I'm just back from my usual thursday night meeting. Only one other person showed up but I had books with me, so we did all the readings and held our little meeting anyway! I emailed my sponsee this morning, and spoke with my sponsor last night. I ate exactly the food I turned over last night, and I'm feeling great.
I've also written out my "Thankful For" list. This is it:
*I am eternally thankful for my 248 days of abstinence. That's 8 months, 2 days. Some have been a struggle, serious work. Some have been painful. Some have been a breeze. But every day has been a gift.
*I am grateful that I can eat my food and be done with it. I've had no cravings for a long time. I can just walk away.
*I think about all the families in this world that are dreading the drama of the holiday, and dreading seeing their families for the day. I am grateful that, even though they are far away, I love and miss my family very much. I am grateful that I have a family with whom I am always welcome, always supported, and always valued.
*I am thankful for my dancing. It is a chance for me to feel graceful and beautiful, which is something I have rarely, if ever, felt. It is a chance to have joy in my body, and I value that very much.
*I am thankful that my years of overeating and compulsion haven't irreparrably damaged my body. My blood pressure is great--114/76--and my cholesterol is within healthy levels (176). My heart and lungs are strong. My body is healthy.
*I am thankful I was not hurt in the accident where I lost Bella (my beloved 11.5 year old car). I don't even have whiplash.
*I am thankful that I am learning that I am beautiful. It's helping me heal.
*I am thankful for my sponsee, and everything she gives me through her learning and reaching out.
*I am thankful for my bike, and for a sport where I can truly feel like I am performing well.
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I am also thankful for all of you here! Happy Thanksgiving!