Hi everyone
Well today is the tomorrow I promised yesterday and the day before and every day for the last 15 years!! Every day I wake up with the best intentions then by 10am I am sat eating crisps/chocolate/cake etc.....
I am a binge eater and have been for most of my adult life but only found out about Binge Eating Disorder about a year ago. Before this I thought it was just me that would sneak copious amounts of food when I was on my own and eat and eat... But there was never a switch off point to tell me I was full so I just carried on.
I could eat a multipack of crisps, 10 chocolate bars, sweets, cakes, bread, and much more in one sitting all whilst watching tv or reading a book, I was never in the moment, I would always distract myself from what I was doing. I never tasted what I was eating just ate it as quickly as possible.
Then when I had finished all I felt was guilt. I was ashamed that I had done it again!! I would vow that this would never happen again and at the time I would mean it!! But then as the sugar wore off my urges would start to rise and the same thing would happen again.
I found out that there are more people in the UK that suffer with Binge Eating Disorder that Anorexia and Bulimia put together but it's not as recognised as a disorder!!
This is because overweight people are seen as lazy and greedy.... But ask yourself this.... Why would I choose to be overweight, why would I choose to feel this way.
But then I read a book that helped me with the perspective of why I do this and gave me the tools to stop and it has helped me so much..... It's called Brain Over Binge by Kathryn Hansen......
So today I am starting, I feel motivated right now but I know it's not going to be easy so I am asking for help from anyone that can give me advice or encouragement. I will also promise to be honest about my journey and help others too......
Thanks in advance and good luck to everyone else on here
Maria
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