Kayleystar" I posted to you earlier today, been awaiting to see you back, and check in on you.. glad to see you spirits up.......... crock

Awwww...MsCrockett, thank you. I really need to remember that, but it's so HARD sometimes. (regarding your other post).

And yes, Garnetfairy, I'm South Beaching it! Sorta...lol. I don't actually have the book or anything, and I'm just sorta reading about it online. But pretty much, I don't have any fruit no nothing bad. I'm sticking to Phase 1 for right now, and I've been on it since December 12th. I think I'll try Phase 2 when I'm down another 30 pounds or so. :)

Kayley! This is not forever, hun! You've done SO well. You've started to change when you're young enough to change the WHOLE rest of your life. You are a delight to know, and the wrapping paper is changing as we speak. This is not where you'll be next month, next fall, next year, or on your 21st birthday. This is temporary and you're in control now. I know, we all know, how painful episodes like that one can be, but I hope you can look at the big picture with the smaller, more comfortable, more confident YOU in it. :hug: :hug: :hug: If you're smart, you won't make me hug you till your eyes pop! :hug:

Jilly * Fantastic! EVERYBODY STAND BACK!! This woman is in control!!!!

By the way Kayley and all ,, MY LAST POP WAS AT 4 PM TODAY.. PRAY FOR ME.............OR WHAT EVER IT IS YOU MAY DO .............LOL CROCK

That's another thing I need to change. Pop consumption. Ugh. It's SO HARD.

Kayley - I'm in a program called Trucker Buddy where we write to classrooms of kids. Last October I went to visit my class, which was stressful cuz what would they think of this huge trucker lady? But I digress - at one point the teacher invites me to sit down... on a seat made for itty-bitty 4th graders! :o Uh-boy!

MsCrockett - Good luck with your last Pop. Even if it takes a while to get it out of your system, you won't even be missing it soon! Congratulations!!!

Kayley - I hope that they can work around your school schedule, it sounds like you would like the job. Good job with your bf got to get some culture into them before they get too set in their ways.

Sad to hear about your dad. I hope your mom is able to nail him to the bank vault.

Kayley, try not to let the prejudices of our culture get you down. It is not your fault if society wants to act ignorant and push the majority of the population into the background. You have lost 33 very difficult pounds and that is something to be proud of BUT even if you were at your highest weight you are worth of respect and dignity and if people want to act stupid, that is their problem. Dont take on their ****. You are a beautiful woman on a journey through a life change that you chose to follow. So you cant get fitted at the store they regularly use, really, that should not be such a surprise considering the clothes most stores carry. Another option just means they have to expand their resources to meet your need and I am sure you are not and will not be the only person who they have to use another option for. There is no shame in being large! Dont let anyone make you think there is! you are just as much an important human life as anyone else on this poor planet and deserve just as much respect as anybody..from the idiotic president to the person on the street. Each of us is worthy of respect, dignity, and self worth. You wanna lose weight you lose weight for you not because society tells you you dont fit in because that is a load of bull.

oops, off the soapbox now, backing away slowly...hoping no one notices...EEK

Princesspuffypants - That is SO GREAT!!! 3.4 you beat me by 1.4 today. you little so and so! Nope happy happy happy for you, keep up the good work!

Valerie - Congrats on the recongition!! you go woman!! i bet it was old home week when they got a load of you now. I hope you told them the pizza was for DH...poor thing had to smell it all the way home! I bet you were so high on cloud nine that it didnt even bother you. Nice to get your props, eh!

Good for you Jill, you show those calories whose boss!

Kayley - I am stuck on you tonight. If you want a south beach diet book there is one that is $7.99 that is better than the big expensive book. It is like an update to the book and it lists tons of foods and what stage they are allowed at. it is a trade paperback size book called The South Beach Diet Good Fats Good Carbs Guide.

Pop - the hardest thing for me to give up was cola...but I am totally on water, tea(rarely) and crystal light or wyler's equivalent.

I am going to post this before I get excited again...and get my hackles up.

wow. I got caught up. Almost 100 posts since yesterday morning I think! Course, now I have no time to add anything else!

Kayley - I may be wrong but I believe that there is some kind of rule that schools must provide adequate seating for students like if you were in a wheel chair you would have to have a detached desk. You can ask for a detached desk and chair for you if you feel like doing it. I know I had to do it when I was in Jr. College. I had planned on being embarrassed about it but then I decided to make it an empowerment moment. I deserve to have my needs met because I pay tuition or got the grant that pays tuition however it is paid it is paid and I deserve to be comfortable enough to listen to the instructor and not feel like a sardine. So I asked and they accomodated me. No problem...I had to remind them a few times until they got it through their heads that I was not to be ignored and then it was great. I taught the instructor something about their job.

Hey ya'll:) I'm just popping in here to say hi and let you all know that I started my NutriSystem program on Monday--we were initially going to start it today (my sister and I) but we decided to start it on Monday.Anyway, the food is great:) All the main courses come prepackaged,all you have to do is add other things like dairy,fruits,veggies,etc. For example, for breakfast I'll have a NutriSystem breakfast item,a yogurt,and any fruit I want. The meal planner lets us know exactly what we need to be taking in. I think it's really great. I'm having trouble with drinking 8 glasses of water a day but I'm gonna overcome that obstacle soon:) I'm moving up slowly but surely:p Anyway, I hope everyone has a great day. Take care~Cindy

Kayley - have you tried ebay? or torrid (dot) com? im pretty low income too, but mostly im cheap. if you look you can find LOTS of cute stuff in larger sizes that are cheap. torrid does 1/2 off clearance sales and ive gotten skirts for like 4 bucks. they do it almost once a month. same with old navy. i find better deals in the stores, but they have gotten with the times and go all the way up to 4x and 28. i NEVER pay full price for work clothes. if its not on sale, its not for me :) Also, as i weened my self off soda, Crystal light Peach Iced Tea is seriously like crack. its SO good and 5 cals and none of the bad stuff that soda has. i have found that cold turkey is the only way to go - at least for me. try not having any for a week. then have one. it will taste totally gross. i do that every now and then. i have a soda and it totally reminds me how gross it really is.

garnet - well next time you will just have to try harder :) I feel like Kayley. i dont see it, so i dont feel like im losing anything. i kinda feel guilty because i wear lighter clothes so i feel like maybe i did better than i really did. but honestly, each time ive gone ive worn reletively light clothes, and im still losing weight. so something must be going on in there. This is the first time in my life ive been committed to myself. ive always done for other people. this is my time. my only regret is that i didnt figure it out when i was 19. better late than never :)