I still get it! I have to go to my Pilates class at school for the first time today (as some of you know) and I am totally afraid that I am going to be the fattest and most out of shape girl in class. I totally wanna go drop it even though I have been looking forward to it since November when I signed up. I am not going to drop it though, I told myself that I had to at least go to the first class. I hate feeling like this!
I totally felt like that when I went to my first aquafit class on Saturday.... Then I felt better when there were a couple other girls who were at least as out of shape as I am... And then I felt terrible for noticing that! As I watched the other girls, I sent them positive vibes... Good for them for making the decision to take control of their bodies!! And same to you, even if your class is full of skinny girls, GOOD FOR YOU for being there along with them!!
Oh yes!! Girl, I feel that way in EVERYTHING I do...I feel like I'll be the fattest one in the meeting, the fattest one at the track, the fattest one in the bar/club, the fattest one at the family reunion...it doesn't matter what the occasion is, I ALWAYS worry that I will be the fattest one there...you are not alone!!
OMG - always! it one of the reasons why i workout at home as i am a little too worried of working out in public just yet and getting those stares.
There is an advert on here at the moment for WW and the first caption shows a woman walking through a room at a party with the caption "there's always one woman who feels the fattest in the room" and then the next one is something like "one woman who hates looking in the mirror" - great advert as i thought it really brought the whole weight loss thing down to earth. its like one of those unspoken things that everyone must feel at some stage in there life and yet is taboo.
just think about the day when you walk into a room and are no longer feel like the fattest woman in the room, but are vibrant and lithe and full of life - and everyone will look at you for that reason. Oh, and because you look hot!
Yes! I've felt that way from the very beginning. Many of the girls in my gym are very very slinder. Around the 100-115 pound mark. So it's weird when I go. Even now as I'm losing weight I still feel self-conscious around these girls. However, exercising makes me feel good anyway so usually the feeling goes away by the time I'm well into my workout.
I start thinking that I feel good because I'm letting them know that just because I'm not a size 2 I can still do the same things they can do. I do wish more larger girls would start coming to the gym I think it really helps to remove those negative stereotypes about us.
Thank the lord I am not alone in this. I like that WW commercial too, I totally related to it.
The class was fine. We didn't really get too into the workout today, but I had some kindred sprits in there. At first all the chick were seriously waifs, then some late comers were more normal looking and some on the heavier side. I could tell they were thinking the same thing as me, relieved to see eachother even though none of us had ever met, just glad we weren't alone in feeling out of place in an exercise class even though that's what we want to change our lives. Ironic!!! Anyway it went well and I am excited. Tonight is my dance class and I know I am able I would just love it if there weren't just skin and bones in there. My sister is taking it with me, all 106 pounds of here (at 5'2"), hahaha, she doesn't comfort me at all in that way, although she doesn't understand why I think I am fat, which is sweet.
Anyhow...I wonder, at least for myself when I will stop looking around for some one about my size or bigger.
At my gym there are all different sizes. From the ultra thin to the heavy set. I just started taking some of the classes (Cardio Seduction and Latin Dance) and everyone is different sizes. I don't care about how I look when I go to the gym. We are all there to exercise and to either get in shape or stay in shape. No one should be embarassed about working out.
I sometimes catch myself surveying almost any room I enter (aside from my house ) to see if I am the fattest. If I realize that I am not the fattest my little internal voice goes Woohooo! That is so sad........
Totally get ya! Only in my case I'm even more "visible" because I have an interpreter with me (hard of hearing). So as a rule, I tend to avoid gyms and the like. Even when I go out walking, I feel like everyone just rushed right to their windows to stare at me as I waddle on by. Paranoid, I know. LOL
I am usually on the plus size of the room here - but I am also usually (well not this month - but soon!) one of the most in shape in the room - so its got its ups and downs? But today - going to my first class in school (i'm in grad school) I am always afraid its going to be all these little sorority girs in the group classes - and was very relieved to find out its not -there are even some grad students - and today I knew someone in the class - whoo hoo!
Even now where I'm at a "normal" weight I still find myself thinking "am i thinner than her?" or if someone doesn't like me "well it must because i'm fat" it's a hard thing to get past.
Anyhow...I wonder, at least for myself when I will stop looking around for some one about my size or bigger.
I've seen other threads about this in Support and Maintainers and a few other places. It's a mental thing that takes a while to get over. For some women, even after reaching goal and being thin for a few YEARS, they still think about things like, "I wonder if I will fit into the booth at that restaurant?!" Our minds are so conditioned to think like overweight people that it really does take a long time for our thinking to catch up with our bodies once we've lost the weight
I (usually) feel like the fattest girl wherever I go. Even after losing 80 lbs, I still feel like I'm just as big as I ever was. It's like being the fat girl is so rooted into my identity that I'll always feel like that. I hate feeling like the biggest person wherever I go, but I've decided that I'm no longer going to let my weight hold me back from doing the things I want to do.
I still get it! I have to go to my Pilates class at school for the first time today (as some of you know) and I am totally afraid that I am going to be the fattest and most out of shape girl in class. I totally wanna go drop it even though I have been looking forward to it since November when I signed up. I am not going to drop it though, I told myself that I had to at least go to the first class. I hate feeling like this!
Do any of you feel like this ever?
All the time! I take pilates at the gym I go to, and I have to do some modifations to some of the positions, because I can't do a full plank, or a side plank. But you will get there, I promise! And all that matters is that you are taking the time to take the class!
The "fattest girl" fear
) to see if I am the fattest. If I realize that I am not the fattest my little internal voice goes Woohooo! That is so sad........
So as a rule, I tend to avoid gyms and the like. Even when I go out walking, I feel like everyone just rushed right to their windows to stare at me as I waddle on by. Paranoid, I know. LOL
