Being Fat
Being fat is knowing.
Knowing that you won't find cute clothes in your size.
Knowing that when you shop other people are judging what's in your buggy.
Knowing that you won't live as long as you should.
Knowing that it's still ok for people to make fun of fat people.
Knowing that you're going to miss out on a lot of fun because you can't keep up.
Knowing that you won't be taken seriously because you're fat, not smart.
Knowing that you have a problem.
Being fat is being afraid.
Afraid that you won't fit in between parked cars of small space.
Afraid that you won't fit in the chair.
Afraid that even if you do fit,the chair won't hold you.
Afraid to look good because "what's the point?"
Afraid to go to the doctor because you know that everything is caused by your weight.
Afraid that every twinge is the onset of something serious like heart disease or diabetes.
Afraid that your kids will lose you too soon.
Afraid to admit that you have a problem.
Being fat is hiding.
Hiding behind loose clothes and drab colors.
Hiding the truth about what you eat.
Hiding the truth about how you feel.
Hiding your worries and fears.
Hiding from people, including friends and relatives because it's easier than going out and facing them.
Hiding from your problem.
Being fat is hearing.
Hearing about how you should try this diet or that pill.
Hearing that you have a pretty face.
Hearing from well meaning friends that you're "not fat", even when you weigh 280lbs.
Hearing comments from people who don't know you can hear them.
Hearing comments from kids who don't know they shouldn't say that.
Hearing comments from people who just don't about your feeling.
Hearing about how so and so lost 200lbs over night.
Hearing about how fat your friends feel when they have 10lbs left to lose.
Hearing that you have/are a problem.
Being fat is hoping.
Hoping that people will notice the person behind the fat.
Hoping that each new diet or pill will help.
Hoping that you have the energy to get through the day.
Hoping that the place is airconditioned so you won't sweat too much.
Hoping that you will get through the day without being embarrassed.
Hoping that you can find the strength to make a change.
Hoping you won't die.
Hoping you can solve your problem.
Being fat is longing.
Longing for the person you used to be.
Longing to join the crowd and opening run, dance and live.
Longing for stylish clothes.
Longing for seatbelts that fit.
Longing to eat the stuff you shouldn't.
Longing for the strength to not eat that stuff again.
Longing to be free of your problem.
Being fat is wishing.
Wishing you were someone else.
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