hello everyone,
well i worked alot of yesterday and you really cant tell I did that much to the bedroom. Of course it would help to be able to work without interuptions. Hubby wanted lunch and then dinner...gosh...lol
I finally gave up and decided to work on it for an hour or so everynight this week.
Older daughter called and wants to know what all she has bought for her future..she is a senior in college and will graduate in dec. She is also thinking about getting married next summer. SO today I have to go thru all her boxes and she what she has in them. I know she has bought alot of kitchen stuff.
It looks so pretty outside here but i went out for a little while and its still cold!! I was wanting to pull weeds out of my flower beds...guess that will have to wait till the weekend.
My allergies are alot better, my dr gave me a nasal spray to use for a few weeks to see if it help with spring allergies.
I am having one of those starving day....i dont have them often but Im sure having one today. I only ate yogurt and fruit for breakfast. I had a half of beef pattie and salad for lunch. I also ate some nuts thinking maybe they would fill me up. Guess i need to get busy and get my mind off of food!!

Lauren _ I think we all have gotten comfortable with our size at some point. It took my sisterinlaw almost dying to wake me up. Plus I didnt like the way i looked at my sons wedding and decided I didnt want to be a fat mom when my daughters marry.

dmpls_ are you on spring break?? I miss hearing from you!!

well hope everyone is having a good day
debi

Argh.. scale hasn't moved in days. I don't know if I should do something or just wait it out a bit longer
:?:

Heather: Welcome back! You have been missed.

Lauren: The wise ladies that have already commented are so right. Better not to think of a "diet" but a lifestyle change. I also come from a family that all battle with obesity and I too have spent my life fighting my weight and dieting, several times losing 100 lbs only to gain it back and more....up and down like a yo-yo....sometimes comfortable with my size and weight, but never happy about it. Now I'm almost 58 years old and I think that it has finally sunk in that I cannot "diet", I've got to change my eating habits and physical activity level and I've got to do it for life. I have regrets for what I missed in my younger years because of my weight, but look forward to those things I will be able to do as I continue with my new eating and behavior habits.

Cyn: Congrats on no Dr Pepper. I have also cut way down on soda, from 2 - 3 a day to 2 on the weekend as a treat. I have one on Saturday and Sunday, but only after I've drank all my water for the day, so it's a real treat to me.

Jar: So nice to see you posting again. We all wander into those ruts that can knock us "off the wagon", but there are plenty of ladies here, myself included, willing to lend you a hand jumping back into the wagon when you are ready. Being a chocoholic myself, I can't imagine working in a place like you do, I doubt I could ever control myself.

Debi: I had one of those starving days yesterday, guess I sent it east to you haha.

Heather_dw: I wouldn't worry about the scale not moving in days. If it doesn't move in several weeks or a month you might consider a change but as long as you are staying OP and getting all your water in, you should eventually be rewarded on the scale. You just have to be patient, which I know is not your strong suit ;).

Hope everyone is having a good OP day and drinking your water.

Carol and Heather, I just thought how fun it would be to have an exceptional gift for myself after reading your posts about scuba diving, the rock climbing and the sports car. So I'm going to have to think about it. Thanks for the great idea!

Jeanne, the Yankee candles are to die for!!! When we were at an outdoor festival, someone down the lane had Yankee candles burning. O my gosh!!! They smell so good and the smell was wafting thru the air. It was just delicious.
Glad to see you back too. You with the job we all want! :rofl: Seriously, get yourself back on track missy or else we'll come over there and kidnap you and keep you hidden til you can get back OP.

Debi, I know what you mean about being the fat mom for one of your children's wedding. I was that woman at my son's wedding almost 2 years ago. I wore the long gown with the jacket over it. It was so frumpy and old and not me. I wish I could do it all over again. Here I thought I looked good until I saw the pics. O well, just one more reason to lose all this weight.

The seeds are just sprouting like crazy. Lettuce, cabbage and radishes just popping up everywhere. It's so weird because those are the ones Jim planted, and all the ones I planted don't show anything yet. I got the Canterbury bells, tomatos and peppers. Maybe they just take longer. I'm suppose to be the one with the green thumb here!! :lol: At least something is growing so that's a good sign.
It's another beautiful day here, just a bit cool though with the breeze. Rain is suppose to be back this weekend though. I'm hoping that maybe tomorrow it will be dry enough to maybe get the grass mowed.
Still OP and getting my water in. No exercise though. I still get a little winded even walking over to my Mom. I feel so much better though so it's a good sign I'm recovering.
Everyone keep movin' and groovin'
Debbie

Hi chickies,

Have a great OP day everyone.

Jar, welcome back.

Today is the first day of my "sick leave." I basically got so overwhelmed and run down from everything with the play that I decided I needed a few days off and since I have a bazillion hours of sick time...I was told to take it as such...as mental health is health too.

I slept in until 11am. Now how I did this without peing the bed is what amazes me. I usually wake up in the morning because I have to pee and I had a big mug of tea before bed last night becuase my stomach was all weird. Wow did that feel good.

My eating has been off since dress rehearsal week...especially towards th end when I was getting so nervous about the show that I woudn't eat much all day. So Monday night I ate some lunch before I left the house and snacked a little at work...but by the time I was heading home i was a lot of points left so I went to Subway. I got a foot-long Mediterranean chicken sub on wheat. This is where I get confused. According to the WW book and the Subway website...6 inches of wheat bread is 3 points but 12 inches is closer to 8. Whatever. So I had a sub with a ton of veggies, no cheese, the 2 chicken breasts pieces some feta and a wee squirts of the "greek dressing". I told myself that I wasn't going to eat all the bread...wrong again. But with all that I still did not go over my points.

DH came home with the new WW ice cream cups...he was so proud of himself...but i haven't wanted to eat them and each night he asks me if I want one. I sort of fel bad becuase I know he was doing a good thing...esp. since he brought me the mint chip...but I have not had an appetite for ice cream...plus I find WW ice cream to be a little gritty.

Last night I still had 20 points left for dinner...and had to stay late AGAIN at work. I had tried to leave early but forgot that I was taking a kid home from the program...so I stayed. Thank goodness for my advisor who works for me...who held down the fort while I went and grabbed some dinner (and got him some as well). There is a yummy authentic Mexican restaurant next door to work and it was easier to walk there than to drive elsewhere and have to think about what I wanted.

Their chips are kind of addictive...but they also serve a much smaller "basket" than other places do...and I did not finish them. I opted for the 2 chicken soft taco dinner...no cheese, sour cream or guac on nice steamed corn tortillas...with an amazing bowl of chicken soup. All in all I don't think it was 20 points so hooray for small miracles.

What will the scale say tonight at WW? I have no idea. But I didn't weigh last week because of dress rehearsal...so this could either be great or it could super suck.

Sigh.

I could so easily crawl back into the bed for a nap right now.

Heather_dw - stay the course - I've just come from 3 weeks of non-movement while stuck at 300. Hang in there. If after several weeks it doesn't move then work on changing it up - you're doing great!

Good evening all,

I just put in my exercise time, but now the connection has timed out. I'll tell you about my (oddly) good news today in the meantime. Hopefully then the connection will be back and I can do some personals.

I talked to the pool guy today and barring any issues, we'll have our pool open on the 15th. And yes, that's the 15th of April. This of course means that the ice will have to finish melting on the top of it. :) We both feel with our current forecast this will be at the end of this week. In the deep end I can push the pole through what's really just slushy ice. We also need a new pool pump, so he's going to do both at the same time. Hooray! I don't know why, but this to me is the true first sign of spring. :swim: We agreed that we would open at roughly the same time, but close it up earlier. This makes sense as by mid-September I'll be in school, so won't have as much free time. So unless the weather is gorgeous, we'll probably close it by the end of September.

Oh well, still can't get a connection to 3FC, so I'll go do a few things before dinner. I'll likely do some personals before I post this.

Lauren - I know how it can be to be comfortable at a higher weight. I was the same way at my top weight. I did a job where I was on my feet all day. I coped quite well. Although now when I look back at it I was beat at the end of the day. It took all my energy to keep going during the day, so that I wasn't doing anything else but working. I'd come home and just want to do nothing. I think you may need to talk to someone, because you will likely regret it later. If nothing else, your body will eventually suffer the toll of being overweight for so long. And if it helps, don't think of it as a diet, think of it as finding a better way to live. Even if you make small changes and only lose a few pounds a month it's still going in the right direction.

Debbie - Ottawa's tulip festival is supposedly May 2 - 19th this year. They're usually a little behind us, with slightly cooler weather. Usually by that time ours are past, or just the late ones left. We got home last year just before the end of May and there wasn't a spring bulb with anything left on them. Only the cutting back to be done. I suspect we're in for a really fast spring this year, but we'll see. Soon we'll all be complaining that it's too hot, or too dry!

Heather - we're sweet children, really. :devil: Hope you get a little less busy soon.

Jeanne - I think anywhere that sold food would be a bad choice for me. A friend of mind was looking for work years ago (in the quality field) and she'd had an interview at a chocolate manufacturer and a make-up manufacturer. We laughed a lot over her choices (nibbling chocolates all day, and putting make-up on bunnies). Neither was accurate of the job, but we just thought it funny.

Heather_dw - I thought you were going to put the scale away and only weigh yourself once a week or so? A scale not moving in a few days is not a big deal. I think I posted the link somewhere else, but have a look at: http://www.naturalphysiques.com/cms/index.php?itemid=87 (why the scale lies). Eat to whatever plan you've chosen, drink your water, and exercise. Don't worry about the scale for a while. I know I had a mini freak-out when it stalled for a couple of weeks, but I've decided that my next mini freak-out will happen after at least 4 weeks of no movement. (at least that's my plan)

Julee - that's kind of what I think about some diet ice cream, they just aren't worth it. My last real desire for ice cream led to high fat, very rich, but small, ice cream bars (200 cals). I decided I'd rather have a smaller portion of really good ice cream instead of (just as expensive) diet products that were still 140 cals with lots of things I couldn't pronounce in them. And I know that sometimes you just want a sub, but if I remember, the salads at Subway aren't that bad (still giving you your protein fix, without that big sub bun). I don't know enough about WW, but I think the difference is the fibre takes the points down on the half bun, but not in the full bun.

Well, I think that's it for me this evening. It's garbage night so I should go and get it out before dark. They're changing our collection starting next week. We're going to a new green cart (composting) weekly, blue box (other recyclables) weekly which is nice, and regular old garbage bags only every two weeks. Hmmm... two weeks of kitty litter is really kind of heavy for one bag. :)

Carol -- I'll be doing the scuba cert. locally. Nowhere special. But my trip this summer is to...Croatia! Staying right on the Adriatic with a dive shop right next door.

Anne -- Wow, that seems really early to open a pool in Ontario!

Debbie -- My whole life is a gift after weight loss.

I had myself convinced that my size wasn't holding me back from living. That was part of my denial. It is true that I did more than most as a large person. And it wasn't until the last couple of years that I really slowed down. I think finally the years of being overweight started to really take their toll. Youth can keep a lot of the looming problems from seeming real. I know in my case it wasn't until I started feeling 100 years old (in my 40s) that I could see and feel my weight killing me.

Through the years I cut myself off from a lot, and it was little by little so I didn't get the full impact until I lost some weight and came to realize how much more my fat affected me than I used to acknowledge. Also, what I did in the name of living life fully took a great deal of effort. I remember a trip to Europe that wore me out to the bones every day, starting with the stress of being strapped and wedged painfully in to a seat I didn't fit into for 10 hours.

Battle -- One of my moments along the way before I turned it around and started losing was having a thought that "I'm only 39 -- and I feel at least 50!"

I wonder if we're like that proverbial frog in the heating pot -- our abilities diminish but slowly enough that we don't really notice...

Heather - it is, quite early. Most people don't open them until our long holiday May weekend (May 24- pronounced two-four as the case of beer). This year that's May 17th-19th. It's actually Victoria Day weekend (third Monday of the month). It's our first summer long weekend. We just like to push it a little. Usually the days are pretty good for swimming, so it's just the nights that are cold (requiring the heater to be working well).

We'll be the first pool he opens, although he mentioned that he does a few towards the end of the month.

Oh, I just saw your reference to Croatia. The freighter we were on last winter had a Croatian Captain and Chief Engineer. They were both very friendly guys. From the pictures I've seen it's a beautiful country. I think you'll have a great time.

Boy do I know how to have a good time - first a root canal this morning that seemed to be never ending - darned curvy canals. Then come home to back up plumbing. To think - I took a day of vacation for all this fun.

Hope you are all having a great evening.

Hugs,
Carol

Ann-- Heated pool! Very cozy! And yes, I think Croatia will be beautiful!

Carol -- I'd hate to see what you'd do with a week off! :lol3:
Hope your tomorrow is better!

Lauren, I know what you mean about your weight just being normal to you. I was in total denial about my weight because it didn't seem fair that something happened over which I had no control that made me gain my weight. So to me, it just wasn't real. Until my husband, who loves me more than I'll ever deserve, said something about it. It was absolutely soul-crushing. But now I can accept that it's not ok for me to be this weight -- not because fat people are bad and I don't want to be one but because it hurts to be fat, in so many ways, and it's started making me avoid situations. I too feel like I'm ancient, and I'm only in my 30s. It took a friend of mine who's almost 10 years older than me saying, look, you are NOT old. You are young. Start living like it! To make me change my dastardly ways. So I've started doing the things I love again, weight be damned, and eventually, the weight will be gone and I will still be doing the things I love (traveling, walking, laughing, being excited and up for anything) but happier :)

Good luck, and if you need a buddy, I'm here!