I'm going to an aquatic park on Sunday to take pictures of water lillies. It seems like people would be willing to pay for my pictures, so I'm trying to build up a portfolio.

nicole, thats the beauty of this website...weve all been there...ive learned not to beat myself up...."i aint trippin" has become my mantra when i stray from the plan....i know you can do it, You know you can do it, remember youve got all the time in the world...just learn to forgive yourself

Nicole : I agree with everybody else, just put it behind you. Everybody has bad days. Just focus on TODAY, that's all that matters. Like David said, you have all the time in the world. This isn't a race. And there's no rule that says you can't jump right back on the wagon if you fall off. :-)

Stellarosa : That's awesome about the photos! I'd love to see some of your work, if you have any online!

Me : I'm having a great day so far! I did an hour of cardio, even managing to run for about ten minutes (might not seem like much, but a few months ago, I could barely run for 30 seconds without turning blue). I'm also proud of my food choices : yogurt, veggie omelet, spring salad... Yay me!

Good job, Cara!

This is the link to my photo journal: http://jdelia43.shutterfly.com/

I take more pictures of flowers than anyone needs to, I think.

today is a craptastic day for me. as you know i'm on vaca with the fam, and just getting over a breakup with the boy after almost 3 years. well i've been pretending to be ok all week because i didn't want to ruin anyone's vacation and today i snapped. i've been locked in my room crying all day, terribly nauseous. i can't pretend to be ok anymore. i backed out of parasailing, even though i've been waiting to do it all year, because i'm just not in the emotional state to do it. i know i have to eat, but everytime i think about food i'm back in the bathroom feeling like i'm going to hurl. i think i'm just ready to go home and get away from everyone where i can deal with my emotions instead of having to pretend like everything's good. that way i can cry when i need to, and then be ok and go out with friends, and maybe, dare i say it, eat. ugh, sorry . i just needed to vent.

sounds like everyone could use a hug today... *HUGS ALL AROUND!*

I've lost almost 5 pounds, but have not lost any inches whatsoever. FRUSTRATED. want to give up...

Oh Amy, I'm sorry!

/hugs

When do you go home?

Well today has been ok for me so far. My baby is 2 today! I've eaten so much watermelon this week that I'm glad here in south Ga we only get it during the summer! But I love it!
As for the upcoming weekend I hope I can be strong! We have 4 birthday parties to go to. One is my sons, and the others are family, and one of them I know is having chocolate cake so ill be good there since I don't do chocolate or caffiene!
Hope everyone gets to feeling better!

Well today has been ok for me so far. My baby is 2 today!still no loss yet. I've actually gained which sucks. Does it matter when you weigh? I've eaten so much watermelon this week that I'm glad here in south Ga we only get it during the summer! But I love it!
As for the upcoming weekend I hope I can be strong! We have 4 birthday parties to go to. One is my sons, and the others are family, and one of them I know is having chocolate cake so ill be good there since I don't do chocolate or caffiene!
Hope everyone gets to feeling better!

brandy...bring gum to the parties:) i know, gum is my solution for everything. haha. happy b'day to your baby!! and happy baby b'day to you, since you probably did much more work during the birth than your baby:)

twinkie-congrats!! 5 lbs calls for a celebration. do i hear mani/pedi on the way?

as for me, today, somehow, managed to turn into a pretty decent day after all. i was a hot mess until about 4 when i finally went upstairs and was able to eat. i realized that no matter how hard i have it there are so many people that have it so much worse and i need to quit *****ing cuz, i mean, i'm in the freakin outer banks....SO we went for a HUGE sea food dinner, totally off plan but MAN it was good. i know it's not healthy but that surf 'n turf healed my heart pretty quickly (though it probably clogged my arteries hehe). to top it all of, we did some shopping. i had been bikini searching before coming down here and couldn't find any tops that fit or made me look remotely good so i came to the conclusion that i couldn't buy one until i lost more weight. well my cousin and i were in a store and she found tops that were DD and dared me to try it on, and HOLY CRAP it fit!! so of course, i bought it. it's the first bikini i've ever bought in my life...and my stomach was bloated from dinner and i still looked 1/2 decent. so i'm super excited. someone up there must be lookin out for me, because each craptastic day i have somehow ends up good. the universe works in mysterious ways.

amyleigh - PICS!!!

oakfieldmama - I think you deserve to go off plan for one small piece of birthday cake at your son's party!

amy so glad you crawled out of that funk cuz all i could think of was "make the best of it" or "hang in there" and i didnt think those would do much good...im going to lake tahoe tomorrow and i cant wait!!

amy - Yay! I think that going off plan was a good swap for not being so upset anymore.

mini - nicely done!

I didn't get up an exercise this morning. I got home from work last night and immediately started cleaning - didn't finish until 9:30 - and I was so wound up I couldn't fall asleep until almost midnight. That is not helpful when you have to get up at 5am. My guests arrive between 5 & 6… and last I heard they planned on making us dinner tonight and taking us out to dinner tomorrow. Eeek. I may be a very sad and off-track chicka on Sunday!

I haven’t seen my therapist in like a month & a half because of vacations, visits, etc… I have an apt at 5 tonight (my husband will have to babysit the guests until I get home). I have to give her what I have written so far on this stupid story. Ugh. I wanted to write a book, because my brain is filled with… ridiculous nonsense. (Seriously, I’m just way too weird sometimes.) Anyhoo, what seems to come out is something based upon my grandfather dying when I was in middle school. SO… apparently I need to “get it out of my system”. Goody! Now I get to write and proofread what I went through when I was 12 and lived with someone slowly dying for 2 years. My husband read it. He said it was “Beautifully written but horribly depressing.” Haha, ya think? This should be an interesting appointment…

Amy - that's great! :)

Marbear - good luck tonight! I can't imagine how difficult that must be to go back and re-read that. I thought about doing something like that after my grandmother and mother died, but I'm not ready (I can't even go to the cemetery). If it makes any sense, I'm "afraid" to get it out of my system.

I did not exercise yesterday - not in the conventional sense. I had a rocking migraine, so I skipped the gym. Sometimes caffeine helps, so I had a soda and bam, went right away. I had lots of stuff to do, so I cleaned part of my house, did laundry and went to the bookstore. I <3 WW because this so counts as activity. I left my food tracker at work so I accidentally ate under points, but whatever. I'm so freaking excited its Friday...

mar if they make unhealthy foods, think about portion size then you wont be so sad about what you ate, stella my neice died in a car accident 4 years ago and her mom still cant completely clean her room out, shell go in and straighten out some clothes or something like that....the point is everyone has their own ways of coping, theres no right or wrong...and by the way, i lost 2 lbs