Hey y'all! My name is Amanda, I'm 28 years old, and I'm very, very overweight. I'm about 250 lbs right now, and at 5'5, I'm positive I should be about 100lbs lighter than what I am now. I've been between 220 and 250lbs for about seven years now. I used to be incredibly active when I was younger, and now I just can't seem to get my body or health where I want it to be. I played all sorts of sports in high school, and while I ate unhealthy foods, I never ate a whole terrible lot. When I got to college, I stopped exercising and started napping, drinking and eating a lot more. Cue near-instant weight gain.
I used to hate my body...had a full-fledged eating disorder [compulsive over-eating]. Ate all the hateful feelings away until I was so full, all I could do was curl up and try to sleep. I was depressed, angry, bitter...it was a horrible, horrible time in my life. I've mostly recovered from those feelings, but it does seem to rear its ugly head whenever I get stressed or upset.
Anyways, I figured community support is best and I've been lurking here on and off for a while. Thought maybe I'd give being active a shot.
Thanks, Beloved and Mccull. That's kind of one of my first goals, pixikat. I want to start the habit of accountability, and I'm terrible at keeping a blog or journal [mostly because there's no one to read it]. Myfitnesspal is a little better, but only a few of my friends are on there with me so there's really not a lot of feedback.
Welcome! I had to re-remember something that I used to know but let slip, and that is: Having hateful and negative feelings about myself is so, so counterproductive. Nobody that I know has been able to shame or hate themselves into being fit or losing weight.
It was only when I decided to quit beating up on myself, quit calling myself names (in my head), and quit hating my body that I was able to start taking care of myself again. I knew this four years ago, but I kinda forgot it and just recently remembered it.
It sounds like you are already aware of this, so congrats! I look forward to reading about your success!
Welcome! This is the place to be for all the support you need. I have been here off and on for four years and it is one of the major helps in my weight loss.