Hi, Tera & Marie, everyone is looking good! :wave:

I have been ill but seem to be better, working tonight, then will be fully back. I have moved my exercise to just steps with a goal of 8,000 for a while but will build it back up.

Am in a weird place where I don't care what I weigh but am assuming soon I will care again so eating carefully.

Better this morning, yesterday was 1440 calories, have already done some weights and yard work. :wave:

calories-2000, ex-long walk with neighbor. I was doing okay until bookclub tonight and I ate both cake and cookies. I used to be able to ignore the goodies but I am not so good at it these days. Well, maybe tomorrow.

Glad you are feeling better. Good for you for eating carefully even when it did not seem so worthwhile. No slippery, slide for you!

Tera, congrats on the extra long walk. I often have more trouble at a night event, too, with cake and cookies.

Only thing that saved me last night while waiting for my work at the meeting to start was that I had become ill eating two wheat/gluten donuts on Tuesday, so I did not desire ever to go off the wheat/gluten free track, although I wasn't that worried about calories.

I had then fallen into a daylong anxiety state on Wednesday, but have been able this week to separate my "diet" from my "emotions" and leave behind some confusion as to why I do this weight maintenance thing and who I do it for.

I do it for me, myself and I because it makes me feel better physically & in other non quantifiable ways.

I need to continue to make progress putting the "diet" in the proper sphere & content, which I guess is solely in my own head and actions.

I do benefit by talking about it in the proper context and with safe people, so thank you, Tera & Marie for being so nice to me (and safe).

Marie, I like that saying about will I be enjoying a not needed treat in 10 minutes? Usually the answer is no. That is a good thing to keep in mind when I'm veering off track. Truthfully, if I am enjoying a treat for more than 10 minutes it is likely to be because I am eating more of said treat than the "diet" me really wants or that it has wheat or gluten and is likely to NOT agree with me later and like on Tuesday, I would be aware it was not going to agree with me.

Ditto on the feelings I have had lately about whether my weight journey is worth it. History shows that I do always want to go back to a happy weight eventually so I figure I need to stay here on this leg of the journey and not deviate, and if I do, need to have that nine pound (120-129) range to signal to me that I am still ok in weight and there is no need to worry about it, just slide back into alignment if I should be so rash as to reach the range limit.

Thanks for being in my corner, Tera & Marie. I am in your corner, too!

EDITED: Calories yesterday 1830, steps in the 9000 range, moving my step goal up again. Took LOOOONNNNG nap, feel better.

Hope you both have a great weekend and that any and all lurkers on this thread feel free to join in.

Woot! :wave:

Thanks, Marie! Hope you and Tera are having a wonderful Mother's Day!

I am up .6 today, the first week since I entered my maintenance range (120-129) that I have not lost something, so am feeling REALLY good about that. Calories were up this week and it was just an all-round BAD week in every way lol.

Hi, Tera! :wave:

todays cals-1800, ex-step class at the y. My cals are a total guess as it includes mostly leftovers from yesterday. However, no cupcakes and no alcohol today so maybe I am close. Sorry I have not been posting lately. I have been soooo tired. I have been missing most of my Y classes due to fatigue also.Work is great but I do not sleep well at all and I have to get up really early. It is rather difficult to keep up with the meal preparation as well. I am working at it though and hopefully things will fall into place soon.

Am2-You are exactly where you want to be with your weight. Awesome. Sorry you are feeling it was a bad week in other ways-hopefully things are turning around for you today.

Marie-You are doing super lately. Great cals and good exercise. I like your idea of considering the gratification longevity factor when indulging in goodies. This would be a good week for me to work on that. I hope you were able to enjoy a nice warm swim as planned.

Tera, hope that feeling of tiredness goes away soon. Have a great week!

Hello, Marie! :wave:

cals-2135, ex-body sculpt class at the Y. I am happy I got myself to the Y again. Yes! Still a bit high on cals but I feel like I am moving in the right direction this week.

Am2-I hope your week is great also!

Tried to post here earlier but got the database error again. Just had lunch (omelet). Working long hours today & tomorrow. Plan is no work ever again on Saturday or Sunday. I just feel better that way these days. Have worked enough weekends in my life lol.

On a bit of an Internet reduction plan but still need to see my comrades on this thread so will be here & am hoping this will post.

Marie, I do a spreadsheet that shows my calorie cycles during the week & the weigh-in. I still use My Net Diary but my own spreadsheet gives me data the way I need to see it to keep this going.

Have lots to say about some more conclusions re my weight management & some has to do with the manner I share it. One conclusion is that I externalize it too much when what I really need to do is move it back where it all began as an internal process, which is not to say I can't post on diet sites lol. I just need to realize where I am in this journey & be at ease with it & have fun with it as I used to do.

And never eat gluten because it makes me very sick lol.

Tera, glad you are feeling headed in the right direction & got to the Y.

Steps are back up this week & weight sessions getting better. Cals have been on high side still but am watching like hawk on the meeting nights & am watching sugar.

Newest treat is a new brand of honey flavored kefir I started drinking. I do not really like yogurt but do like kefir & fell in love with this new brand after I felt ill last week. I think this stuff is keeping me off sugar.

Going to take nana nap before work now lol.

todays cals-1945, ex-step class at the Y. Still high on the calories. I was good all day but then I ate two leftover cupcakes from Mothers day after dinner. One just was not enough. Still, I am happy with myself for getting to the Y and making stir fry for dinner with enough leftover for lunch tomorrow.

Marie-Too bad about the runaway cals, although they are really not all that bad. Do you gain at that level or just maintain? At least you are tracking even if it is all at once. I think it is better to be working at it, even if imperfectly, than to just ignore things. Keep the faith.

Am2-You know you do not have to worry about anything you post here, right? Externalize all you want. That is one reason I come here. Most people I know do not care for my ideas about nutrition and dieting. It is refreshing to be able to come here and say my piece without causing a problem. I really try to avoid all other food conversations with everyone except my husband-I cannot just sit back and watch him eat poorly although he does anyway! He works on it a little anyway.

Thanks, Tera! Lol, I looked at my post from yesterday and realized I said I "external" it too much. Changed to externalize.

Lol, lots of people I know also don't care for my ideas about diet & nutrition, but then I smugly (awful, I know) point out my 100+ pound weight loss maintained for decades and then am silent and know it works for me.

As I get older, though, I find I still like posting on the net a bit too much and saying too much about too many things in general.

Oh, well. That be life.

Calories yesterday 1340 and again looking at a long, long work day so going out for breakfast.

Yesterday's steps 14,000+ ... the intent today is to pay bills, shop for food and organize the typing for tomorrow, meeting tonight yet again and just hope it is easier than last night's, then weekend off, which is a new sacred practice of mine as I've stated and need to organize food and stay away from some scary neighbors while I internalize a policy of forgiveness towards them (not my strong suit, forgiveness) and not let it lead to stress eating.

Funny, how all sacred things internalized in my spirit all seem to lead back to food & fitness & weight management.

Have a good day, all! :wave: