Need all kinds of support
I feel am so far down I don't know what to do with myself.
Professional: I am a teacher but, since I am a new teacher, I am getting laid off due to budget cuts next year. I have been looking for a new job and have not been successful. It is super-stressful to prepare for interviews and demo lessons and travel all over creation and I am always a finalist but never the final one. My last demo lesson, they called me up to tell me what a good job I had done, but that they were concerned that parents would "think I was too young" and that I would be constantly under scrutiny. So, I didn't get it.
Personal: I used to date someone for a long time. We then became friends and decided not to pursue a romantic relationship. 2 weeks ago, we were hanging out, and he started kissing me and we ended up sleeping together. I was an idiot and thought this meant something and got all romantic and hopeful. Two days later, while I was helping him clean his house, he went to "look something up online" and came back happily announcing he had gotten an email from a girl he knows agreeing to go out on a date with him. We got into a fight and I've decided that I can't be friends with him anymore because I have feelings for him that aren't going away. However, he was my best friend and we used to do fun things on the weekend. We also used to talk every day. Now I have nothing to do and no one to talk to. Also, I moved across the country recently and I have like 1 other friend in the area and that is it. I'm super-lonely.
Weight Loss: I am at 143.2 today, so that is a .2 loss from yesterday, but these last 20 lbs suck. I have literally only lost 24 lbs in the last 12 months and I am really diligent (though I don't exercise because I'm on my feet all day as a teacher). I've been dieting since December 2009 and I want to be done. I'm also sad to see all the people I started at 3FC have reached their goals, disappeared or otherwise moved on.
I am just so depressed. I feel like I'll never be thin or attractive or worth loving.
Last edited by girlinwaterglobe; 05-07-2011 at 06:00 PM.
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