We all have that one thing that we just think, "As soon as I hit my goal I am going to do that!"
Well, I find that it helps to keep long term goals in mind. When I hit my goal I want to go SCUBA diving so badly! Right now I would be too mortified to get in a swimsuit and all that gear and I am nowhere near being in good enough shape to do it. I just keep that in mind when I hit a big craving, what keeps you going?
Fat people have the same absolute right to wear swimsuits that skinny people, or average people, do.
There is nothing I am waiting to do "someday when I am thin." I do not put my life on hold for fear of what other people may think about me wearing a bathing suit, or dancing, or riding a bike, or running, or anything.
I want to have sexy photos taken by a professional... They were going to be a gift to my husband, but..... I'm thinking now I'll just hold onto them myself.. Just to show me how far I've come... Once I hit 130, I'm off to an R rated photo shoot! Dumb I know, but I've always HATED pictures of myself and the way I look in them. I'd like to have some pictures that are well taken & that I can actually not look @ and be mortified by the person in them.
I have a whole list of things but one thing comes to mind: sleeping on my stomach (lying face down). Haven't done that in years. Might not even like it anymore, but I'd like the option of choosing.
Ooohh, I almost forgot. A few years ago I bought some leather chaps to use when I go horseback riding. I am really looking forward to fitting back into those.
I want to be able to hug my knees while I watch tv, etc. Dunno why that's a big deal. Probably because I can't do it easily now. It will mean I lost alot. LOL.
Also, I want to wear cute shoes but since I'm flat footed my feet hurt when I'm heavy so I'm always in tennis shoes with good support. I will wear cute ones for a few hours but can't all day and can't when I go places.
Both of these things I CAN'T do while I'm heavy. It's not a matter of, I'll just do it anyway, even when I'm fat! Most things, I believe that way too, but these two things are a matter of removing fat from my body so that I can actually physically do them!! LOL!!!!
I'm sure there are other things.. would have to think on it.
For me, it was crossing my legs...I love having them crossed whenever I'm sitting, now.
Ahh, yes, that feels so good. Haha. I'm actually doing it right now. Now that you mention it, I do do that a LOT.
I have a long list of things that I was looking forward to.
But I guess if I had to pick just one it would be that I couldn't wait to look and feel "normal" - regular sized - average - ordinary. Not be a stand out. I love being just another lady walking around.
Ooh, one more thing. I was really looking forward to "fitting into places". In particular - chairs, had a huge fear of them. I was always afraid that I wouldn't fit into them and that I would break them. One of my biggest joys now is that I can safely fit anywhere. Squeeze through any space. And if I can't, it's not because I'm oversized.
You have all named things that I am looking forward to. I have a long list to remind me of why I am doing this. Not repeating those above, some that come to mind:
Sitting tailor style
wearing shoes with a little heel
not worrying about crowding the person sitting next to me
being able to wear short sleeves comfortably
not struggling with panty hose
being able to walk for extended periods of time
being able to find petite clothes - women's petites are so hard to find
not having to stop and rest while doing housework
I know there are more but my mind is blanking out.....
Last edited by time2lose; 05-21-2009 at 04:03 PM.
Reason: thought of more
Oh my. How could I have forgotten this one? I couldn't WAIT to wear high heels. Wearing them when I was 287 lbs was simply out of the question. I was basically walking around in what looked like Men's shoes. Such a source of embarrassment for me. But not anymore.
But I guess if I had to pick just one it would be that I couldn't wait to look and feel "normal" - regular sized - average - ordinary. Not be a stand out. I love being just another lady walking around.
See, I love this feeling! It's still very new to me, and I forget sometimes and think that people are still looking at me because I am fat. I can't get over how good I feel just by blending in. Who knew this Drama Queen would ever like the spotlight being off her?
Trying on nice clothes and actually buy nice clothes... not put them back on the rack because my fat rolls stuck out or my arms looked too fat and flabby.
I look forward to feeling confident and more comfortable with myself to get back out there and start dating again.