Hi girls, I have to laugh when I look at my avatar and it says "senior member".

That means I've been here off and on for a LONG time! You'd think my weight loss would be more than 7 pounds by now!!! But hey, at least I'm not at my HIGHEST weight (though pretty close to it)!
Last time I was on here was in January. I was SO fed up with once again being at my highest weight ever, and was so in need of support. I just searched and read through a couple of my old threads, and I have to say, you ladies here really ARE the greatest!
I just thought I would come on here and tell you all what has been going on with me, because it really has been AMAZING, and I feel like I might actually have the tools now that I need to stick with this battle for my health. I definitely don't mean for it to be a public service announcement, because this is just my story. But I think 'knowing then what I know now' may have helped me. So I shall share!
I was feeling VERY exhausted all the time, I mean, I would fall asleep within a half hour of watching TV, even if it was a great show. I even dozed off at work from time to time if I was sitting at the computer. I could sleep 10 hours, then take a nap 2 hours later, and another one in the afternoon if my schedule allowed. VERY TIRED!!!! This definitely made it almost impossible to keep the house clean, keep up with my daughter's activities, go to the grocery store (let alone buying good fresh things and coming home to prep them), go to the gym, or even for a walk. I kept thinking, well, it's because you're so fat, of course you're tired.
I went to the Dr. in early March, and we decided I might need a sleep study. My blood pressure was creeping up in addition to how tired I was. I also told her that my husband tells me I stop breathing sometimes when I sleep. I went for the study at the end of April, and I was horrified and astounded at the results. They say that severe obstructive sleep apnea is having 30 or more respiratory "events" per hour (either stop breathing or partially), and I was having 116! Almost 2x a minute I was stopping breathing, basically suffocating, and my oxygen saturation in my blood was dropping dangerously low a lot of the time.
I got my CPAP, and I cannot TELL you the difference I feel. For the first 2 weeks of having solid, restorative sleep, I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off cleaning out closets and stuff, and really just actually surprised by how messy my house was and how FAT I am. It was like coming out of a fog. Of course I knew this was all happening, but I was frankly a little too tired to care, let alone do much about it. Now that it's been a month, I feel like a normal person. I'm still fat, and my house still needs work, but for the first time in a LONG time, I actually feel like I might be able to tackle some of it, little by little! I haven't lost much weight since getting my CPAP -- but I'm getting on track with my eating and moving around more, and for the first time ever, I finally feel like it might be DOABLE, if I commit myself to it and work hard.
I asked my sleep doc if my weight is causing my sleep apnea, and if I lose a lot will I be able to stop using CPAP. She said it is impossible to know if I have sleep apnea BECAUSE I'm so overweight, or if I'm so overweight BECAUSE I have sleep apnea. Apparently, the lack of good sleep can make hunger hormones out of whack, making you more prone to binge-eating, and of course the lack of energy to really get out and get moving. Soo, she will do another study if/when I lose significant weight, and then I guess we'll see which came first. But in the meantime, it doesn't really matter to me which came first -- only that in being treated, I may actually be able to get back to some semblance of health!
Sorry this is so long, and thanks for reading if you made it to the end! This has been such a life-changing thing for me that I just wanted to share with a really supportive group of people!!