I'm in a lot of pain from this loss, I can't describe how much I hurt. Losing kyo from our home was like loosing color or laughter or having the light die down in your life. It was so quick, his bone cancer, his painful death and respiratory problems... we borrowed money and put everything into it we had/ At 7:40 last night we took him to the animal ER and had helped him ease on. It is the worst thing I've ever done, I feel like a murderer, yet how I feel and think are different. His lungs were filling with fluid and he was drowning. We held him till he stopped breathing and having been crying nearly non-stop since he passed away last night. No one can understand the loss of an animal loved one unless they have invested love and respect in to their animal, getting to know them individually and loving them for their personality. When they leave you.... its like an perfect innocent, beauty, and pure love is gone from your life. That is how I feel.
I miss you kyo...
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