a lot of people couldnt deal with half of that and would have turned to drugs/alchohol or us with food issues would have gained ALL the weight back plus some. I am glad you caught it when you did and took control. I am also glad you are taking control of your health issues too. I am getting divorced myself. I will file in August since we have to be seperated for a year first in VA. We have a 7 year old son (that's why). If you dont have kids it's only 6 months.
I didn't know I could admire you any more than I already did, but, girly, I'm in awe of you!! You are quite an amazing woman, Jennifer. In Sept, if you can't make it to Boston, I'll come to you! I've got to meet this fabulous person in person!
Jiffy said it perfectly...all this, and you can support us the way you do!
I'm so happy for you too!!! Your strength comes out in all of your posts, and I truly admire your honesty and compassion! I'm inspired to hear about your having in your grasp the key to your life. . .I hope I get there soon! I think I've lost my set of keys in the couch of life ~ I need one of those keyrings where you clap and the keys beep at you till you can find them!
Wow!! What an awesome post!! WOOOO HOOOOO!! How awesome for you!! Both keys...I like that. New apartment...new you. You are always sooooo supportive and inspirational. I know you will do it!!
I have BOTH keys!!!
((HUGS))
