Welcome back beautifully! I am about an hr, to an hr and a half from you and I know how you feel. Before this attempt I had lost 20 lbs without really trying, gained 10 back and spent most if not all of last year trying to keep that same 10 off, I was only trying half assedly, I cared, but I didn't I wasn't unhappy being big, but I wasn't happy either. Finally something clicked in jan and I said enough is enough, I spent all of jan planning out what I wanted to do and in feb started. Had be very successful since! When you are ready you will. Don't force it. Maybe right now you start exercising with the thought of not gaining in mind. I have also been the "fat chick" my whole life, I cant really see myself as anything else, but I want to be, I have pcos, I might never be able to have kids but I don't want to be overweight like I am, I want to be able to share clothes with my sisters in cali, with my friends. On easter one of my sisters came to see us and got chocolate on her dress, we couldnt wash her dress to get the stain out cause none of us had clothes she could wear...or even remotely close to her size. I want to be able to be the one who can say "here wear this so we can wash that" but thats just me and why I am on this journey...these are things that made me ready. You will have your own motivations and reasons, and when you are ready you will know it. For now maybe just hang out on these forums and dont forget about your weight loss goals.
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