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Originally Posted by h4a5r
I had my "ah-ha!" moment two years ago at the very end of my last relationship. It was a very emotionally (and sometimes physically) abusive relationship. It was not good and I knew it needed to end. I knew the only reason I stayed with someone who treated me so horribly was because I had no self-worth and thought I deserved it. He would tell me I was ugly, fat and disgusting -- all of the things I thought I was. But then, the next day he'd tell me I was gorgeous and wonderful... he would kick me down just to pick me back up.
This was all taking place during my last years of high school and in my first year at college -- I hadn't gotten into my first-choice school and was just kind of surviving at the school I had been admitted to. I applied to my dream school as a sophomore transfer and was accepted. The second after I got off of the phone with my admissions counselor and found out I was accepted, that was it. I initiated the breakup with my then-boyfriend and began to change my life. From May to August, I lost my abusive boyfriend and 40 pounds! That was my true ah-ha! moment. I realized I was capable and beautiful and worth the effort to feel good about myself.
Then I met my current boyfriend and got comfortable and gained the weight back. Now that I'm with someone who truly finds me beautiful, I want to see that beauty in myself too. So that's what I'm working on, now...
That's amazing that you've found someone who truly appreciates the beautiful person that you are! I believe we will get to this point when we start trusting ourselves(as cheesy as it sounds).