What on earth just happened!?
It's 12am and I just ate about half a box of Vanilla Almond Special K (dry, no milk) along with maybe 3 servings of peanut butter (that was really last min, I literally shoved that down my throat)
This is the first time this has happened, and I have no idea what to make of it. I have just so much anger right now for doing this. At the time I was thinking what am I doing, over and over thats all that kept going through my mind. Usually I can stop myself but this time I just didnt care. I've never gotten this out of control.
What is wrong with me? I have no idea what even lead up to it. I just know I have been so hungry lately, and sick of being hungry. It just came out of nowhere.
I am going to be hating myself in the morning when I step onto that scale.
But I deserve it, and that number going up, whatever number it may be, will be my lesson to be learned.
I just had to share this with someone. You all are the only ones who may understand. Thanks for listening
I feel sick like I could just go puke it all up right now...