[KawaiiCandie]

Hey girls, hey newbs, I’m back.

I’m not quite sure what I should say, really, because I’m not happy, and I’m not proud. Last February, I weighed about 165lbs. last March when I was last here, I was hovering around 170lbs, being good for 2-3 days, then slipping, then being good again, then slipping, and then, after the earthquake, I somehow felt like I didn’t really give a **** about dieting anymore, and it’s been nightly bingeing for the last 3 months or so… I’ve tried to kick-start my diet a few times here and there, and succeeded for one week, at the longest, and I think this is the only reason that I haven’t bloated into even bigger of a balloon than I have.

I’m 180lbs now. it’s almost where I was at last summer. wtf happened?! I kept telling myself, when I was gaining it back “well at least you’re still thinner than last summer”… well guess what hun… not by much! every time I look in the mirror, I see the double-chin and the massive *** that wasn’t there before… I barely fit into most of my clothes, (and I can’t buy bigger ones because I live in Japan) and I threw away all my “fat clothes” last year, when I was doing so well…

so I decided to give it another go. not only do I want to fit into cuter clothes, but I want to fit in the clothes I already own!!! I don’t like the way I look right now, and it’s only up to me to change that, but it’s honestly been SO hard to put the cakes away… lol. feels kinda pathetic writing that, but it’s the truth. Anyhow, I’ve started “dieting” again since Monday, and yesterday, I exercised for the first time in months. I did 30DS level 1, and I kid you not girls, I cried. I couldn’t even do all of it (had to take breaks ) and I cried. it made me realize how ****ing out of shape that was. it’s insane.

Anyways, I’m back, and I hope you’ll have me back! I know this website was really helpful the first time around, so hopefully I can find some motivation again on here.

that’s all, peace out.

[krampus]

Glad to see you back here! I hope the binges become easier to control, I still have some problems with them but I am pretty much maintaining within a 2 kg range these days.

It is incredibly hard to put the cakes away like you say...but a few good days without junk food makes it much easier to continue that way. I have even managed to have ice cream and not run back to the store 10 minutes later to buy those STUPID chocolate covered almonds!

Hope you'll stick around for a while!

[KawaiiCandie]

haha, thanks! i shall try!

and you know, every time i buy those almonds now, i think of you? lol.

[Michi702]

Okaerinasai! Hopefully that was right, I only know a few phrases and words of Japanese >.O always meant to learn but never had the chance.

In any case, welcome back

[Lovely]

Welcome back =)

[KawaiiCandie]

yup, that means welcome back

and thanks!

[rainbowstripe]

Welcome back! I feel like I can't say that since I haven't been around much...but maybe I should make more of an effort. In any case, I know you can do it.

[AshleighAO]

Hey, welcome back, I'm sure most of us have been in your spot (back at close to the beginning and thinking wtf did I do?) I know I have and it's where I am again. We have some similar goals too

I can't even begin to say how much life situations affect your overall health and how the devastating earthquake and all the aftermath is a clear example. I have a few friends who experienced it as well as they were over there at the time... crazy crazy stuff.

I am glad you came back though to join us. I am finding myself constantly renewing myself to the healthy lifestyle even if it's a minor slip-up, it seems like the mindset of re-dedicating yourself is a major change Good luck hun!

[170starting]

Welcome back!! We all look forward to seeing your progress.