So I have noticed that every time I see a new low on the scale, I go into binge mode. Or I make my boyfriend cookies and muffins so I have an excuse to eat them. I know that I shouldn't do these things, and then I gain back like a pound or two in the process. I'm not sure why, though. Could it be that somewhere deep down I'm scared of not being fat? This isn't much of a post, but I was wondering if anyone else did the same thing and if you feel like there's a reason why we do it.

ive noticed this about myself as well. when i see that i have lost more weight, i suddenly get thought in my head of things i want to eat. for instance..we have a hugeeee basket still with easter candy. I havent touched it once! i got all the stuff for my husband. Yet i KNOW i got alot of candy that i like. so this morning, when i seen i had lost 2 more lbs since my last weigh in..i thought "maybe today i could have that marshmellow and caramel chocolate covered egg". and i THINK its because i felt like i lost more weight, so i COULD afford to eat it. since im 2 lbs LESS than what i WAS. not sure if that makes sense..but i didnt eat it anyway. i know what its going to do to me. its going to get me in a habit of always doing it when i lose weight. almost like a little celebration fro myself. but because i know the consequences, i wont eat it, as much as i wanted too. Ive been learning alot more self control...because in the end im only hurting myself.

Oh yeah, I am very familiar with self-sabotage. Usually before I hit a major milestone (eg onderland, BMI overweight, ...) I go into panic mode and start sabotaging myself and of course end up stalling my weight loss. It's annoying because as committed as I am to losing weight and reaching my goal, there is still a part of me that is scared of success...so when I'm successful that's when the self-sabotaging starts up. For me, the best thing this is to be aware of the problem. I know that I'll start to self-destruct when mini-goals come so I try to prepare myself ahead of time and just be aware that my choices need to be better. Of course it's a whole lot easier said then done, but then if it was easy then no one would be overweight

Oh yeah...I did that today. I think I'm scared of success. I've been jiggly my whole life. I've never expereinced being thin. But I agree, if you just are aware of it. Maybe do something to calm down and be focused and have a clear mind. Tell yourself you know what you want to do for yourself. Self-control is key. We can all do it!

OMG, I do the same thing. I get a low weight, and to celebrate, I binge! I have no idea why.

me toooooo i do this all the time i hate it!

I know that I have done this self-sabotage thing as well. Losing weight is usually a joyous thing but can test our perceptions about ourself as well as how others see us, so it has its scary side as well. What I have found since I have chosen to lose my excess weight over a year's time is that it has given me time to adjust to the changes in myself and in the reactions I have from others. In other words, less self sabotage because I am comfortable and used to my new body size.

I am currently in the middle of a week-long series of self-sabotaging binges. I'm just starting to lose size and get to a weight that I'm comfortable with, and I don't know if that's what is behind it or what. I'm hoping to get back on track tomorrow and hopefully end up someplace better than I've been for the past week.

If I didn't know better I'd say I was sleep walking, logged on to 3FC and typed out this thread myself. Each time I get to a new low I celebrate with food, telling myself "Ooh I deserve this, I've worked hard for this" which would be fine if I rewarded myself with one candy bar or a cheat meal but instead I'll reward myself with a whole bag of cookies, a cheat meal, soda and ice cream resulting in me having a big bloated belly with a nice big helping of guilt. It's a vicious cycle. I'm ashamed to admit that sometimes my binges can go on for a week or more and other times just a day but even a day is a day too many. I'm going to work on rewarding myself with non food related items. I'm sick and tired of losing five pounds and then gaining it back from my rewarding binges, it's getting old real fast. I think part of my problem is that I'm aware of the fact that I'm not REALLY overweight anymore and I look "ok" even although I'm still not all that happy with my inner health and appearance so I tell myself "Ah it's not so bad", if that makes sense? Sabotaging myself is something I excel in.....drop five pounds, gain six pounds, drop six pounds, gain seven pounds and slowly but surely it's creeping back.

I do it too. I had lost 90 pounds as of January and had to have two surgeries and have not been able to get back on program! I start the day out with good intentions and then late night I sabotage my self with whatever I can find that is sweet. I am so d$#m mad at myself because I have gained back 20 pounds. Why do I do it??? It felt so awesome to lose all that weight...

I do it all the time. I just got down to 120 for the fist time in YEARS. I was so happy that i decided to celebrate with ice cream and candy and 2 days of big meals out. needless to say i am up 2 pounds and angry with myself. I totally know what your dealing with.

so i went jogging farther than i had ever gone last night and i had some healthy snacks and was full. then i promptly ate a lot of chocolate ._. i guess i was so proud of myself?

Gah! I do this too. I guess that I still associate bad food and lots of it with reward? I think a mentality paradigm shift has to occur. Yes, an occasional treat can be a reward; however, food is fuel and should e thought of as such. Easier said than done.