300+ Weekly Thread #1234
 

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Heyyy hello to you all...I maintained this week, which is ok with me I am happy if I either maintain or lose as that’s me headed in the right direction...

Had a sweet NSV today tho! I found a bag with uk size 24 (think that is US 22 u will know better than me!) that I have had for years, there were 2 really nice tops I wanted to get in and a pair of jeans I've not worn for 5 years..anyway at my biggest I was a UK s28 and recently went into a s26, however I got in the tops and the jeans and honestly I was stunned!!!

It feels sooo good and I really can see the ‘light’ weight wise and feel that losing this 35 pounds, altho still obviously a long way to go, I just feel so much better about myself nowadays. Living is easier and doing my job as a nurse so much easier. So it feels so so so good.
Any of you struggling, I would say keep going, because for me getting 35 pounds off has made such a huge huge difference to me, you don't need to lose a hundred to feel better, really u don't.

Annie – Hope you are doing ok, how did the rehab go? Have u found out any more news?

ACyn - So glad yr surgery went ok and u seem to have bounced back really well. Sorry about family stress...can’t live with em, can’t live without em methinks! X

HBieber2006 – well done on your weight loss and agree u can see it on the pics, keep going and keep taking the pics as it comes off

Kayleystar – well done on yr internships, I hope they are really interesting for you...you are really working hard and I’m sure it will all pay off in the future well done also on yr weight loss, reaching that 30 pound off goal, and roping yr ma in as well can only help Well done for all your hard work and efforts in yr life, you are an inspirational young woman

Hotwings – for flappy boobs and tummy I would just say the tightest underwear u can manage and still breathe will lead to less flapping about which can be distracting to say the least lol!! I really really hate that sound and i always tend to wear support type underwear to keep my saggy tum in check! X

Nancy – great to see u back really pleased I did miss u. The cats sound lovely, sorry yr relationship didn’t work out for u permanently , but who knows what life will bring u!! Sorry u have gained some weight, it is such a bind when that happens, but think we have all been there, and how u deal with the setbacks is the key to long term weight management, so good to see u back on board.

Jacquie – well done on the scales dipping and showing a lower weight, yr b/control pills really mess u about don’t they? I was the same, but had a total hysterectomy at 32, so no more of that for me thank goodness...but it is a pain. Keep on doing what yr doing, as its working

Catherine – exciting news about the transport/car situation, brilliant well done! Must feel good to have wheels again!!

Sharon – Hiya! Well done on the pound off!! Glad the hrt is making u feel better too and hubby spoiling u in the card shop, how nice xx My first week at work was great, I think I am going to love district nursing! Its great, loads to learn too x

Hippiemama – well done on yr weight loss and exercise, sounds like u are doing really well, and the healthy cooking sounds yum!

Pinkflamingo – I feel for you with yr various anxiety issues, it really is not nice feeling like that. You are the best person to fight your way out of this if you can find the belief in yourself and start tackling issues one by one and making a small amount of progress every day in different areas of your life, you will be amazed at how your life can change to something you could never have imagined. The key is small achievable steps. Believe in yourself and get yr mind as straight as u can and move forward. Positive Mental Attitude can be cultivated from within. Good luck x

Well that’s me for now, we are on hols this week, so visiting grandparents tomorrow for the day and midweek we are off to Alton Towers, a big theme park with Halloween themed rides etc, we are staying overnight in the hotel, which has been very expensive – but should be FUN!!

Be good, believe in yourselves xxxx

Hi everyone!!:D
Emilymay, WOOHOO on the clothes :carrot::carrot:though it is SO weird, I'm here at 278lbs & wearing 18/20 clothes, maybe my fat is 'compacted'??;) lol xxxxxxxx
Kayley well done on the exercise:carrot:, you put me to shame.:o This shred is it VERY hard? Who 'does' it (presents it) & is it easy to follow & do you need equipment? I might try to get it & gir it a go.xxxxxxxx
Well we are off to visit my parents on Thursday-Sunday, it's half-term here, so I won't be around then. I struggle SO much at the weekend but in the week I'm so good/OP...any advice?:?:
xxxxxxsharon

Good morning everyone! as usual binged on the weekend.... sigh.... oh well

-packing is way behind! DH hurt his back and now I have no idea how we are going to get it done - oh well, grateful to have a place to live so I guess, what gets done, gets done!

weigh in is this evening (its a wacky time I know, but I started in the evening and I try to stay consistent because of the fluctuations in the course of a day) since I started bingeing so much my loss has really slowed and I would like to get that under control...

ok, have a good day all!

emilymay - Your vacay sounds fun!!!


I am ust feeling a mess. The apartment is a huge disgusting pig sty. I am talking dog poop ground into the floor because Zoey had diarrhea and I didn't get out of bed in time to clean it before it dried. My work is dangerously late. At this point, I am not sure my profs will even accept my late note from the doctor. Not really sure what to do. I have a midterm on Wednesday I am sure I am going to flunk. 3 termpapers I promised to hand in by today and haven't even started yet.

I cna't cncentrate to do my homework and I need to snap out of it FAST. Doctor's appointment today, and I can't miss that because I only have enough meds until today.

Weight loss isn't happening fast enough. I hate how I look NOW. I look frumpy and old and pathetic. This is NOT how you are supposed to feel in your 20's.

If I could just get some homework done, it would help. If I could just get this philosophy assignment done today and do a decent job. If I could just...

Good morning ladies.....so excited i lost 5.1 lbs this week which means that i lost the 5 lbs i gained last week plus a smidge more so i am really excited and really happy..im doing the happy dance :carrot::carrot: not much else going on gonna look for more work today but im sooo excited plus i did my circuit training this morning for 35 mins so its a great monring!

talk to you ladies later
Heather

Hello ladies! Hope you all had a wonderful weekend! I peeked on the scale and was quite happy with what I saw. It showed me down another 2 lbs since Saturday, so let's hope it sticks, and maybe add some more to it! ;)

Just got in some Cardio Dance, whilst waiting for my Mom to get home from running some errands, and we're going to do Day 22 of the Shred! Only 8 more days to go after today! :) I'll still do the workout, but probably rotating it to 3-5 times a week,instead of 7 days a week. It gets exhausting! lol

Annie - If you're out there reading, hun, I'm thinking of you still. *big hugs*

Heather hb - Yep, can definitely see a difference. :) Side note, I have that exact same shirt. Hehe. I just tried it on the day before last, and it fits for the first time! :D I need to lose about 20 more pounds before I'll wear it out, though, because I didn't feel comfortable in it, if that makes sense? Heh. Glad to hear you lost what you gained last week. :) Good job! I can't wait to take my progress pictures! :) I'm doing them every 50 lbs I lose, so only 17 more to go! :D

Emily - That's such a great NSV, congratulations! It's so great when everything just 'clicks', isn't it?! I wish you much continued success, because you are doing just wonderfully! And you are too kind. Thank you for the kind words. :)

HotWings - Have you had a chance to try the Shred again yet?

Sharon - It can be pretty tough when you first start out. Heck, it still kicks my butt, and I've been doing it for close to a month, every day. It's tough, but you just feel so GREAT afterwards. I feel like I spent an hour in the gym, after only 30 mins. :) I'm only on Level 1 (there's 3 levels of the workout); I won't be moving on to level 2 for at least another few weeks. The only equipment you need is a set of light hand weights. (2-5 lbs), and maybe a Yoga mat if you do it on a hard floor, although I do my workouts on a wooden floor, and never use my Yoga Mat. It's taught by Jillian Micheals (one of the trainers from 'The Biggest Loser'.

Wish I had some magical advice about weekends. Heh. Those used to be my biggest struggle times. Especially when I was on South Beach before. I just try to keep a positive mental state, and tell myself that eating crap food will only make me feel worse, and spiral me into depression.

lostbutstilltrying - Do you know what the cause of your binge-ing is? Is it out of boredom?

Pink - I definitely feel you there. I'm only 23, and these are supposed to be the 'best years of our lives'. Ugh. :( I hope you have a better day today.

Hi all, just checking in because I am struggling.... kayleystar you had a good question, one that I have been thinking about, why am I bingeing? -what's triggers a binge seems to be feeling restricted, I do ok, when I eat things that are good and are really the only choices, but when I run into feeling restricted or limited, its like I resent it or become angry and I punish myself by eating until I hurt........ sometimes I think I'm also afraid of succeeding, because then what will I blame the problems in my life on.... its a lot to think about, and I need to spend some time on it and on me

A quick post...

I'm so lacking energy lately. Today I yawned all the way through my workout and my energy left me so I could only do 30 minutes. I'm thinking it is a sleeping plus not eating enough fresh foods so i'm going to see what I can do. I don't think I'm getting enough sleep. I'm going to make myself go to bed early tonight and just stay in bed. I'm just always tired it seems.

Tomorrow I'm going to do my other cardio workout, which I do pretty well and I do put my all into and I don't struggle as much as I do with the Tae Bo. I can't figure out some of the moves they do, so I have to do them a bit slower, but there is a lot of kicking and lol...I can't do jumping jacks as it would be too loud for the downstairs neighbors, so I modify them and do a quick squat, tap jack...I think it is just as effective lol and a lot quieter. :D Even though I only did 30 minutes I did have a big sweat going and I was breathless, so I did give it some of my all, but lol...i'm tired!

Bah...just feeling so tired. I think I just need sleeeeep lol. *HUGS* I hope everyone is well.

P.S. I did almost punch my eye out while doing my kickboxy thing....now that is a bit funny to me. :D lol... *note to self punch away from your face, not at it*

Sorry i have been so MIA lately.. most of you prob dont even remember me as i went MIA soon after joining. anyhow, i have been taking care of mom(she is on hospice)24/7 which up till the last few weeks was relatively easy.. but now her cognitive abilities are nil... i give her her meds, and 5 mins later she wakes me up cause she forgets i gave em to her.. this goes on all night and all day.. hospice brought some Trazedone for her but because her body is shutting down the meds dont always get absorbed correctly by her bod, so some nights it puts her to sleep, and others it wires her for sound. my eating has been so bad.. once a day usually and then its something bad that will deliver.. i have no energy to breathe hardly much less cook or exercise... i have gone down another 2 lbs according to the scale, but im not gonna change my ticker.. prob just read it wrong im so sleep deprived lol.. i do get on here daily and read all your posts .. just havnt had the time to post myself... hope youre all doing well.. :hug:

Been to the pool today. It was really a good workout.

I finally have something cheerful to post, made my both my first 2 mini-goals!

mini-goal 1, reach 299 to be under 300 :carrot:

mini-goal 2 to weigh less than DH (he gained this week) so for only the 2nd time in our 11+ year marriage, I weigh less than him, yeah me! :carrot:

Lost - wow those are both huge goals - and in one week! Congrats to you!

EmilyMay ~ Keep up the good work! It's true... every few lbs lost makes a difference in the way you feel. I love it!

PinkFlamingo ~ Hang in there! You CAN do it. *hugs*

Heather ~ Congrats on the mini-goals! That is exciting.... I have never weighed less than someone I've dated. That is quite a prospect to look forward to!


Hello ladies!

I feel like I've been negligent to the board. lol. I've been quite the busy bee though. Went to volunteer at a local "haunted trail" with some friends. We spent two nights scaring the crap out of little kids on hayrides! Fun times! AND good exercise running after wagons and shrieking. hehehehe.

Weigh-in today was AWESOME. I lost 7 more lbs and was totally surprised and thrilled! :carrot: GO ZUMBA! All I did as far as workouts last week was Zumba Mon & Thursday, hiking/walking in the woods a bit Fri & Sat night, and a pretty intense hour and a half hike last night. My partner and I are up towards the top of the list as far as results for the contest and we are SO excited! Think we might actually win it!
What I love about this is that for every bit of progress made my energy and motivation is renewed. Every Monday when I see more weight gone I know that I am actually DOING this for the first time in my life and it is just.... amazing. An amazing feeling.

Hope everyone is off to a fabulous start this week! <3

Happy Tuesday!
 

Twilightwing- I am so sorry for this difficult time and your mother's illness, don't worry about posting sporadically or about a couple of pounds, our weight should never be the most important in our lives even at better times, take care of yourself as well as your dear mother

Jacquie – between you and kaleystar, somedays I get tired just reading about how much you ladies worked out ! :) Great Job!

HeatherHB – congratulations! Enjoy circuit training!

PinkFlamingo- this too shall pass, and clean apts are never something we will care about we are lives are concluding- don't even stress about it! I too struggle with anxiety and depression, you just have to focus on your immediate goals and be proud of every little thing you accomplish, even if its just getting out of bed or showering!

CatherineM – I love working out in the pool!

Voodoo – congrats on smaller size – that always feels good

GG – thanks!

Hippiemama – wow, pretty soon you are gonna be wearing me out as much as Jacquie and kaleystar, glad you had fun at zumba

Good week everyone! you can do it!!!

Emilymay- good job it does feel great. I have jeans waiting for me but my stomach is still a bit big yet. Take a deep breath and let God have it things will work out.

Voodoo1- good job on the loss and have fun at your parents.

hbieber- good job on the five pounds, way to go.

Annie- Praying for you as always.

Jac- LOL that is something i would do almost punch my eye out.

Twilight- Prayers are with you.

Lost- Great Job1

Hippie- Good job and ohhhh the haunted trail sounds like so much fun.

As for me it has been raining here like crazy and my internet has been iffy, one day up one day down. I admit I have been taking a break winter is coming and I always go into a deep depression. Dr Said I need to move to a warmer climate, my DBF is in San Diego and i want to be there very much, I am going in march but do not know what is going to happen with us, we have been doing a long distance relationship and need to figure out what is going to happen with us. I am still doing well i lost half a pound so i need one more to reach 20 lbs, i am not upset as the slower it goes the slower it will come back on. Well sorry for the novel and sorry once again for my absence.

Hippie - WOOHOO on the weight loss! :D

Kayleystar - WOOHOO as well on the weight loss! :D

Lostbutstilltrying - :hug: I'm making myself do it, the exercise, but lol I could do more. I'm trying to keep it going, last week I only did 5 days as I was sick one, so that was disappointing. I think I'm learning that balance I so desperately need! As I sometimes I have to do with my workouts, balancing is hard to master. lol

Tracy - Haha yeah...I tend to get a bit cocky when I do the punches...not so much with the kicks, but I do try to get my friggin' feet up there. Sounds like you are not a winter person, maybe you need to be outside! :D I think the winter does tend to make me more happy, but you know this year for the first time in ages I actually started to appreciate the warmer months. :D

Pink - Hang in there! :hug::hug:

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Today I feel SOOOOOOO much better. I made myself sleep in this morning and just got REST. I'm so happy I did. I still have dark circles under my eyes, but I'm obviously a bit run down. I get so depressed when I am not feeling well and being nauseous for 4 days in a row just drains me. I'm starting to level off and getting back to eating fresh foods. I've been too dependent on cooked and I don't ever feel well when I do that. So, I NEED fresh stuff, raw foods. The thing is when I get in these ruts I just simply go toward the wrong way. I really do need that balance...I think that is a major challenge for me.

Today I'm going to attempt Tae Bo again, but without yawning I hope. I can't do all of the moves, I struggle and such, but I do try my best. I also am going to get a new DVD by Amy Dixon, LOVE HER, and it is a kickboxing, aerobic, strength, core workout. :D I love that, so I'm all excited. :D I mean me excited about a workout. lol...

I think I need to start planning on doing mostly cardio and such as the weather gets worse and worse for walking. So, I'm going to focus on that this week so when I do walk I can do a 60 minute brisk one, with a bit of jogging hopefully, and be satisfied.

Going to go prepare some food for breakfast and do some food prep today. Finally getting back at it! :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug: to everyone!

morning ladies..

I went back to work yesterday after having the 2 weeks off. I must say..everyone missed me and was so happy I was back. I did get a little sleepy about half way through the day.

I am still have massive headaches. I dont know if it is still my sleeping or if it is allergies.

TOM arrived last night and I feel yucky. I hate that I feel this way when it comes!

Cyn, how is the lack of the gallbladder? No more attacks? You were soooo miserable before it came out. Give yourself time to recoup, even though it's a simple surgery it's still considered major! Hugs to you.

Luv,
Ratkity

I had an NSV today that i had to come on and tell you guys about...my husband bought me a nice watch for xmas last year it is one of those watches that doesnt stretch and its got links well when i put it on xmas day it was really tight i couldnt even move it and it was pretty uncomfortable so i put it aside and i saw it today and decided to try it on and OMG it fits great and it slides around and it looks nice and not like the blood supply is being cut off from my wrist...im so excited and im gonna wear it all the time now.

Here is a pic of me wearing it...

I know you guess probably wonder what im soo excited about my lately i have been finally notices big changes with my body and it feels sooo good ya know?

I have already been falling off my waving plan! Gah! Well, here is a :wave: with a promise I will be back tomorrow for a full update. :)

Hi girls...

I am just NOT DEALING with anything right now. I even feel too stressed to talk about it. I am oging to pop some anxieyt meds and se eif I feel better.

Just need soem... love??? :hug:

THAT IS SO AWESOME. The other day I was doing something in the kitchen and my wedding ring almost fell off and I got so happy. The though of losing my rings scares to bejeezus out of me but the thought of it being too big is so cool! It always makes me so depressed when I find that I can't have things that "normal" people can have like a pretty bracelet or a watch...but now I'm focusing on getting closer and closer to that goal. One day I will make my husband take me to a fancy jewelry store and buy me a necklace or bracelet that previously wouldn't go around me. It's exciting!

Pinkflamingo HANG IN THERE!!!Do you have a close friend/family member who can come and help you sort all your college/home/everything else out? I find if there's someone there it really helps motivate me to just get on & do 'it' whatever 'it' is. I wish I lived close to you, I'd be there to give you a push and a HUG! Please try & do just one thing, make a list, prioritise then do one thing you will feel better & more able to more done too.xxxxxx
Well I have to do the last packing today but I fel like cr*p, had argument with hubby last night (he drank too much & I felt like ... ahem ..wifely rights, lol!!!) So I had a drink or several & then ate about 10 (!!!!!) crackers with butter!!! Dreading weigh in tomorrow...how stupid am I???
xxxxxsharon

Rat: I believe my gallbladder issues are better. I have some stomach issues..I know are not from my gallbladder since it is not there anymore lol. That is what a girl at work told me..since she had her gallbladder out. She told me she was tired alot for weeks afterwards. I seem to be really tired.

Kayley: whoohoo on the undies fitting

As for me: I got through work ok yesterday. Got home and cried in my hubbys arms. I know some of it is because TOM is here. ALOT of it is because I am obese. I have listened to yall on here and to other people..and I think your body just gets to the point where being obese makes ya yucky. I have no energy...and sleepy alot. I am trying to be positive...because I know things could be alot worse. We go through so much emotions in life..I need to just get a little better grip on it and deal with it. Now look I am rambling lol...

just stopped in for a quick good morning and good week to everyone - I'm going to be gone for a couple days, busy moving and then computer and internet will be done for the transfer - eating will probably be a little crazy, so I'll just pick up from where ever next week!

Have a wonderful weekend all!

Well...feeling under the weather today...a little cough, a little sneeze fest, but I think I don't feel "sick" but I feel a bit "sickly"...hopefully that makes sense.

I don't feel 100%, so I'm taking today as a rest day to get my rest and strength back. I do feel like this month my BC pills have taken their toll, but I also feel like I have a slight fever and just am generally unwell. I'll be fine, but don't like not feeling myself.

Had some sprouted bread toast this morning...waiting for a call for a meeting. EW! lol...

*HUGS* I Hope everyone is well today. :D

:hug:good morning ladies:) i actually slept 3.5 hours in one fell swoop last night.. most sleep i have had at one time in weeks.. they gave mom a cath and some phenabarbitol, and woo hoo.. we both slept some)

my food and exercise has been really crap the last couple weeks.. its amazing how being sleep deprived can really mess with good eating habits... i have ordered pizza prob 5 times in two weeks just cause i have been too tired to cook.. as well as too tired to exercise... im going to try to get back on track today since im feeling better and mom seems calmer. the last two weeks have been really bad.. my sis has COPD and is on disability.. anyhow she got the swine flu and ended up in hosp for two weeks.. part of that in CCU and she almost died... didnt thank God... my grandmother ws put on hospice this week, and then my moms stuff... no wonder i havnt had the physical or emotional energy to eat right or exercise.. well, taht sounds like a 'poor me' thing and im not havin it lol...
today is going to be better... one day at a time is all we can do..even tho i havnt been posting much i read all ya'lls daily just to try to keep up lol.. hope ou all have a wonderful day..

Popping in to say hello and :wave: :wave:

I have been doing really pretty well making better choices in eating. I need to get back to writing everything down and tracking my calories. That was definitely one of the things that a major factor in my previous success. In general I am feeling pretty good about getting back into the groove of things, albeit slowly (which I am fine with). :)

Went to the pool again today. That's the first time we have gone more than once a week in awhile. I used to be such a slog to get there on the bus. I was even able to go to the store on the way home. I feel like the energizer bunny is starting to kick in again. I hope so, because I'm really tired of just maintaining.

What a night....

Staged an intervention with my sister for my alcoholic father tonight. He's gotten to an extremely bad/dangerous place and I've actually been receiving calls from his co-workers over the past two days (who have known him for many years) about how he is now in danger of losing his job. He's already lost a lot of his mind.... it's incredibly sad and scary to witness your Dad deteriorate this way. Esp. when he's only 53. So, tonight it finally came to ahead. Went to him out of love and expressed our feelings and wanted to take him to a rehab facility so that he can get the help he needs (and save his job, house, life, etc.) and he refused. Laughed in our faces even. I don't think he really comprehends everything that's happening. His mental state is sometimes questionable and he has not taken the meds that were prescribed to him over a year ago. The extreme drinking on top of that (we're talking while driving, while at work, etc.) I think he's killing himself. It's bad. I'm at a loss... it's just me and my younger (22 y.o.) sister in the area to help him, and he has refused our help. Has anyone ever dealt with a similar situation with a family member? I spoke to many people on the phone tonight both local and national and heard a lot of good advice but when it comes down to it, he is his own person and we cannot force him into rehab. Until he proves himself to be a danger by actually getting caught breaking the law or god forbid, hurting someone....

Grrrrrrrrrr. What a mess.

I am channeling my stress and anxiety and transforming it into high intensity aggression while I work out. lol. Wish I had a punching bag!

Hippiemama...im soo sorry to hear about what you are going thru and i wish i had some advice for you but unfortunately i dont..my dad is a recovering alcohol and he has been sober since 1980 and my mom left my dad when i was 4 so i didnt really have to deal with it but here is a big hug from me and i hope you will be able to help your dad somehow and figure out a way to get him to go to rehab

a big hug from me to you..:hug:

Im glad to hear that you are getting out your frustration and aggression with exercise which is great cause a situation like that could cause a person to get off track with their diet so keep it up and i hope things get better for you soon and im sorry that i didnt have better advice for you..sorry :( but im hear if you want to talk to me ok?

Twighlight: HUGS sweetie sounds like you are going through alot!

Nancy: I am with you on writing everything down..that is what I need to start doing again

Hippie: I am soo sorry for what is going on with your father. That has to be a hard situation. I know alcoholism is a hard thing from some to get over. HUGS to you

As for me: Last night I came home..we watched a movie..about 10 min before it was over..my youngest son was complaining about his stomach hurting. I asked if he drank milk..he said yes. I had asked him to leave the milk alone because a few days he had cereal for breakfast and had instant diarhea. He ended up vomiting and running a temp of 101. I ofcourse immediatley thought he has the swine flu..and I swear I started having an anxiety attack. Hubby was mad telling me its not swine calm down. I checked on him through the night and he slept well. This morning his fever is gone. I know when I have "food allergy attacks" the same thing happens to me. So I am wondering if he is no allergic to milk ..just milk not milk products cause he eats cheese and ice cream. As a mom..I have got to learn to be a little more calm. But those of you that are moms out there..we just worry about our kiddos no matter what their age is. I am keeping him home from school today...and I will check on him from work. My brother and oldest son are home.

Hey guys, I have decided to drop my Phil of Religion class. I feel like a failure, but it's the best thing right now. I am weighing todday, I am pretty sure I have lost. I have a swimming lesson at 7:45. Wish me luck!

Amanda

Oh I also forgot to mention that I have a personal trainer! His name is Alex! He's a sweetie. We start on Saturday.

xoxo

:wave::wave::wave:

So in general I am not a fan of the "I'll start dieting on Monday or {insert date}", but the fact that November starts on Sunday has me thinking that it is a great time to get back to being serious about things. My job for the next couple of days is to decide exactly what that means for me (within reasonability) and form an action plan, while not using setting a date as an excuse to go crazy and eat a bunch of junk until then.

With Halloween coming up I'm a bit blech....I love Halloween, but it brings back memories from my past and I miss my Mother a lot right now. So, I've been a bit quiet and well not feeling well on top of that....feeling better now, hasn't improved my mood.

I did step on the scale today and my weight is, apparently, jumping between 265 and 268, so I'm bouncing around a lot. I do that when I hit a plateau and I believe I have...I basically lose the same weight, then bounce back up a bit, however, I'm making some adjustments and changes for next week and will stick to them. Learning that balance is key. I can do this, no doubt about that, just a bit frustrated with myself not being able to "do it all perfectly at once" lol. Ya'll know how it is I'm sure. Baby steps as Heather says...

I have a few goals for the weekend

- EAT, do NOT skip meals, do NOT rely on cooked foods
- EXERCISE, you're well now so get back to exercising
- FRESH RAW FOODS, eat fresh raw foods for 90% of your food intake
- COOKED HEALTHY TREATS, at dinner I can have some roasted veggies, something I like that is healthy, but not overdoing it.
- GET RID OF DA CARBS, no more potatoes!...and fries... :o

:D