300 + Chat Thread June 2016
 

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Hi guys hope all is well! Just trying to get back to normal from going away for the weekend. Got home late Monday night so Tuesday was spent getting some much needed rest after work. DH is having band practice now so I have been doing grocery shopping while I wait on him.

Our trip was wonderful! We had such a great time even though there were tears when we got there realizing that DH's Granny isn't going to walk around the corner any minute. We got to go downtown and did a lot of walking. It was a lot of fun. We are planning to go up there one weekend a month for a little while to help my FIL with the work that needs done on the house for awhile.

Going to keep it short but if you want to see some of the photos you can check out my instagram at Sakurako2686

Take care all!

Thanks Tootsie. It is really lonely. I am struggling so bad at the moment. My grand mother is really sick too, she has advanced kidney disease and needs an operation because she has other gastro intestinal problems, she is 94, and the family are going beserk, on top of everything else. I just feel really sad and lonely. My partners work situation is changing too which is stressful. Just feeling sad and lost.

Sam— Thanks so much for starting the June thread! I'm glad you had a good Memorial Day weekend, although that is sad about your husband's granny. I'm been meaning to tell you that your photo of you and your DH was really cute: both of you look so happy and like fun people to hang out with. I hope some day we can meet in person. We're not that far apart: at least we're both on the East Coast! =laugh=

Calda—I'm so sorry to hear that you are feeling so sad, lonely and depressed. You have even more on your plate than I do, what with your loss and the funeral, the pulled muscle in your back, and the way your family is being so obnoxious. I have heard that kind of story before, which is why I don't pay any attention to what's going on with my own family, whether they care about what I am going through or not. Please do not feel bad about yourself: you have achieved a great deal by having lost all that weight, and though it may be tough to pick up the ball again about going to the gym, I know you are a strong woman and you will be able to go back there and get back to what has been working so well for you. Just take it easy at first, and don't forget that 90% of weight loss is diet and 10% is exercise. If you are eating right, you should be able to maintain your loss and start losing again. That's what I'm telling myself. Even though I have been on a plateau for a really long time, I just keep trying to eat as well as I can. I know some day my weight will start moving down again. Take care of yourself, Calda, and know that you've got people here on this thread who really care about you! =hug=

Tootsie— I'm in such a messed-up state myself, I don't remember what you last said about yourself, except that it sounds like you, too, have been feeling pretty down. Please tell us more about how you are doing. Did you read what I asked you about whether you've considered psychotherapy for your self-esteem issues?

I am in the middle of such a such a big crisis myself, I made an emergency phone call to my psychiatrist yesterday, and he said it sounded like "a perfect storm."

In short:
• I still have not received the pain medication that was re-ordered after being stolen from UPS. I have called and called the CVS provider for my insurance company, and all they can tell me is that it's "in process" in the pharmacy. Even though all the i's have been dotted and all the t's crossed—the police report, the repeat prescription from my doctor, the UPS claim, etc.—the order for the re-shipment has not made it out of the CVS mail-order pharmacy yet! I am about to tear my hair out over this! My legs are really hurting.
• Tuesday on the way home from going to see Mike in Bethesda, Bob told me that he thinks the whole serotonin toxicity episode that damaged my legs is MY FAULT! He said that I should have known better than to take the serotonin-altering medications that sent me into that horrible episode that made my legs and arms go into continuous spasm and that made me so demented I didn't realize I couldn't walk, so I kept falling down and injured my knees so badly. I was so upset while in the car with him, I cannot begin to describe it! I felt betrayed by my sweet Bob and I could not figure out what had happened to make him lose his mind like that—except that maybe he resents me so much for all the things he has had to do for me, it's driving him back into the bad depression he had for several years.
• Bob had to go to the dentist on Wednesday because he has a crack in one molar. He says it's not causing him any pain, though. He returned from the dentist in like 45 minutes, which didn't make any sense to me since it takes 15 minutes to drive there and 15 minutes to drive back. He said he couldn't stay there after he got in the dentist's chair (we have a really nice dentist) because his neck was hurting him so much. So of course I asked him what was going on with his neck, and he yelled at me for being so stupid I didn't even remember that he had had a slipped disc about 25 years ago. I said of course I remembered, but he hadn't mentioned it in a really really long time, except to say that the way he sleeps now, with a buckwheat pillow on top of a regular pillow, has made it better, so his neck hasn't been bothering him. He said that he didn't know what had gone wrong, but that now it was bothering him a whole lot, that it had been hurting badly for days. And he hadn't even told me! That is not how our marriage usually works: we have been married for nearly 38 years and we usually tell each other everything that is going on.

So anyway, you can figure out now, if you've read this so far (sorry for being more longwinded than I wanted to be) why we are in a perfect storm: my legs are hurting really bad, they haven't gotten the pain medication to me, Bob's neck is hurting really bad, he said that crazy stuff to me in the car about my Big Medical Disaster being all my fault, and so on. I mean, I know now why he seemed to be losing his mind: it was because his slipped disc in his neck had been hurting a lot and he hadn't even told me!

Sorry to hear you are struggling Fi. That sounds even worse than my situation. You and Tootsie have both told me similar things about your family situation and how similar it is to mine. I don't know why I care so much, but with everything else, it is just compounding my misery. I just feel so low. I am looking forward to starting at the gym again, I have missed it. With the exception of a couple of big splurges, I haven't really gone that far from my eating plan. I am not expecting a miracle weight loss, but I know I will be able to accept it, whatever the scales say. I miss my partner heaps, and to top it right off, I have had a period that has lasted a full fortnight. I just feel really out of control. I really hope things improve for you Fi.

Hay Girls, Ive been MIA for a good 5 or 6 months on here probably, but I was finishing off my Honours Degree back here in Scotland and I was stressing out! I went to Germany in January with some friends to go and stay with my best friend who is based over there with his Wife. We all spoke about how we had all put a little weight on and the girls decided to start a lbs a week club. I was doing very well at first and I was loosing my 1 lb a week slowly and steadily, until my university work got really out of hand! I was hardly sleeping, I was getting anxious (which I never suffer from luckily). I wasn't exactly stress eating, however I was just eating all the wrong foods.

6 weeks later, I decide to weigh myself to see if I had completely damaged the work I had put in. I hadn't! I stayed the exact same!

So since the middle of January, I am 12lbs down. However I am 5 weeks behind schedule and I am eager to loose my 2lb a week for the next few weeks to catch up on my slacking!

I even decided that being back on 3FC will help me considerably.

I hope you are all well :D

Scotsgal— Welcome back to the thread! Too bad we can't hear you talk: I bet you have a charming Scottish accent. =smile= It sounds like you have a good plan for getting back on track. Two pounds a week is quite doable. I know that personally because the best periods of weight loss for me in the past have been a steady downward line on my graph of exactly two pounds a week. And you are right that 3FC is very helpful, especially if you try to post every day. This 300+ thread is a caring and supportive community. You will notice that we talk about all kinds of issues going on in our lives, because anything that is affectiing us emotionally is affecting our efforts to lose weight. Whenever you feel comfortable doing so, you can talk about anything in your life. Congratulations on finishing your Honours Degree!

Well, the "perfect storm" I described in my last posting is not completely over. However, I have decided that when the Universe is ready for me to get a supply of that pain medication, I will get it. Until then, I just need to manage my pain as best I can with Chi Gung and ibuprofen. Today Bob's neck is a little bit better. I drove both to and back from my appointment with Mike, my Chi Gung instructor, and that was helpful to Bob, because he could close his eyes and meditate. I am focusing on the word contentment this afternoon. I figure if happiness is not within my reach, at least I can accept things as they are and try to be content.

Glad things are getting better Fi :)

Fi Fingers crossed that things start to look a bit better.

I feel I should introduce myself a little better as you all I am sure know each other a little better.

My Nickname is Caz, so you can call me that or Scotsgal.
I am 27 from a town called Ayr on the west coast of Scotland

Fi> Yes I totally have a charming Scottish accent, and It would also be one that you will understand as I spend 4 summers working in the USA at Camp as an international Counsellor.

I have recently finished my honours degree in International Tourism Management and in July I will be starting my new job as a Cruise Specialist. I currently Live with my mum and the dog as I recently moved back from the city.

I am also a Scottish Pipeband Drummer, however I now suffer from tennis and golfers elbow in each arm which causes me a lot of pain and I am waiting on surgery towards the end of the year.

I love to travel and I love my country music (which is very odd for a Scot)

Wish you all to have a great day :D

Caz— When you say "country music," do you mean like American country music? If so, that would indeed be odd for a Scot! I grew up in Texas, which is a hotbed of country music, but me, I'm rock, rock-n-roll, and blues all the way. I got my first little transistor radio in 1964, when the Beatles arrived in the U.S., and I've been addicted ever since. =grin= Sam's husband is in a band, although she hasn't told us what kind. As the years go by (I'm 61) and I look back on my history of lovin' rock-n-roll, even the really old stuff from the 1950s (Chuck Berry!), I realize that while I love going to bars & concerts to hear live music, and love my albums—Bob and I combined our vinyl record collections in the late 1970s, and we still have all of them (!)—I especially gravitate toward the live deejay format, which now I enjoy commercial-free on Sirius-XM (satellite broadcast). Something about knowing that a human being is lovingly picking out songs for me to listen to, in real time, just rings my chimes. Say Caz, that's cool you play traditional Scottish music. When my sister was like ages 8 to 12, she did highland dancing, with the fancy costume & everything. So I got to see a lot of men in kilts, going to watch her dance. She even got to do the sword dance in a big opera production of "Lucia di Lammermoor." So you'll have to tell us who some of your favorite country singers are... myself, I absolutely IDOLIZE Patti Smith, who in addition to being a great musician, is also an artist and a writer of poetry & award-winning nonfiction. =smile=

I'm looking forward to seeing my 16-yr-old great niece Grace today. I teach her art (mostly collage, which is my medium) and recently she flattered me by asking me to help her hone a rough draft of an essay for English class into a nice final product. (I'm a nonfiction writer, although I haven't published anything in a long time.) Today we will be doing Part Two of a lesson on all things pertaining to fountain pens, ink, and a bit of calligraphy. Part Two is all about fancy fonts: I've never taken a proper calligraphy class, but I can fake it pretty well, so we'll be practicing letter forms, making fancy address labels, that sort of thing. Grace is the light of my life: we've gotten to be really close friends. We think it's fun that in February of 2016, she turned 16 and I turned 61. =laugh=

Fi

Yes I do mean American Country music, My uncle who was in the British Army for 23 years was also very much into his country and he used to always have Garth Brooks or Dolly playing out of his car radio. While I am a huge fan of the classics including the adoring Johnny Cash, I like a lot of the newer country music, Someone once told me it was Bro country? My Spotify is full of Luke Bryan, Tim McGraw, Blake Sheldon, Jason Aldean, Brad Paisley, Carrie Underwood, Miranda Lambert, Florida Georgia Line and Rascal Flatts. My friends have not a clue who any of these people are lol. It all came from listening to the Radio while working in the states. In 2014 myself and 2 others drove from near Danbury Connecticut, all the way to Florida, Via Tennessee. It was great to do all the tourist stuff in Nashville, I really didnt want to leave, but my mates who were English and Swedish, did not quite fully understand the country feel.

That is cool about your Great Niece, My big sister has 2 kids. My Neice Cadha (Kay-da) is 7 and my Nephew Joseph is about 18 months. My little brother also has a little girl who is only 10 Months old and her name is Ivy. I am the cool auntie who travels and brings them back rubbish presents lol No kids for me yet, still haven't found the right man to come sweep me off my feet lol. A lot of this weight loss is actually so that I feel a lot more confident and sexy in my own body :D

Its cool that you got to see you sister dance, I do a lot of shows in Germany, because the Germans love Scottish traditional music for some reason. But after drumming so hard for 14 years or so, my arms are in some pretty bad shape, it really does affect the way that I exercise, very annoying.

This weekend, I plan on going on a few walks with my dog along the beach, I live around 300 meters (1000ft) from a popular sandy beach, so I am lucky in that way when it comes to exercising.

For those of you who follow my collage art, I have a new one up: "gulf coast landscape". (As usual, click on the image for a larger version.)

Hi ladies! Hope everyone is enjoying the weekend! Just thought I would quickly check in and let everyone know I am starting at the gym again tomorrow. I have been out for a fortnight, with everything that has been happening in my life, something had to give and I needed a break and the extra sleep. I know it is a pathetic excuse, but I was at the point of break down, and I had a complete meltdown at my partner and my best friend. I am feeling nervous and excited about going back and I am scared of the scale and if I have lost any of my fitness :( On another note, I am feeling much better now. I feel like I have a sense of closure after the funeral, and that everyone can start to try and heal. I have had a really quiet weekend with my partner and feel ready to start next week being healthy and happier again. My grandmother is still sick but is out of hospital, I am getting through my study and I am ahead at work.. The dragon woman I work with is even behaving like a human being towards me, because she can see the toll the last couple of months have had on me, which is nice.. I still wouldn't trust her as far as I could throw her, but she is at least cutting me some slack, which is so appreciated. Hope everyone is well and is kicking goals! I will check in again soon!

Another collage in the theme of "Put a Frame Around It": "dancing for dionysus".

Nice to hear you're going back to the gym, Calda. I would say that you shouldn't be afraid of the scale or of losing a bit of your fitness. Look at me: in the year of 2015 I entirely lost the use of my legs. Now I can walk around the house quite a bit, and I can walk to and from my car in the carport. But I have days, like this past Saturday, where my legs are hurting so badly I have to take a day of rest—lying on the futon, getting around in my wheelchair. As I've heard more than once on 3FC: The goal is progress, not perfection. =smile=

Thanks Fi. Today was ok. I was asked heaps of questions about the funeral which was dreadful, I am not ready to talk about it yet, and it still upsets me. The gym was good, it was nice to be back with my normal gym ladies. I was weighed and I gained 1kg, which is honestly a minor miracle, as I had done no exercise and had reverted back to 2 weeks of comfort eating, which embarrasses me greatly. I am going to try to remember that progress is the key, not perfection. I have been really hard on myself. I hope you have been feeling a bit better!

Congrats on only gaining one kg., Calda!

My legs are in pretty good shape today. They really respond to the weather! Today it's been a nice blue sky with just a few cumulus clouds.

Where is everybody else?

Had another good day at the gym. We are doing another challenge, and my challenge today was to do a 2 minute wall sit, and a 2 minute plank, and I surprised myself and everyone else when I managed to do both of them! Looking forward to the weekend, I am hoping to go and visit my best friend who lives about 14 hours from me, she is supposed to be coming home this weekend, so fingers crossed I can go and see her! Hope everyone is doing well.

Hi everyone! So I went to weigh myself this morning and I about died of excitement when the scale read 298! I was freaking out. But then I started to think about it and was like no.... that's a little too good to be true. Turns out the scale was off balance a bit and I haven't reached the 200's yet but getting closer. 302 this morning. I guess I'll take it and put in a little extra work to get to 298.

Have a good day everyone!

Well done CrankyCamel! Keep on keeping on!

Well done crankycamel

I am currently 310 these last 10lbs of the 300 club are frustrating me. I have been under it many times, for some reason this time its harder to shift. I had a plan since January to be 299 by the end of June. I doubt I'll get there now, but I will work really hard to at least get most of it off.

Good morning guys,

I'm sorry that I haven't been posting regularly it's definitely not like me as of late. Ever since I got home from Virginia I've just been trying to get my bearings on life and everything going on around me. Not too much is changed but just needing to get my house in order and my mind back in losing weight. I haven't completely stopped eating right I just haven't been watching everything I eat as hard-core as I have been. I went to the gym on Wednesday for the first time in a really long time. It was nice and it wasn't busy which was even better. I've been working at home up until recently but since I took my trip I haven't really been doing any working out at all. I guess I've just been really lazy and I'm kind of getting tired of that. I felt really good going to the gym so I think that something I want to try to get back to doing most of the time now. I'm thinking about going Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, and maybe on Tuesdays and Thursdays work out at home or do some sort of resistance training to help ease my muscles. I have a networking out that hard, five days a week in a while. I think that's what I need to get my weight-loss jumping back to where it needs to be. As of this morning I'm up to 211. I'm not happy about it and i'm ready to get back back out there and make my changes to get the rest of this weight off. I don't want to see a creep back up I need to keep this off forever. My plan today is to possibly go to the gym after work I'm waiting on DH to get home so I can see if you'd like to come with me. He said he saw a photo of himself that I took a few months back and hated what he saw. I hope he's really serious about it this time but I really don't want to be in his face about losing weight it's something you have to decide on your own to do I feel. Speaking of GH, I thought I had said what type of band he was in but he is in a rock 'n' roll band I guess she would say, kind of like 80s new wave that with a mix of rock 'n' roll. They're starting to do a couple a new different things and going to be adding in drum is machine style sounds kind of like New Order. They do have an album out, I believe most of their songs are on the website ReverbNation. They are set to go back into the studio this August to start working on some new recordings. Here is a link to their page.

I'm sorry I don't have time to do any personals today but please know that I'm thinking about you. I hope everyone is having a good summer so far and I'm hoping to lose this weight and possibly a little more by end of year. I don't believe I will make my ultimate goal weight this year but maybe by sometime next year that will actually happen. I'm getting comfortable with my body now and I'm to the point where even if I don't make that wait as long as I am happy and healthy that's all that matters to me now. I would like to eventually get my excess skin removed, but as you know that it's pointless for me at this point in my life and will need to wait to see what happens. On the bright side, people are still saying that I look like I've lost weight since the last time they saw me. Maybe my weight is shifting on my body into different places that makes me look thinner? I really don't know maybe they're just trying to be nice.

I need to finish getting ready for work. Will try to get better at posting again on the daily. Hopefully everything gets back to normal soon. Take care my friend! Have a great day.

SamIAm, sounds like we are fighting the same battle with our loved ones. I wish mine would wake up to himself! I too, am sick of being in his face about his weight. He whinges about his looks, yet isn't actively trying to do anything about it. He has lost a couple of kilos on the weight loss tablets, but wont pare it with good food and exercise. So frustrating!

Calda I stopped trying to help a long time ago. I was the same way when people tried to help me lose weight. You just have to be ready for it and no one can tell you when that is but you. I want him to just feel good about himself regardless of his weight. When he's ready to do it he will. Anything else will just push my DH further away so I try to give him plenty of space.

Looks quiet here today. I went to the market and got a few things. Was supposed to start on my closet today but DH took a long afternoon nap so that's for tomorrow I guess. I didn't go to the gym today because I thought that's what we were going to do but I guess it's okay anyway. My arms are very sore still from my workout on Wednesday and last night I went to the gym too. I managed not to die on the stair climber and did 20 minutes. A lot better than when I tried sometime last year and could only do 5. I think it said I got close to 90 flights of stairs. I also worked on legs. I'm a little sore from that but not as bad as I thought I would be. On my way home last night I really thought about how good I felt after leaving the gym. As much as I like working out from home I think it's time to get back to the gym as much as I can. I'm thinking about trying to go every day diring the week if I can and have weekends off if I want to. I'm ready to get my head back 100% in the game and get this weight off for good! I even started tracking my calories with MFP and am trying to do it as accurately as possible. I'm going to need to get a digital scale for my food but for now I'm measuring out everything and eye balling on meats until I can get one. Hopefully this is a step in the right direction.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend so far! Tomorrow I plan to weigh in so we'll see if my weight has changed from the little exercise I did this week and the salads I ate for lunch.

I don't have much to report, except the news that my insurance company finally caved in and shipped the cannabinoid pain reliever: their website says iit should get to me tomorrow. I'll believe it when I see it. I've walked around the house quite a bit over the past three days. My legs are protesting loudly.

I made a new collage, an autobiographical one: "home stomping ground"

Am I trying to lose weight? Yes, I've been doing a very loose version of the intermittent fasting plan, occasionally going without any food after 12 noon. And Bob has been making salads for me—a nice development, since I still can't walk well enough to go grocery shopping for myself. Maybe when the 22nd (my monthly weigh-in) rolls around, I'll have good news to report.

Hiya everyone! I am so sorry I have been MIA again! I have had a Welsh exam ......took me back 30 years to my French O level! Talk about stressful. I mixed up "he" and "she" but corrected myself I am glad to say. I am going on a whole week of Welsh summer school soon as my Welsh has to be better for me to have a hope of getting a job in a school in this area. I am THRILLED to say that my chest has been good for almost 4 weeks now. That is the longest gap I have had for over 2 and a half years so I am so pleased and hopeful that I have finally turned the corner!
Diet and exercise -wise it has been a mixed bag but I keep on trying to shed those pounds!
I have a Psychology essay to complete in the next week or so and some job applications so I am busy!
Sam......I am so sorry that you are struggling at the moment. It is so difficult to see those we love struggle with their weight. I worry about my Sam.....he has quite a tummy and hates exercise so I struggle to motivate him!
To everybody else......I have been thinking of you all...keep up the good work! I will do personals to everybody next time. I am off to take my frien's dog to the vet...remember the one sided friendship I mentioned? Well the saga continues.
God Bless and have a great day
Donna

Hi everyone! Just a quick check in to say I had my very first Zumba class today and survived! Will be feeling it tomorrow! I hope everyone is having a fabulous week!

Hello all,

Still at work but wanted to just let everyone know I'm doing okay. I was too tired last night after getting home from the gym that I didn't feel like posting.

I'm doing good though. I have decided to get strict with myself again and I'm measuring out every little thing I eat, make sure I get a gallon of water in every day and am planning on trying to go to the gym 5 days a week, all through the work week so I can have weekends off to just chill if I want or do minor exercise like going on walks with DH and that of the like. I'm trying new things at the gym too. I was able to do the stair climber for 20 minutes last week, and last night I did the arc trainer machine and really loved that! I think that's going to be my new cardio machine I use when I go. It really works the legs. Last night I did abs and I'm feeling it for sure, especially in the obliques. Tonight I'm either going to do chest and back, or just shoulders. I didn't see the scale move when I weighed in on Sunday but I'm considering this my full week to be back on track 100% and see how that helps me this week. I only got in 2 days last week at the gym, but Sunday was a huge clean out day for me. Finally went through my closet.

No personals for today but hope everyone is doing well! Donna Glad you are feeling better dear!! You need to stop doing for everyone though...it's not fair to you and it's not a real friendship if the other person is not bringing anything to the table.

Later babes!

Helloooo?!?!?!?

Where is everyone?????

Checking in...everything is going really good this week. I'm 3 for 3 for my workouts so far this week. Job finished a great shoulder session. The arc trainer is starting to become my favorite machine for cardio. It really works the legs and I can do bursts of going really fast with ease. I've never been able to run on a treadmill because if I can't hang on I feel like I'm going to fall off. This gives me the great opportunity to do some hiit on the machine. I hope that helps me with getting my weight loss to kick start again.

On the eating front I'm doing VERY well. I'm really feeling good overall.

My girlfriend that got gastric bypass is healing well. I was going to make the trek to NC this weekend to visit her. It's probably been close to a year since I've been able to see her with things going on in both of our lives. However my cousin is in town until Saturday and I'm being guilt tripped into seeing her. Not sure if you remember her...she's the one who has the psych degree and has diagnosed me with an eating disorder last year....now she works with people who have eating disorders since she just got her masters. Seriously why would I want to see her? She tries to contact me every so often but I usually only keep my contact to a minimum. She never apologized or tell me she was wrong so why would I bother? Apparently my mother has failed to remember that and my grandma doesn't know. This girl is the golden child to my grandma and although she doesn't usually automatically take her side or anything but she would probably say I took it the wrong way. So I guess after the gym on Friday I'm going to stop by on my way home to keep it a short visit because I "need a shower" and "Rob is waiting for me so we can eat dinner together". It's really pretty sad that I have to even go through this mess.

I hope everyone else is doing okay. Makes me worry when a bunch of people are MIA at the same time. We can do it guys!!! Don't give up!! Stay well lovelys!

Hay!!!

SamIam: glad you're on track, and it's always a great feeling when you get all 3 workouts in. I'm sorry that you need to deal with your cousin, it's so unprofessional to phyc on your family when they havn't asked for it. If you believe in people who read dreams, I can. But when someone tells me about a weird dream they had, I don't go analysing it without their permission. Just uncool. I hope the meet isn't too bad.

My brother in law and sister went on holiday for a week, and because I haven't started my new job yet, I was drafted in to do my BIL's shifts at my aunts cleaning business. It's only 2 and a half hours in the morning, but it's hard grafting especially for someone at 311lbs. The sweat is pouring off me the whole time. I mean it's great that I'm working out, but I am not a morning person at all. So when I come home, within about 5 minutes I'm struggling to stay awake, then I need to go back to bed for an hour or so. I only have one more shift left tomorrow (fri) until I go on holiday to a cabin with the family.

Hope all is well with you guys!

Hi All - I ran away for a holiday for a couple of weeks - am back now have been for a week and am finally getting back to normal in my every day life - need to get back on to the WW program and get going again

Scotsgal Thank you for the support. I'm dreading this meet and almost want to avoid it completely but I don't think that is going to be possible. I plan to stop by on my way home from the gym to have an excuse to keep it short. Sounds like you've been getting a lotnof exercise in with all that cleaning!!

Karen Welcome back darling! Hope you had a great time on holiday! I've become more strict than I have lately with my plan so hopefully that helps me kick start my weight loss again.

Got another workout in today so now I'm 4 for 4!!! I'm surprised that I haven't crapped out yet with working out with no rest day in between. I won't know for sure how I'll like it until the weekend. My plan is to have weekends off now so I can be off from work and do whatever I want and relax. So far I think I like it.
I've also been trying to increase my calories because I have a hunch my weight loss has slowed down because I wasn't eating enough calories and when I did it wasn't the best food for me. I guess I'll see how it goes on weigh in day. I'm pretty proud of myself that I haven't gotten on the scale once this week. My other goal is to stop obsessing over the scale so I'm trying to go back to my once a week weigh ins.

Hope everyone else is going well. I'm thinking about you all!

Happy Friday Everyone!

So I just completed my last shift of helping out at my aunts cleaning business. I have been mostly doing the vacuuming all week with 2 days being the person who empties all the trash in the offices. Today was a trash day. Now there are around 50+ small trash cans around this one accountants office. So my abs and sides and stomach are twitching and aching. It's good though! Just not going to feel great for the rest of the day lol.

I go on holiday tomorrow to a cabin about 3 hours away from where I live (here in Scotland). I am going with some of my family and I can't wait. My brother and his partner don't eat particularly healthy, so I need to make sure I don't fall towards the bad food side, plus my gran is a feeder. I always wondered if she had Italian heritage due to how much she always wants to feed me. I will be strong through, this place has lots of walking trails and stuff so I'll make sure I pack my trainers, plus there is a swimming pool so I'll be having a little swim most days. I have 11 days until I graduate from university, so it would be nice to off got a few lbs off by then. I also booked a girls holiday with my best friend to Portugal in 5 weeks. So the plan is to loose 10lbs by then!!! Game on!!!!

Scotsgal Hope you have a great time on your trip! After all of your hard work you deserve it!

Still looks like a lot of people are MIA. Hope everything is okay with everyone. I managed to get all 5 workouts in this week! I really hope it's helped this week along with watching my food. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I'm happy to say that I haven't gotten on the scale even once this week to cheat and over obsess on the numbers. Whatever it is I'll just try harder next week.

Today has been nice being able to relax although DH and I have been doing some cleaning and what not. We are going to finally rearrange the bedroom tomorrow. We are putting our dressers in our walk in closet to make more room and going to bring the love seat in here to make it easier for us to watch tv and play video games. Our nicer tv is in our room because my BIL was hogging the tv back before we had one in our room so when we finally saved the money up we bought a nice one and keep it in here.

I had to hand fill my washing machine to do clothes because I need to get a new inlet valve so the water will come out. I made about 9 trips to my bathroom before DH said why don't we unhook the hose and hand fill it that way...ughhh well at least that was more of a workout. I'm hoping that helps too because although I haven't eaten a ton of food today I've had a lot of fat because of not having much for snacks in the house so I hope that doesn't hinder me. We're scraping by until Inget paid on Wednesday so I opted for peanut butter from the jar earlier today as my snack and ate a little too much. I plan to watch it at dinner tonight so hopefully it will be okay.

Off to go help DH with dinner. Have a great night!

Hi guys! Hope the weekend is treating you well! I am having a nice quiet weekend in with my beautiful partner. Yesterday, I took a BioAge test at my gym. It uses a series of physical exercises, 2 questionnaires and various measurements to determine the age of your body, which can be different from your actual age. I was really nervous, however I managed a good result! As a result of changing my diet and sorting out my life, my BioAge is 2.5 years younger than I actually am! I am thrilled with the results, and this is the first time I am feeling a sense of pride in my body, because it is continuing to get fitter and stronger. Hope you are all having a good weekend!

Not quite weight related, but I am looking for ideas on making new friends.. My partner and I moved to a new area, 3 hours from where we were living and neither of us have been able to meet any new friends.. I go to the gym, but the ladies are all at least 30 years older than me, I am not allowed to drink and party anymore due to a health condition, and that automatically uncool for people my own age. I am just feeling lonely and with no one to go and have coffee with or talk to. I work hard, and some of the people I work with are great, yet they are colleagues. I am in a small town too, so other than the pub, social activities are pretty thin on the ground. My best mate lives 14 hours away, and I am having a rough time at the moment, and I just need a friend. University was great and easy to make friends, but without it and alcohol, I feel like a loser and a hermit :( Happy to consider all options!

Calda Glad you're enjoying your weekend and great job on all of your hard work!

Well today was my weigh in day. I have to admit I was really nervous because I had no idea what I could be looking at. Some of the changes I've made this week was eating more calories. I told DH that I thought maybe my weight loss has slowed so much because I'm not eating enough. I also haven't been as strict with food as I should have been so I've cleaned that up too. I guess that has been a step in the right direction because I lost 4.2 pounds this week!! That's the most I've lost in a week in a very long time and I couldn't be prouder. I'm really liking working out 5 days straight then being off two. That is my goal for next week too. As long as my body will let me do it and not crap out that's what I plan on sticking to.

Today we continue the rearrange of our room and will be taking apart the washing machine to find the correct part we need to fix it. The closet is ready we just have to move the furniture around so that will be some extra exercise I guess :D. Tonight we're making a big pot of chili so I'm pretty excited about that too. Been awhile. I also tried my hand at making spaghetti squash hash browns with breakfast this morning. They turned out pretty good but I think next time I may make them in the oven to see if that fairs better.

Hope everyone is doing well...thinking of you all!

Scotsgal - enjoy your holiday hope you have fun

Calda - well done on your hard work - re the friends issue - have you tried the really old fashioned go knock on doors introduce yourself, I know its weird in this day and age with everything done online but you might find someone with similar problems.... alternatively look up your street/area on the internet see if there is a facebook/neighbourhood support/neighbourly type group and put anyone interested in things like I am want someone to go walk with and have coffee....
hope it works out..

Sam - that was awesome work for this week - Spaghetti squash has browns - no idea how to cook them - we had one once think it was a disaster ...

need to get really back to my WW plan and tracking not being able to use the tracker on holiday has set me back - had a small gain whilst away - can officially say that today was a loss of 1.7kg or nearly 4 pounds taking me to 0.4 kg or 1 pound less then before we went away

new work hours now - one more day but am working with older children which was really nice.

trying to get back on track to get a downward trend going again

Karen Glad you were able to get your holiday weight off. DH and I will be going to our family's lake house next weekend so I'm hoping to be okay with my eating as well. We're going to be doing a lot of yard work and some interior construction so I'm hoping that will help.

Didn't post last night because it was late getting home from the gym and had to go to my gma's. She's helping me by paying my copay to go have my ultrasound done on my breast on Thursday. I'm not too worried about it but my doctor wants me to get it checked out just in case.

Had a great workout yesterday. Did abs. Tonight is shoulders. Really liking that arc trainer machine for my cardio. Gets me going for sure!!! Eating has been 100% and I'm feeling great. Hoping to stay on a losing streak for a while.

Hope everyone else is doing good. It's been pretty silent here for awhile. Hope everyone is okay!

Hi, and a bit about where I'm at
 

Hi. I'm back after 5 years.
I logged into my account just now to see that when I first joined in 2010, I was 260 pounds. I felt huge then.
I'm now 330 pounds, and I'm at the end of my rope.
The only thing that keeps me going everyday is my husband and our children.
I watched my Dad leave this world in 2014, from a battle with brain cancer. It was the most traumatizing thing I've ever been through, and I'm still not over it. I never will be.
Then my Grandmother passed not even a year later, just adding to the grief.
I'm 36, and I feel hopeless that I'll ever enjoy a decent quality of life as a thinner, healthier, happier person.
I've been there many times. I've lost about 50 - 80 lbs 6 - 8 times in my life.
I'm just......tired. Tired of everything.
I needed to post this somewhere, where I know I won't be judged for it.
I have so much going for me in my life.
But this one thing, this prison I call a body, is tired. Old before it's time.
And my heart and soul aren't strong enough to care anymore either.
Not sure what I can do but just exist day to day for my kids sake.
But I'm not really living.

I'm sorry if this is depressing.
Thanks for reading.

PS - Also wanted to add that I have PCOS and my cycles are very off. Haven't had a proper cycle since Feb. I've been to the doc, they say there's nothing wrong. Not getting a period for months at a time is not normal! My thyroid levels are okay (according to a blood test) and everything else in the pelvic ultrasound I had seems to be "normal". It's SO frustrating to be told I'm "fine" when I'm clearly not.