ot: suicide in the family...
I'm not sure if this is considered OT or not. I was reading a post about PTSD... and although I don't believe I fit the criteria for it, the word flashbacks jumped out at me and started waving a big neon sign.
in the spring of last year, my mom's brother killed himself - he was 45, no wife or children, and lived 4 houses down from me. It was my parents and I that noticed something wasn't right - and my mom and I that beat on the windows and doors of the house, before finally calling the state police to search. it was a blessing that we called them, instead of us going in and finding him.
for several days (or weeks, I can't remember now) after that night, I had vivid visions of him taking his life, even though i didn't actually witness the event. I'm not sure why, but over the past several days, I've started having those visions again... or worse, ones of him lying dead on the floor. I don't know what's triggered them... there doesn't seem to be a logical connection to anything going on in my life...
Has anyone else dealt with anything like this? How long before you felt anywhere near normal again? What other surprises are waiting for me as I work through this?
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