Thank you guys. I need all the help I can get right now.
Ann, it totally is depression. I've struggled with depression for over half my lifetime, and my current med is NOT working well at all.
Jen, motivation is as welcome as smacks!
Michelle...*smacks you back* There ya go! Let's work on this control thing together, shall we?
RemeberHowToSmile, I like the idea of planning. I never really got into Fitday since it took me so long to find and input the stuff I was eating. Just was kind of a pain in the rear to me, so I quit trying. But I can try to plan better, I know I can. It's funny, some of this is probably because my housemate is not here and she and I didn't go grocery shopping over the weekend. She loves to cook, and she cooks healthy things for us both when she's here. But since we didn't go grocerying on Saturday like usual, we have hardly any food in the house, and I'm floundering without her to nudge me towards the healthy options that we DO have. She also helps me with planning and stuff, at least a little bit. Maybe it's the accountability.
Thank you, Louise. I think everyone has the tendency to forget our accomplishments when we mess up. I know I do! So here's to the 12 lbs I've lost, and to the strength and determination that did that for me. I know it's there; just gotta find it again.
Hmm. Now. What am I gonna have for dinner?
No. First, my nails are dry, so I'm going to force myself to work out. Hells, since my housemate's gone, I'm even going to take up the whole living room for my workout! (I do WATP). After that, I will...hells. What do we have in the house??? Not a lot. I guess I could do a cheese and onion quesadilla, that's easy enough. Normally I'd do chicken and mushrooms with that, but I don't have either of those in the house and don't have the money to go grocery shopping until next week. I have edamame in the freezer. Maybe a cheese-onion quesadilla and some salted edamame? That doesn't take all that long to make really.
Wish me luck; I'm so worried I'm gonna get back off the computer and go sit down with the bag of Lindt truffles...
Would someone please smack me?
And my eating? I've been losing weight still cause I'm registering a calorie deficit, but not a healthy one. I just haven't been bothering to eat until I'm almost sick with hunger, and then finding small things to stave it off until I go to bed. Nothing sounds good even. 
A hug instead of a smack , because you've done so well to take 12 lbs off. I have those 'off' weeks that I lose but not through workout or healthy eating. But eventually everything falls back on track...you will be stronger for it.
