[emilymay]

Loved her posts and wonder if anyone has her contact details and could give her mine? I've tried thro here, but her message inbox full....

Thanks

[kayleystar]

I was wondering that myself a few weeks ago. Unfortunately, I have no contact information for her.

[nooch]

I'm friends with her on livejournal, would you like me to pass this along?

[emilymay]

Yeah that would be great just would love to know how she is getting along in general. Thank you

[Heather]

tell her I'm wondering about her too, and she's welcome here-- no matter what her weight or situation!!

[emilymay]

And u know who else I miss from the old days? Xena?? Anyone in touch with her? If so say helloooooo. xx

[gggirls]

I miss them both too!

[dgramie]

me 2!!

[nooch]

I have forwarded this thread to her & she should drop by soon

[azcyn]

I was thinking of her yesterday..weird..tell her hello from me as well! Also where is Berniece??

[kayleystar]

So many people that were here when I first joined that I miss!

[NotTheCheat]

Wow, I am touched that people missed me.

Part of the reason that I haven't been around is that I managed to fall off my wagon to a good bit. I haven't gained back everything, but I gained back a good amount. It was weird - for a long time I just stopped caring. I am not sure what caused this, but it was weird that something that was so important to me became so unimportant. I think part of it was burn out. I think part of it was stuff to do with my relationship I was in. I let myself fall off.

I did end up ending my last relationship back in August. I know that I went into that relationship in a good place in myself and left it in a bad one. I am not blaming him, because I know that it is all down to me, but it is very telling to me. In a lot of ways it feels so much harder wanting to get back to where I was than getting there the first time around. Somehow failure with my weight after success seems even harsher than my original failures.

After some trial with doing some low-carb stuff I have definitely found that me and high-glycemic carbs just can't ever be friends. As much as I like them they do bad things to me time after time. If I can keep myself on nice lean proteins, veggies and a little bit of fruit I am fine. As soon as I start adding in anything else I get myself into trouble. I periodically go back to the gym in spurts, but I can't seem to get back to where I was with the consistency. I think one of my problems is that I keep looking backwards to where I was and trying to recapture that instead of looking forwards to where I need to be now. I am different than I was and while some of my tools may still work, I need to find the right way forward for me now.

I do know that one of the biggest things that kept me on track was this site and all of you. I keep thinking that I will get back into the swing of things and come back here, but maybe I have had it the wrong way around. I need to start coming back here and getting in the groove with everyone and that will help get me back into my own groove.

to everyone, especially Emily May and also Carol, who tried to keep in touch with me when I was first falling off and I was a bit of a jerk and didn't respond. Sorry about that.

[CatherineM]

Nancy-We have all been there. Some repeatedly. Don't beat yourself up too bad, because that doesn't help.

[gggirls]

Nancy - thanks for stopping in. When your body and mind are at the same place it will come together for you. You always provided me so much support in your posts - like you were only speaking to me. The magnet is still on my fridge reminding me daily "Don't let your mind bully your body into believing it must carry the burden of its worries."

Hugs to you - keep in touch,
Carol

[TheWalrus]

"I think one of my problems is that I keep looking backwards to where I was and trying to recapture that instead of looking forwards to where I need to be now. I am different than I was and while some of my tools may still work, I need to find the right way forward for me now."

This sums up where I was for a long, long time -- I was super athletic through a couple years after college, when my sports-related injuries started catching up to me. Then I had what my endocrinologist called a metabolic shift, and boom, 100 pounds in a year. It became harder and harder to reconcile what I could do with what I used to be able to do, and after a struggle, I just gave up and stopped.

It took a long time to get back into the proper headspace, and I'm still not perfect about it, but what really helped was finding something that I enjoyed doing that I hadn't done before (which in my case was, oddly enough, a recumbent exercise bike), and thus had no past successes against which to compete. Maybe there's something like that out there for you?