:grouphug: Well Hello Everyone...:grouphug:

Well Ladies... :dance: I weighed in and I lost what I had gained (my 2.25 lbs) and an extra pound:cheer2: :cheer2: ...This last week I had 4 days of over 14000 steps, so that must have helped :encore: :encore: ...


Hope everyone is fine and doing well...it is too hot to sleep...too hot to eat...and just plain too hot...

Have a Great Weekend! :dance: :dance: :dance:

Way to Kimush.

Ah! Kimush the journalist! How's it going? I swear you won't be sorry. Someday when you're discontent or think you aren't losing ... you'll be able to review what really happened. You'll be glad you journalled.

:grouphug: Hello All,:grouphug:

I am going to :welcome3: TeresaR :welcome3: and a Ton of thanks for the Way to go!...I don't know if I have welcomed you before...but I really hate to miss a welcome!!! and my perimenopausal memory is fading quickly at this hour! :stars:

Yes Susan I am journalling my little heart out and it is really not that bad...My daughter has been harping that I maybe taking in too much fats from seeds, nuts and cheese...but now that she is keeping tabs on my foods and looking at my journal she thinks that I am doing well...and I am losing so :woohoo: :woohoo:

Have a good day tomorrow Ladies!

Big Pound Problems...
 

Hi Ladies,
I'm having a hard time writing this post. :( I've gained weight.
I'm sad, I'm frustrated, and yes, I'm going back to basics, but I'm here now writing this post for accountability.
(OK, I want to cry now.)
In November I weighed 213-215. I had knee surgery and after 30 days of inactivity, I started gaining. Between the new limitations from the knee surgery (trying to figure out "how" to work out around the "fixed" knee) and not keeping a food journal, I've gained - I'm now 239 (this morning). Yes, I can blame PMS, dehydration (I always gain 2-3lbs when I'm dehydrated), and the results of steroids for the poison ivy. My pants feel tight, my skin feels tight, I feel horrible. But the reality is, I've gained more than 20 lbs.
Let me say that again, I've gained over 20 pounds. :cry:
As of today, I'm back to keeping a food journal with a carb focus (45 carbs or less per meal, no more than 15 carbs for a snack), 1800 calories or less per day, and water, water, water (3 quarts of water is my goal for today).
No, I don't suppose there's a lot to say to this post, but part of the reason I joined was to help keep myself accountable. I'm trying to "shake it off" and "come to my senses" - I'm not eating cookie dough and ice cream by the bucket or anything, but this doesn't feel good.
So there it is.
Sorry if this was a bummer, but I had to put it out there.
Thanks Ladies...thanks for just being there.
Cammie

Not a bummer at all. I'm excited for you. Sometimes we need a kick in the pants to get going again. A new beginning. New knee, new start?
Cammie, we're here for you.

:hug: Cammie don't be hard on yourself you're back on track now and that's the main thing. It's so much easier to gain weight than to lose. I feel like I've been at this weight for months now and I really need to do something about it.

Cammie you're in the right place for support. Don't beat yourself up. :hug:

Cammie, that kind of post is exactly what 3FC is all about. Thank you for giving us the opportunity to help, in whatever way we can! You did the right thing just now. You recognized the problem, faced up to it, and now have new direction. You are moving forward... RIGHT NOW!! What's done is done, don't dwell on the past. You are on your way and you will make it! Success is yours!

And we'll be the ones standing here with you, cheering you on!! :grouphug:

I am so glad to hear from you again! We missed you!

Avoidance, journal, yogurt, and thanks :~)
 

:sorry: Thanks for all your support.
I admit, between the poison ivy (which made me feel both awful and grumpy), and coming to the realization that I really had gained weight, I avoided any writing here. :write: If I put it in writing, it would become real. (Well, it's real whether I write it or look in the mirror, or not. Lying to myself is not helpful. :nose: It's very very real.)
Thanks for the words that you write. I know that the support is what makes a difference for me. My food journal today is interesting. It looks like fits and starts...wanted chocolate, went with sugar free/no cal chocolate fudge freezer pop...wanted Crystal lite, went with lemon water, etc...(I limit my Chystal lite intake to avoid "insulin spiking" which can occur from sugar or sugar substitutes. At least it does for me.) I'm also going to go ahead and add "regular" journaling (feelings, fears, joys, etc) to my journal and see what that shows me.
I had a great walk today. :running: Was out on the sea-wall for 55 minutes (30 mins out and 25 mins back...who says a tailwind doesn't impact a walker's speed?). Tonight I'm doing yoga and weekly cooking. I got a yoga DVD that my daughter can do with me. She's two and wants to do "yogurt" - we'll see how long she stays with it.
Thanks, Thank you, and Thanks again.
It's hard for me to turn my thinking around sometimes. I admit that my determined little mind would have tended to dwell on the gain in past times. Today, I'm dwelling on the gain...of SUPPORT that I've found here. :grouphug:
Thanks.
Cammie

:grouphug: Hey Everybody...:grouphug:

Cammie...:df: :bubbles: ...You know what you have done such an awesome thing...We are all here for you...In whatever way we can...and Susan B is right...a new knee and a new start...you have to stop beating yourself up...Something other than 3FCs brought our little group together...And we are here for you...and we will be the first ones to cheer you one and give you a big olde group hug...:grouphug:

Susan B has been talking to me about the journalling...so I have been doing that daily...and the mood/feeling part really is important because we are the first ones to build up and support each others but we often tear ourselves down...so cheer up buttercup you have a whole bunch of ladies on her cheering for you! :yes: :dance: :angel:

Cammie - I understand how frustrating it is when you work so hard to lose then you gain much of it back. Over the past two years, I gained back 35 pounds of what I had previously lost. I hated to look at myself in the mirror. I was disgusted with myself. I had to decide to face it and move forward. I'm bound and determined that I'm going to do it this time and keep it gone. I really appreciate you sharing what you're dealing with. It takes courage.

I've found that there's a lot of great support and inspiration here so don't forget that we're all here to help each other and we'll be cheering you on! :cheer: :broc:
You're heading in the right direction and you will succeed! :hug:

Kimush - :congrat: on the 2+ loss!

Cammie -- ok, I'll say it --- ack, that sucks about the weight gain. There it is in print. I'm guessing that in addition to the tight clothes and feeling horrible you're probably pissed off right now. At yourself and just at the fact that -- blech! -- you have to lose those 20 lbs. again just to get to where you were last fall. I know exactly how you feel -- I did the exact same thing. Lost 20 lbs then found every, single one of them again. And stayed at that weight for the past few years. :mad: And just like you, I tend to write less and post less often whenever I've gained or haven't lost. Especially if I haven't lost 'cause I've been eating the wrong stuff. Like now, for instance. ;) Notice I haven't been around as much? Yeah, still farting around w/the food. :dizzy: How did you manage to kick yourself in the butt and start journaling again? When I read your last post it was like -- DING! -- light bulb moment. I never, ever thought to journal my feelings at the time of wanting certain foods in addition to just journaling what I was eating. I'm currently annoyed at the thought of even to have to journal anything 'cause I don't want to! I feel like a two year old saying this -- I just want to have the weight gone and am freakin tired of thinking about how many calories are in this or that, or should I eat this or not. I know, I know -- this attitude is getting me nowwhere. I've fallen off that darn "mental-zone-place" and for the life of me cannot seem to get back into it. Help me I've fallen and I can't get up! ;) For the life of me I don't know why exercising is so much easier for me to do than not eating the junk. The only thing I'm discovering at the moment is that I'm pretty good at maintaining. I need to find that "weight loss" mentality/momentum/determiniation that I was oh so full of a few months back. I hear ya about how hard it is to turn the thinking around; it's so much easier to be lazy isn't it? But that attitude w/just keep us all where we don't want to be.

Jo

Tuesdays are DEFINITELY Better than Mondays!
 

:) Hi Ladies - Isn't it a beautiful day?
:hug: A special hug to each of you - I can't tell you how much I appreciate your words and thoughts. It really does make it easier to get back to doing what needs to be done.
You are all right.:smug: True pearls that I'll be going back and reading...
New knee, new me. (Or repaired knee, now repairing me...either way it works.) ;)
Jo, I know how you feel about journaling. I used to love to journal when I was young, slender, and single. I'm now "not as young," heavy, and the mother of an increadible 2 year old. :^: (She's losing her baby tummy...I still have mine.)
But while I was walking yesterday, I thought to myself, :chin: "You know, if my best friend were trying to lose weight and came over to my house, I wouldn't ask her if she wanted chips, donuts, or ice cream. I simply wouldn't offer it. What I would do, is offer her veggies, sugar free jello or pudding, or yogurt with fruit. I wouldn't suggest we just sit around and watch TV, I'd ask her if she wanted to talk while we went for a walk...even just a stroll."
If that's what I'd do for my best friend, why won't I do it for myself?
There are a bunch of guidelines on how to treat others the Golden Rule (Do onto others as you would have them do onto you) or the biblical reference "Love your neighbor as you love yourself." But, I haven't been treating myself as well as I'd treat my neighbor or another person in my position (fat and "trying" to lose). So, I'm trying to change :stars: my thinking. I'm trying to be "kind" to myself. (I know, you're reading this going "Well, DUH!") For me, I just have never thought about it that way.
I guess I'm kind of redefining what being "kind" to myself is, too.
Being kind to myself is:
Providing sufficient portions of healthy food - NOT large or extra large food that may or maynot be good for me but "tastes" good.
Taking the time to exercise -NOT "treating" myself to a few hours of TV in the recliner.
KNOWING that I WILL reach my goal weight and accepting that it won't happen over night but that I must continue to "improve" my living conditions (I'm a work in progress concept) - NOT denegrating myself and beating myself up :frypan: :kickbutt: :boxing: :club: because I had 2 fish crackers.
Accepting that I've gained weight and taking responsibility for making a change -NOT avoiding mirrors, this website, the scale, and living in denial.
:sunny:
So, Jo, journaling is a way of being kind to me...it's like a way to keep track of my actions so that I don't start MIS"treating" myself with a gallon of ice cream again.
I read this and it actually sounds weird to me. But what the hey? If it works, I'll take every shed pound I can get!
I keep going back and re-reading everyone's words. I can't tell you how significantly that fuels my soul, my motivation, and it reinforces my positive thoughts. Thank you again everyone. I'll be reaching out to you through this long haul...but, you're also going to be part of the sucess that I'm so determined to realize.
:grouphug:
:woohoo: Time to go for a :running: but more of a :snail: pace today. I've already put in my workout on the cross trainer.
Cammie

More thoughts
 

Hey there Jo,
Just rereading your input and I was thinking that you hit the nail on the head. I got REALLY angry on Sunday. I mean, two year old :tantrum: temper tantrum angry. I was angry at everything (eventually at myself)...but I needed to just "get it out."
(It had to have been rather funny to watch, that is until I started crying, of course. :^: A 40 something temper-tantrum can't have been pretty. I was mad. The little itsy bitsy rain storm we had knocked over a tent/gazebo that I'd set up for my yard sale and had gathered donation stuff under. The donation guys come on Friday. But NO, the little rain storm had to blow it over and get everything wet :bomb: -including the inside of the tent. I went out there in my PJs at 5:30am and turned the dang thing back over cussing :censored: and fussing the whole time. I still have the poison ivy, I got banged on the nose so bad it almost broke, my hair looked awful; :rollpin: oh I can't even remember all the things that had me ticked off. I was feeling sorry for myself...miserabley sorry:snooty: . Finally, I got in the shower and just started to cry. My feelings were hurt :headache: that I felt heavy. I guess "being" heavy/overweight/plump/obese wasn't as bad as feeling) like I was.
I have a two year old...I was acting like a two year old.
My daughter saw me crying and patted me on the back of the leg while saying, "It's OK, Mommy, it's OK." How pitiful is that? I had to be comforted by a two year old!
So, as the day wore on and my thoughts evolved, I got to the point where I thought, "I don't like where I am/how I feel. If I don't like where I am, I need to do something to change it."
Well, Jo, I really don't like where I am. (temper tantrum level "don't like") So, I figured it's time to do something to change it. THAT was my kick in the butt. :kickbutt:
I guess I just figured if the situation was THAT emotional...it'd probably help to journal things. I really don't want to take my frustration out on my daughter or anyone else. I need to let the frustration go and replace it with acceptance, appropriate action, and consistancy.
With everyone's support here, I'm sure it will go well...I have a positive image of what I want to look like when I reach my goal weight. (How the batwings :bat: on the underside of my arms will shrink, I don't know. But some large animal will be able to use the extra skin to hang glide...:D I certainly won't need all that extra skin.)
Come on keep me straight, Jo. I need people around me who are going to say things like, "ack, that sucks about the weight gain." That made me smile!
See you on the threads...
Cammie

:grouphug: Hey Everybody! :grouphug:

Cammie... You are going to do it honey! :bubbles: :df: :bubbles: And you are already taking all the steps to do it! :dance:

Jo...I missed you and I am glad you are back.:hug: :hug: ..Susan B talked about the journaling thing and said that it is really worth...I just hate to write or type after the rest of everything I do...it would almost be easier to put it in a video and speak..But I am doing that daily and trying to food journal...and we are all here for the same reason...I have gained and lost and gained and am now losing a total weight amount of an average 5'11" man...Yup I figured it out over the 35 years of dieting I have gained and lost a total of 215 lbs...that is crazy! And if you are okay with the exercise than that is so much better than say me who will only walk with my pedometer! :strong:

JaxBarb Thank you! :yay: and you are right! We are all beating ourselves up...we need to support ourselves...the way we support eachother!

Tomorrow is Weigh in...have a good one! :dance: :dance: :dance: