i didn't see a place for journals. i love journals but hate writing. typing is much faster. i don't even know if they want us keeping them. i supose i'll find out if i get deleted.
today was not a good food day. i saw the gingerbread house, ran head-long into it and ate all i pleased! i did not stick to my veggie plan but ate a bowl of chili and had a $.99 bag of potato chips and fritos!
i just want to cry. it's 9:13pm and i should have stoped eatting 2 hours ago. i'm just a misserable pig and i feel like i'll never stop eating to loose this weight.
OOOOHHHH! how i hate to see people i know who only have 10 or so lbs to loose after they've lost it!
i mean, i'm very happy for them. they are so happy and comfortable in their new skin but it only makes the failure i am stand out even more! I NEED BRAIN ALTERATIONS!
ok.... as i've said almost everyday for the past 10 years...tomorrows another day. i'll try again. i won't give up. i'll exercise at 9:30 and try to keep it up for 30 mins. it's very hard when your caring around over 100lbs too much weight already.
Avoiding the Gingerbread House
