Hi Everyone,
I am still on a bit of a 'downer' (yep... again!) since yesterday afternoon, as I had gone to the doctor to find out why I was so tired and she is pretty sure that I am still exercising too much. I REALLY didn’t want to hear that, because it makes me feel as though I’m not doing things right and I thought I had worked it all out. She made sense though, because she said that my body had gone through quite a trauma over the last couple of years and it needed time to recover. She actually said that the amount of weight I had lost, in the time I had lost it, was too fast. I was really surprised to hear that because I have always read that you can lose half to 2 kilos a week and that is fine. I lost one kilo (2.2lbs) a week for most of the time, and less than that at other times. I truly thought that I had done this in the healthiest way possible. She said that ‘medically’ a loss of that much is TOO much. I have a feeling that it could be more to do with HOW MUCH I lost, because it is probably OK to lose, say, 30kg (66lbs) or so at 1kg a week, but to lose what I lost should be done at a slower rate. I’m not really sure, but that is all that I could think would be the problem. Anyway… I think that because my body is still recovering from this ‘trauma’, I should give it a bit of a rest. She said that the weight I am at now is perfectly fine, considering where I have come from, and I should just maintain that weight. And, to maintain a weight, you only need to do 30 mins of exercise, three times a week. WOW!!!! I really don’t know if I can cut back to that little. I didn’t exercise yesterday afternoon, after the doctor’s visit, and I didn’t exercise today, but I plan on doing something tomorrow morning. I have been walking to school yesterday and today, which is a 10min walk each way, so I feel as though I am still getting some movement in. I decided to walk because we are trying to save fuel, with the prices being so astronomical. I have driven before because I have so many bits and pieces to get to school, but Neil is taking some with him when he walks up earlier, so that is making things easier.
I think I will be able to cut back my workouts to ONCE a day, for 30 mins, alternating the equipment I use. I think though that I will still try to exercise every day of the week and see if that works and I get more energy. I know that I am probably addicted to working out (the doctor said that too), but I am fit now and I don’t want to lose that fitness if I can avoid it. I have always wanted to lose weight to become healthier, and being fit is part of that, so I would prefer to not drop my fitness level. It is going to be a little ‘trial and error’ I think.
I just wish that I didn’t feel as though I have ‘failed’ in some way by still not being able to sort out how much exercise to do. I know I have achieved such amazing success in losing this weight, and now I feel as though I am not doing too well. I just have to get my mind around that though. The doctor did say that if I can’t stop exercising, it may be worth talking to a psychologist about it. I don’t mind doing that if the need arises, as I would prefer to have myself ‘mentally’ and ‘physically’ healthy.
Anyway… that was all that happened about the tiredness part of my visit, but we also talked about other stuff, so I have a few other things that we are looking into. I had a blood test done today to recheck my B12 levels. I am also going to have a bone density scan done, because of the Vit D deficiency and the contraceptive needle I was on can affect this. I am ALSO going to have a heart monitor attached for 24 hours one day to see how that is going. It is to try and pick up the palpitations I sometimes get, but they are so irregular that I don’t know if I’ll have any in the time I have it on. I’m not sure it will just read my heart rate, to show how low it gets. I’ll have to wait and talk to the people about it when I get it put on.
I ALSO had to go back today and have a ‘punch biopsy’ done on a patch of dry skin on my back. She said that it looks like some kind of allergy, but because I have had it for so long, she wanted to do the biopsy to make sure it wasn’t anything worse. I mentioned it to her because my exercise bra rubs on it and makes it weep and it even bled one day. Other than that, it hasn’t changed at all in years, and it hasn’t bothered me before. When I asked her if it was worth getting it removed because it was rubbing when I exercise, she looked at me calmly and said that it might be OK now because I wasn’t going to be exercising as much… was I? OK… point taken.
I don’t like having a ‘punch biopsy’ done, just in case you were wondering. The anesthetic needle hurt, and I could feel a bit of the procedure still. I had my very first stitch too! And I could feel a little bit of that towards the end. For some reason, anesthetics don’t seem to last long with me. She took a few good chunks of skin out, and I have to have it covered for a week, which is going to be fun. Poor Neil has to help me dress it each evening and I’m supposed to keep it dry. Showering is going to be a bit of a contortionist act I think.
Anyway… I have decided that I’m falling apart, but hopefully I will be put back together again after all of this. Fingers crossed that the biopsy comes back clear.
I don't have time for personals after that 'novel', but I'll try to get some done tomorrow. I should have time on my hands if I'm not exercising in the afternoon. *sigh*
Take care,
Zelma
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And blessings.
I want to know, just as Velma does, was it the job that he had the phone interview for, and does he get to wear his suit now 
that is a wonderful NSV that you got to lower you speedo, it's the lovely things like that which inspire you to keep on going isn't it. I am really happy for you 
