Hey chickadees!

Just dropping in. I have no loss this week to report but on the bright side, my hands are swollen up so I am retaining water a bit. Ina sick sort of way, thats good news. Hopefully next week I will have a big loss:)

I have to try to keep apositive attitude. I DO know that I have more energy and FEEL better this week. I worked out 5 hours this week at the pool alone not counting my time in my home gym.

I go for blood work in the am and I have to fast after 8 so there should be no late night munchin here *L*

Hope others showed losses this week :)

Brenda :wave:

Thanks everyone for your caring words. They mean so much. My boss is a "favorite" in the company so it would do no good to go anywhere else. I work for a "good ol' boys" organization where women have no value. It's obviously time to leave.

I'm going to take it up in prayer. I used to be very religious, but this job had caused me to lose my faith so much. I feel I need to take this issue back to the "right place." I know some people might not be able to understand that, but I feel in my heart that's what I need to do. This problem is too big for me alone. For those who know what I'm talking about, I ask you to please add me to your prayers.

Ammi, that program you watched sounds horrible. It seems like the world is going crazy anymore. There are so many lunatics out there ~ and those lunatics seem to have their admirers and supporters. I am afraid of what the world is turning into anymore. Have you noticed how few "normal" people there are? It's downright scary. It sounds like that lady's husband's fetish is to control her, which is what he is trying to do with the food ~ not that he likes her to be as big as she can. I mean, let's call it what it is. Somebody ought to shoot that guy. What a nutball! Grrrr.

I'm glad your husband got mad too. My husband always supports me when we see things I don't like. When there's a show where they are making fun of a person's weight or using someone's weight as a negative subject, I refuse to watch it and my husband supports me ~ the TV goes off. I just don't know what is wrong with people nowadays. It's troublesome.

I applied for three jobs today (sent out faxes and mailed resumes). Hopefully, I will be in the right place soon. Thank you guys for your support. My boss deserves the nuts he hires and brings into that place. They all deserve each other. They can have each other.

I had to go off program today in order to get all my work done, but I will try to eat healthy until everything settles down. I can only do what I can do. Right? Yep.

Thanks again for listening.

ChristineU - Congrats on getting up to exercising the past couple of days! :ebike: I hope you are able to get your other equipment set up soon!:) Goodwill is a GREAT place to nab nice equipment.:cool: My Mom has had lots of luck at yard sales as well. That's where she got her BRAND NEW NordicTrack.:tread: Would be FAB if we could meet up sometime! :cofdate: I live in a tiny tiny town called Galien. Ever heard of it?

Tashabella - I'm so sorry things are going so terribly for you at work right now. :( I know of the kind of girl :snooty: you are talking about, as that's so COMMON now adays...she thinks her sh*$ don't stink! :queen: You shouldn't have to "take" that kind of treatment EVER :nono:, and I hope you are able to find a new position elsewhere SOON! :hug: It's THEIR loss, as cheesy :cheese: as that may sound!;)

Butterflyns - Don't worry about having the bad stuff. :cookie: At least, you aren't letting it make you give up! Getting right back on it is GREAT! :bravo: Hope your kitty is feeling better today!:hug:

Luan - Goodness! Teenagers can be a handful...I know, as I'm STILL one! :D I hope things get better for ya, dear. :hug: And I hope your shoot went well! Even if it's just an extra part, that's gotta be exciting! :carrot:

Honianangel - Starting is always the hardest! So glad we are all in this together! ;)

Nancy - Kudos for the loss! :goodscale: Especially when you were feeling sick! :barf:

Brenda - You must be so excited for her! :hug: Keeping your hands and mind busy is DEFINATELY good! :D

Garnetfairy - Hello and :welcome3: Hope you find what you need here! :) I've attempted Tae-Bo, and failed horribly! :stars: I think once I'm down about 50 more pounds, it'll be a little easier on me and my body!

JuleeCeeS - As long as you hop right back on the bandwagon :strong:, I wouldn't feel too bad about the indulgences. :cookie: You are doing so great!! Congrats on finding the photographer! When's the big day? :lucky:

Lovelylatina - Hello and :welcome2: to the forum!:) The support here is fantastic, and I just KNOW you will love it here! ;)

Ammi - So glad you are able to stay on track! :hug: And that your GOOD voice is winning! :angel: Oh my...that program sounds absolutely horrid! It just baffles me how people can do things like this to other human beings. :?: Isn't that sort of thing illegal at all? If not, it SHOULD be!:mad: You are lucky to have such a caring husband. I'm glad it impacted him as well! :hug:

Well, I did some looking at Walmart and Meijer today to see what kind of a selection they had for workout dvds. I saw the Walk away the pounds ones that you all rave about...and also one called "dance away the inches"...it's for beginners, and teaches you how to dance. I'm always jumping around and such, so I thought that would be great for me. And they are just 10 minute workouts, so that'd be great for me in the mornings, when I'm usually strapped for time. I hear you all raving about the stability balls, and I saw one at Walmart that had a holder and arm things for it, too...so maybe I'll get it in a couple of weeks. I was also looking at the mini trampolines at Meijer. I think that would be fun...especially if I could bounce/dance on it! :D Something to think about at least. Went and saw "Aeon Flux" at the dollar theater with Andrew today, and the plot was good, but the acting was a TAD overdramatized. Got a "date" with a girlfriend of mine that I haven't seen in a while on Tuesday, and we are going to go and see "Casanova". Well, chickies, it's an early night for me...for once! So I'll catch you all sometime tomorrow! :hug:

Thank you for the welcomes! I am afraid I may have put on instead of taken off fat this week. I ate most of a jar of peanutbutter...eek, low-fat peanut butter but still, mongo calories. I have asked that if any more peanut butter comes into the house that it be kept in a pantry or somewhere I wont see it because it is a terrible weakness for me, just terrible. I feel so bad about letting myself down. The stupid thing was I knew what I was doing when I did it. Maybe it was self-abuse. My psych thinks I eat to punish myself. Maybe I do. I have to find a way around that.

I know I dont like myself for many valid reasons and I dont see that changing anytime soon. But maybe I can find away around it all to let me lose weight. My mom, who is dieting with me got totally pissed about my eating the peanut butter. She acted like I betrayed her by falling off the diet. So there is that. Dont want to go thru another scene like that again. Also, my brother and my dad do not believe either one of us will lose significant weight and keep any weight off. I can make it a vendetta type thing and prove them wrong...that would maybe work for me. I am very competitive.

I HAVE TO DO THIS! If I dont do this, I may as well find a gun and kill myself faster because right now I am killing myself slowly but surely with the food and being sedentary. I think it is now or never for me. I really do. If I dont succeed this time, I dont think I ever will and that is so sad.

I am afraid of getting diabetes. It runs in my family along with colon cancer and high cholesterol and high blood pressure. I already have high cholesterol and my blood pressure fluctuates to very high then to normal. It has not made up its mind which way to go yet. But it will soon. Now my knees are starting to hurt and I have bone spurs in my heels. I fall down and it is harder to get up and when I do everything hurts. I have always had back problems but with this weight they are so much worse! Boo Hoo Hoo

I am sure that many of you can say the same things about your health. I am ready for a change. I dont want to hurt all the time. I dont want to walk funny. And I am tired of little kids pointing at me and telling their mommy to look at the fat lady! I am tired of starting and then stopping. I want to do it and keep it off forever. I want to be a grandma (eventually) who has a lap for the baby to sit on instead of my belly sitting on it. I want my son to not be ashamed of my size anymore. I want to be able to sit in a booth anywhere I go to eat, and to eath healthy while I am there.

I got a new attitude! I will do this! I am worth this! I can do this! It is all up to me, I am in control. Not the peanut butter or the candy or the fast food, or the restaurants...me, just me. I am taking control of what I put in my mouth and I am taking control and getting into an exercise routine. I can do it! You can do it! We can do it!

I am glad I have all of you for help and support along the way! Thank you for being here! and best of luck with your battles...I hope we are all victorious!!!

Wow, lots of catching up on reading in one day. So much happening!

I remember hearing and seeing things about those "feeder" type people and they make me so sad. Those type of people may find that attractive, but at the same time, they are literally killing those they love with the practice. Maybe it is all over my head, but I don't see the purpose of those. To love plus size people is great, but to feed someone to fatten them to 1,000 pounds or whatever, that is just dangerous...don't you think?

Anyway, on to more happy stuff..WEEEEEEEEEEEE ARE THE CHAAAAAAAAMPIONNNNNSSS!!!!:carrot: (Well, AFC Champions anyway). GREAT game! This is our first trip to the Super Bowl in ten years, and that game is three days before my birthday. Yippee!!!

I feel like a total pig today; thank goodness I limit stuff like this to the weekends or I'd be in serious trouble. Extra working out the next couple days are in store for sure for me. Between lasagna, bread, dessert and champagne, I went WAYYYYY overboard--and I am STILL full!

Just checking in...
 

It's been a good day here. I didn't eat much at all, sometimes that's my problem though. I went years eating one meal a day, a 3 liter Coke and candy bars to fill in the blanks.... Today there weren't candy bars, I just wasn't really hungry.

Oooooh but has anyone tried the sugar free cool whip??? It's to die for :) . I used it making up a cottage cheese salad to take to work during the week and I really didn't think it would be good at all but it tastes sinful.

I did the 2 mile workout last night and this afternoon. It was a bit of a challenge, and I had to just go back to walking while they were still kicking of something but I got a good invigorating workout. And I'm proud of myself for doing the 2 mile. I'm going to try to get it in one more time before I go to bed...but morning comes real early.

Ammi-- In the 1 mile you do 4 moves regular walking in place, sidesteps (where you simply step out to the side and then bring the other foot together with the foot that stepped out and then sidestep back the other way), kicks (where you simply kick your leg out in front of you at a height you are comfortable with), and knee raises (where you raise your knee up, because you are walking it looks like a real high march, but you just raise it to where you are comfortable). All the moves can be done simply for beginners and with more intensity as you get used to them. The 2 mile adds in a couple other moves that are a little more challenging in context with walking two miles at the same time :) .

kayleystar-- Thank you. And, I've always wanted to try some of the dance workouts but I never have. Right now I'm looking for "The Firm Box" so I can do my Firm DVDs, but I can't find one anywhere under $50. I don't have a step at all but these DVDs require one that does an incline...so they are just sitting on the shelf until I save up for it. I figured walking was a good way to increas my endurance.

Ladies, Please forgive me for being so far behind! I know I won't get to everyone, but I'm SO glad to have the time to stop in!! We've been in Alberta for a few days (Catherine I was thinking of you!) and I haven't been on-line at all!

First of all, a very warm :wel3fc: to all our newest members!! This forum has been of more help than I can tell you, and I'm more greatful to these chickees than I could ever express - support, encouragement, honesty and understanding... not to mention a fun bunch!

Julee, WOW.:( I know exactly what you were going thru when that one little bite of cake seized you and gave you such fits with all the other marshmellows, etc. Isn't it amazing how that little bit of sugar can totally throw you out of whack? I hope you've overcome it!

I know a couple of you have blood work and other procedures Monday - I wish you the very best of outcomes & better health as a result! Keep us posted.

I missed all the kitty stories, but YIPPEE for all the kitties! and a scratch & a schmooze for the puppydogs, too! ... and what the heck, a :carrot: for the ponies! :D

Tashabella, I know what you mean, and you are in my prayers. Gotta luv those good ol' boys. NOT! That's why I left my last job and started truckin'... not that I recommend that you do THAT! :no:

I'm sorry I know I've missed so many of you... I really have missed you actually. Been trying to get my exercise in, and haven't been perfect in the diet department, but haven't been too bad either... o.k.- that reuben sandwich yesterday was a really BAD idea, but otherwise I've stocked up on Rotisserie chicken and fresh fruit/veggies. Walked tonight and will have the chance to do a workout in the a.m.

The truck and the weather gave us fits this last run - first rain, freezing rain & snow, then water got in the rear light fixtures and we had to have stuff fixed/replaced, then the customer put us off an extra day which meant we couldn't make any money for the next 3 days, then MILES of fog (I HATE! driving in fog - most dangerous stuff in the world,) then the border inspection guy found that we had a broken spring and we had to park in their lot until the next day when someone drove down 150 miles from the nearest repair place to fix it. THAT wasn't cheap, but hey, we only got a $125 ticket for it instead of a $400 ticket, and it WAS caught before it caused something truly horrible like a wreck, so it was a GOOD week, wasn't it? :rolleyes:

We're safely back in the states, and there was a nice little truckstop in Montana waiting for me with utterly devine HOT running water & a big fluffy towel (have you considered your little blessings, like a shower, yet today?) Some joys there are no words for! :spin: